My Cheeks Hurt

Ok...that title is serious. I have smiled more over the last three days than I have in my entire life. My cheeks actually hurt...like from a workout. It's a wierd sensation. Tonight was the best night ever...to date. It's going to be hard to top..but I am up to the challenge...and so is the amazingly awesome girl I am dating. That's right...it's official..I am off the market. Today started with work...which, even though my voice is almost totally gone...was an amazing day at Jaws. The rain was there in full force...but still I smiled all day. Then we left work at 6 and went to Valencia where I saw Chris' new show "Blood Relations". It is a great show...very interesting. Chris did an amazing job in the space he was using...and with the cast that he had. I had pretty much no problems with his direction at all. While we were there Yvette and her ex-husband came in and sat in front of us. Great time with Alicia. The we went to dinner at The Cheesecake Factory..mostly because she had never been. We talked...and talked..and talked...and laughed...and I blushed for pretty much the first time that I can remember...ever. It's wierd..but I think I like blushing. Then I drove her home and we sat in the car for a while talking. I loaned her the Last 5 Years..after making her listen to "Next Ten Minutes". We have decided that we both made the first move...lol. It was just all around a great night...ending with me...being satisified with the way the night went..but not wanting it to end at all. I am at home right now...wishing I was still in my car..in her driveway. I will blog later

2 Dates, 2 Days

Today was a great day. I got to work at 9:30 to find out that they were 90 hours over budget. When Alicia got there I said that we should take the day off and go hang out in the parks. She wasn't all for it at first. I gave her a hard time for a few minutes then gave up with every intention to continue that on later in the day, knowing full well that it wouldn't take much more to convince her. As I was walking down to load with Rebecca May I told her about my idea and she was all for it. She went back and told Alicia to put her name on the list. She quickly did so. Then she and I had a great time...riding rides, walking around parks, talking about...everything. For example: I know that her favorite pizza topping is pepperoni but she likes most everything except for mushrooms, She believes and fully endorses the "Bum Day", and she wants a giant stuffed shark from Amity Games...and that is my quest...along with many other things. I gave her the blog information...and I am sure she will read this eventually. If she still likes me after reading my blog...there's hope. :) The giggling, high fives, smiling, and just all around happiness for the two of us at Jaws is continuing. I watched her show today...she is so great. If you get a chance you should go and see it. Talented, beautiful, funny, intelligent, AND interested in me. I am seriously waiting to wake up. I will blog later...most likely after our date tomorrow night..which I am oh so eagerly awaiting. Now I am going to bed...Oh, So tired.

GREAT DAY! GREAT AFTERNOON! GREAT NIGHT!

So today was...as you probably noticed a great day. I asked Alicia out...and she said yes...and the day progressed with me in a very good mood. That totally threw off some of my coworkers...who all know about what's going on...even though no one told them. Alicia's best friend Rebecca May says that anyone with eyes knows what's going on...cause...well apparently..in the all the of two minutes that we saw eachother today at work we were...doing something that made made people see that we were going on a date on Saturday. Whatever...by the end of the day I think we just both decided that everyone knew already so...whatever. I had originally decided not to go to Jaws Jen's birthday celebration tonight at PI...but through a brilliantly sneaky move executed by Alicia and thought up by Rebecca May...I ended up going..seeing Polar Express and going to Planet Hollywood. Alicia and I however ended up basically ignoring everyone else there...there were a few minimal conversations with everyone else...but to tell you the truth I kept forgetting they were there. That's bad...but good. The night ended with a hug and a goodnight...and me running at like 90 miles an hour trying to make Saturday night come faster.

The other awesomely amazing thing that happened today is Alyson and Sarah came and rode my boat at Jaws today. I LOVE IT WHEN PEOPLE DO THaT! They seemed to genuinely enjoy the show. Even though I scream too much. Doing that whole....acting thing. lol...don't know what that's about. I am really glad they were there today. In a realated note..I would like to make a few ammendments to my blog of previous date. The one where I discuss how my friends will be a close second and all to whoever I am officially dating. Well I think that was grossly missinterpreted. My girlfriend and my friends will be equals...I have come to this decision because you need both in your life. Now..there will be understanding on both sides of the equation I hope. My friends will not fall into second...atleast until much farther down the line...if ever. Alyson, Billy, Lu Lu, Jen, Kyle, Sarah, & all the others who know who they are..will be here to stay...at the top of my list...just with an additional player. I hope that this satisfies all parties..if not..you may put your requests in blog comment form and they will all be taken into concideration.

People who get cool points for riding my boat at Jaws: Billy, Alyson, Sarah, Kyle
People who are exempt from this decision due to distance: Jen
People who just haven't made time to come and see me: LU LU! It's a five minute tour...COME ON! :)

I'll blog later.

Today Is The Day

Well everyone..today is the day of reckoning..the day when I stand before a beautiful woman and ask her out on a date...and there is a possibility it could end with a positive. YAY! She wasn't in yesterday..fully realizing my fear of life cocking the Fuck-with-Me gun. I was afraid that for some reason Universal had sent her to Antarctica for the first ever Jaws on Ice theme park attracion located not in a theme park. Work was tiring...I lost my voice some...but whats new. Saw my Jaws people...love those guys. Then I went to Improve rehearsal..which is shaping up to be...scary as hell. But oh well...Alyson said I am witty...so I must be. The funniest thing all night was when I said "I'm a good Plane...driver." Billy congratulated me on that one..even though no one else in the room laughed. ANYWAY...I am off to work..as my brother continues to sleep in his bed on this the most noble of holidays that I am going to spend..saving the world...one boat load at a time. I'll blog later.

CURSE YOU KRONOS, CURSE YOU!!!!!

So...I know what you are thinking..."Damn Eric is posting early." Yeah..that's what I am thinking too. I got up to take my brother to school and being that I have to be at work at 10...there really isn't much point in going back to sleep. So I figured I would take this time before my shower to post in my blog. My grandmother got out of the ICU last night. She is now back in progressive care and all around much happier as far as I can tell. Today is going to be kind of hectic...I go in at 10, get off at 6:15, have rehearsal in Clermont at 7, get out of that at 10 and then I have to get up tomorrow morning at 5 to take my brother to school again. Fun times. Tomorrow won't be much easier probably...planning on going to SAK with Billy, Alyson, and J...it's A Night At SAK, Take 2. It should be fun. Then Friday will be a little slower...but Saturday..if things go well..I should have a date, hopefully. And contrary to my friends beliefs (Billy and Alyson) I will not entirely abandon my friends when I have a girlfriend...yes..they will most likely become second on the rank of importantce in my life..but they will be a close second. We will see. Anyway...shower awaits..followed by breakfast and then the working...and the hoping that Alesha will be there so that the awkwardness of both of us knowing that the other one is interested but neither of us doing anything about it can be brought to a screeching hault by yours truly. I'll blog later with the results of the day..my luck...she won't be there..ever again...but hey..luck changes rght? RIGHT?!?!? later

And We're Back

Sorry everyone, namely Alyson, it's been kinda busy..and now that I am back to the roach-innfested rat hole that I am currently calling home...it's harder to find the time to post. My grandmother is doing much better...she ended up with a quadruple bypass and suffering from serious Morphine rage. She is already stronger than when she went in..so that's a good idea. Since Thursday I have..well...spent time with Billy, Alyson, and Sarah mostly. I visited Billy's dad a couple of times to see how he's doing..doing much better. I saw SAW, The Incredibles, and Shark Tale. SAW was pretty good...despite all the naysayers that were there. Shark Tale...not even worth mentioning. The Incredibles...well...it was...incredible. I bonded with Sarah over our 6 hours at the movie theater. It was fun. She and I have a lot in common. I also found out that the girl that I like at Jaws likes me too...that's nice to know..Eric may end his single life soon. That sounded somewhat suicidal...but it wasn't meant to. You get it. Man of La Mancha rehearsals are...well..fun..and annoying. The fact that the director actually uses the term.."Slap it together"...is a little unnerving. Less of a director most of the time and more of a...periodically suggestive leader of action in relation to the stage. We'll call her a PSLARS...I think that will do. That's my post..I will attempt to post daily..but no garuntees. I'll blog later.

Groggy Morning And A Threatening Day Ahead

Well my alarm went off at 6:15 but I couldn't talk myself into getting out of bed till 7. I am going to spend most of the day in the hospital. My back and neck are hurting from being all tense all night, my stomach is all knotted from waking up worrying all night. It sucks how sleep makes you deal with whatever you have been denying all day. I have a bad feeling about today.....but it could just be a bad feeling. In any case, the next 10 days are going to be very rough. The surgery takes about 3 and a half hours..if everything goes perfect. I will be there most of the day. Then tonight I am going to visit Billy's dad at the hospital after his knee surgery. I am so freaking tired. I'll blog later.

EATING PASTE!!!!!

So today was such a long day..that headache stuck with me the majority of it. I was at the hospital until 4:30 or so. The heart cath went well...they couldn't do anything..but it went well. They found that 2 main ateries and a main vain in her heart were 95 to 98% blocked and atleasat one other artery is significantly blocked. They are doing atleast a quadruple bypass, possibly a quintuple bypass tomorrow morning at 7:30 a.m. I will be there. Obviously I care about my family...cause I am spending too much time in places I hate. Then I came back to the house of dog watching and house sitting and walked the dogs while watching the house. Then I went to meet Alyson, J, and Billy for SAK (). Well before I left I didn't think Billy was going to come..just one of those gut feelings I get sometimes that I have learned to respect. Sure enough he called at 7:20 during a barrage of calls that kept interrupting my call with Alyson so I could find out how to get to the Gelato place. He couldn't come cause his class ran way over..and he didn't think he could make it. So I met J and Alyson for Gelato..my first Gelato ever...very good. And I think that the stalking of Alyson down the streets of Downtown saying, "I see you...you just turned..looking left...now right..You're washing a dish..now you heard something..and you came out...where are your shoes?" made it more fun.

We headed down to SAK..it was...dissapointing. The people weren't great...the show was mediocre...the funniest thing all night was when Alyson suggested "Eating Paste" as a topic for a scene. That got the biggest laugh of the night...all night. An old friend from my good Moonlight days was on the piano..playing it..not sitting on it..Jim doesn't look so good in a red sequined dress..maybe blue..wait..no.. nevermind. We talked breifly about moonlight..kinda..cementing in my mind that he is not coming back. On an unrelated note..he thought Alyson and I were an item. lol! J was in the bathroom..so I can see where it could be construed as that. ANYWAY..it was a good time had by all. Blog atcha layta!

Well I'm Up

I am getting ready to go to the hospital to see my grandmother and wait through her Heart cath..but one thing. Is it bad when you wake up and your eyes hurt..and I mean like...real pain...not from looking at something too hard or from getting poked in the eye. It feels like someone punched me really hard last night..or maybe there is a little man behind the actual eyeball and he is trying to push it out. It just is kind of unpleasant..and it's been like that since I woke up. ANNYWAY..I am off to the hospital. FYI: Billy and I are planning to go to SAK tonight to catch a cheap improv show if anyone wants to join. The show is at 8...everything will be defined a little better later in the day when I see how my grandma is. I will blog later.

Tung My Wang...And An Unrelated Pleasant Surprise

So today I was driving to the hospital to visit my ailing Grandmother..and I almost got in a car accident..it wasn't so much because I wasn't paying attention..or because someone else wasn't. It was actually because I was paying too much attention to my surroundings. I was driving down Mills..and I got to the Vietnamese section of downtown..and there..low and behold was a massage parlor...and the name..posted in large light up red letters was.. "TUNG MY WANG" I laughed so hard I almost ran off the road. I know that that is their language..and it shouldn't be funny..but I am 22 and that reference had to be laughed at...I nearly chocked on the air I was breathing..swerved back into my lane and continued to the hospital.

They had moved my grandmother and I didn't know...I walked into the room where she had been previously and there was someone else in the bed..I had a sudden panic attack. I was sure she had died in the night and being that my Aunt is executor or whatever...the hospital called her..and being that she is mad at my father..he didn't know..and being that he didn't know..I didn't know. The woman in the bed told me they had moved my grandmother and that someone else had just asked for the same person. I went down to the nurses station who showed me the way to her room..kinda...she told me to walk all the way around the hospital and it would be on my right. My grandmother is getting a heart cath at around 10 tomorrow morning..and I am going to be there with my dad..it's not looking too good..but if something happens atleast she won't be in pain anymore.

Then Billy and I went to auditions for the Improv troop they are trying to start over at the Pier house. It sounds really cool..start with a paying crowd and we get part of the money..then move up to a possible late night show on the WB. This guy supposedly has connections...I am just doing it to have some fun and maybe earn a few extra bucks in the process but if I get recognized on T.V. and get a few acting jobs in the process...so be it. Billy and I both made it in. Along with Jodie from a few years back in "A Christmas Carol" and a guy I took my class at SAK with. Then there were two other guys who made it in..can't remember their names but one of them is currently studying at SAK and writes sketches constantly..and the other came with the director from Minnisota or somewhere like that. I think we are going to have a blast...and hopefully it will help me stop feeling inadequate as an actor. 22 and constant paid acting work since I was 19..that's not to shabby for someone without a degree. Can't support myself on it..but still..not to shabby.

Jen and I got in a little tiff about politics...lending to my theory that politics and all things related are evil..and therefore have no place on my blog. So I am done blogging about all things political..until the next time they piss me off.

In the last 2 days, 2 people who know me very well(Billy and my Aunt Jackie) have told me that the only time they see me truly happy is when I am onstage. Billy saw it tonight at Improv auditions. It's true...the times I am truly happy are when I am onstage or hanging out with my friends...or hanging out on stage with my friends in front of a large audience pulling bits out of the air. I am genuinely excited about this chance.

In the last two nights I have eaten out with two of my friends. Last night Alyson and I went to Ale House for our first outting as friends and it was thuroughly enjoyable..even if the demon yorky did attack her. Tonight Billy and I went to Chili's cause he played Paper Mario ALL DAY and forgot to eat. It's almost like I have a social life again. I have to get back into the quasi-city life. That trailer is sucking my soul out like the cream out of a really good canoli and for the first time ever..Billy understands why..after our visit out there when no one was home. He totally understands why I hate it there so much...and it's nice to find understanding..even if his girlfriend hass decided that she hates me. :p

I'll blog later.

Things I Learned Today

1. Bad Elections bring out the angry in nice people...and not the normal angry..the irrational threating to move out of the state angry. (oh, that's right..I went there.)
2. Doctors suck..unless they are saving your life...then they are temporarily excusable.
3. Doctors changing their schedules after you have changed your schedule to work around their previous schedule...suck.
4. Life goes on, people talk, we will surive.
5. Things don't brown so good in a glass baking dish.
6. Lunch is always better when you have a complete resume.
7. Things brown much better with tin foil.
8. No matter how the vote goes...roughly 50 percent of the threatens to leave for 4 years.
9. I make friends very easily...somme might say too easily.
10. I also make enemies pretty easily...Skills I don't need # 1..checked off.
11. My blog gets more and more boring every day...and with each of these boring posts I have the potential of pissing someone off...or if it's todays post..I have the potential of piss lots of people off.
12. I always end my posts with "I'll blog later."
I'll blog later.

The Great Latin Translation Search Of 04

So what do you do when your grandmother is in the hospital and you don't want to think about it? You continue to try to get the perfect translation of a Psalm you are going to sing in nearly 3 months from now. My parent's called me at 11:28 and took me out to lunch. We talked and then we went to Barnes and Nobles where I went straight to the Christianity Section for the first time in my whole life and started thumbing through Catholic bibles...I knew I would have a better chance finding it there and looked for a prayer that started with something along the lines of "I call from the depths to you." I realized that most psalms start that way...but this one I think is pretty close.
"Psalm 130
Out of the depths I call to you,
Lord; Lord,
Hear my cry!
May your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
If you, Lord, mark our sins, Lord, who can stand?
But with you is forgiveness and so you are revered."

Not so sure about those last two lines...I don't actually have the whole Latin Psalm..cause the script cuts off mid psalm and just says "The Padre's Hymn concludes as the lights dim out and then immediately..." I know Alyson has the sheet music...and I know she will read this..and I am hoping she can help me out with the rest of the Latin..I will get the english..but I need the rest of the Latin. I am still going to a priest and asking him for the translation as best he knows...can't hurt to cover all sources of information. I have Macy's auditions tonight...YAY CHRISTMAS CLOWN BANANZA! Anyway...I need to go to the hospital pretty soon..so I will blog atcha later.

What Did The Padre Just Say?!?!

So I decided while I was sitting here with a high speed internet connection that I would translate the latin prayer that my character sings at the end of Man of La Mancha. Because...believe it or not..but it's nice to know what you are saying..helps with the character. The original Latin Prayer goes as follows.

"De Profundis Clamo Ad Te,
Domine, Domine,
Audi Vocem Meam!
Fiant Aures Tuae Intentae
Ad Vacem Obsecretionis Me Ae.
Si Delictorum
Memoriam
Serva Veris....."

The English translation as best I could decipher is

"I call from the depths to you,
Lord, Lord,
Hear My Call.
May your ears be eager.
I implore you
for forgiveness
the memory,
Watch over your servant."

I am going to ask some Catholic friends of mine to ask their priest if they don't mind. Just for a more literal translation..and if I have to I will go to a Catholic church and ask. It is a beautiful prayer none the less. I will blog later

Long Day Of Loafing

So today had all the criteria to be a great day...but apparently that was not in the cards for the Eric. I got up at 11:30...and proceeded to talk myself out of doing anything other than playing X-men Legends on the Gamecube. I walked the dogs..all that stuff. The owner, Buffy, called to check on her babies...gee...so paranoid..but they pay good...and I have decided that is so that the paranoid phone calls don't bother me. I would do this for free...if they weren't paying me for it. (That remark is hereby stricken from the record because I am frikkin broke.) So at about 3 o'clock Billy called me to tell me he wasn't going to rehearsal..not feeling well...that's what you get when you work HHN one night and Jaws bright and early the next. Then shortly thereafter my mom called to tell me my Grandmother is in the hospital. She is having a heart cath on Wednesday morning..basically they aren't giving her much longer to live unless she has a bypass...only problem is...they don't think she will survive the recovery from the bypass and so they are making the difficult decision of do nothing and make her comfortable until it happens or do surgery and take the chance that her last days might be very uncomfortable...but atleas then there is a chance. She has been popping Nitro Tabs like crazy...so I don't know what they will do. I would blog about last night in Disorientorium when Billy and I scared Alyson and Sarah and everyone..but I think she covers it quiet well...except for the fact that I jump out and yelled "Aldonza" just as they came into my room...then followed behind them and laughed maniacally in Alysons ear causing her to jump and laugh histerically...then I ran around to the back entrance door that is no even supposed to be used for scares and yelled "bye" in a high pitched crazy voice (demonstrations available upon request) as Sarah was walking through...it was good times had by all as far as I could tell. Ok..so maybe I will blog about last night at Disorientorium....ANYWAY. I am going to be chilling here for a while tomorrow and then going to vote in Ferndale...damn Ferndale. Then on to Macy's auditions and then back here...it's good times. It is 1:26...I am no longer required to stay up this late...and I am wide awake. I work Jaws on Wednesday....yay. (notice the lack of exclamation points...) So my decent tenor is going to go the way of the Transformers for a while..Blog later.

And The Eric Stands Alone

Damn Halloween...it always goes and ends on me just when I am enjoying it so much that I am afraid my heart is going to burst. I made friends...met some hot girls...all the good stuff. Then it's over...and I am the only one that is upset by the fact that I no longer will don my Checkerboard gear and scare the piss out of suspecting tourists. It's sad. But I will get over it.330 days to go until I get to do it again. Next year streets will rock..and I'll be there. Gotta say though that it never fails that whatever cast I am in is the one that exceeds expectations...unless they say that to all the casts and I am just not aware. But anyway...it's over..I'm sad...but not so sad as to cry. I would also like to remind everyone that Titanic the Musical is great... The music is moving and that's all there is to it. Listen to it. BYE

Scary....Very Scary

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to
console others. Too generous
and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous.
Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts. Loves
to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in
the arts, music and
defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns
to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and
caring. Loves to make
friends .


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Another Survey On Eric...SOOO SORRY

Ok everyone...if anyone has a problem with this survey...don't read it...Here goes everything.

1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?
Eyes...all it takes is a beautiful set of peepers and I am gone.

2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?
Yes...if they were the best for the job. Do we really still need this question in 2004?

3. Would you marry for money?
No...I would marry for love...but if money was there...I would marry a lot richer.

4. Have you had braces?
Nope..no braces..but my teeth are getting slightly crooked in the front...

5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?
I have before. Gotta keep the unibrow in check...never met a girl who would answer question one of this survery with...Love a sexy unibrow...you know..like Bert from Seasame Street...

6. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?
Ummm..Hello..I'm Eric..Have we met? I'm 22 and I have already had knees surgery..Shall I just spell it out. A-C-C-I-D-E-N-T P-R-O-N-E

7. When was the last time you had a hickey?
Never had one...taking applications... Last time I gave one...about 8 months ago...that was a fun night.

8. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy List, etc.?
Yeah..what of it?

9. If so, how many people are on your list?
over 100..but I only talk to like 10.

10. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?
Hmmm..not sure. Maybe...Renaissance.

11. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?
Usually take them off as soon as I walk in the door..but sometimes..I don't.

12. What is your favorite fruit?
Fugi Apples...and Grapes.

13. Do you eat wheat bread or white?
Mostly white..but I love Honey Wheet.

14. What is your favorite place to visit?
Not sure...Haven't been many places...I do like going to my Grandfather's place..and hanging out in the creek.

15. What is the last movie you saw?
The Grudge

16. Do you kiss on the first date?
Yes...if it feels right.

17. Are you photogenic?
Hmm..I don't think so..but others do..sometimes. I make one hell of a scary monster guy in my HHN pics.

18. Do you dream in color or black and white?
Depends on the dreams..but usually very vivid color.

19. Are you wearing fingernail polish?
Ummm..nope.

20. Do you have any dimples?
yeah..slight.

21. Do you remember being born?
I remember a tunnel...and getting spanked..but that could have been...last week..so I don't know.

22. Why do you take surveys?
because...I feel obligated...it's wierd. If someone takes the time and effort to fill one of these out and send it to me..I feel so obligated to do the same.

23. Do you drink alcohol?
Sometimes..not a lot..but sometimes..but only in social settings.

24. Did you like high school?
No..not at all.

25. What is the most beautiful language?
Italian...I think..but a girl with a slight southern accent tends to throw me for a loop.

26. When you are asleep, do you like being kissed awake?
Never happened...but..we will take that to the bottom of the application.

27. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?
Depends on who I am spending them with...but in all reality..if they are special enough...both. Sunrises because that usually means you just finished a great ight...and sunsets because that usually means a great night is yet to come.

28. Do you want to live to be 100?
Depends on what my life is like..who I am with...ect.

29. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair?
Expected? No. I do find it’s more pleasant that way, though.

30. Do you prefer salty or sugary food?
Sugary foods with slightly salty undertones..it makes the sweet sweeter...Damn..I am a cook.

31. Is a flat stomach important to you?
Not really...I would like to have a flat stomach..but it is a lot of work..and I don't expect that from everyone.

32. Do you or have you ever played with a Ouija board?
Made my own once...with my friend Jeremy. It was wierd..stupid kids medling with the unknown..and my dad's shotglass.

33. Are you loyal?
I think so...but you would have to ask my friends. Sometimes too loyal I would think.

34. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?
yes...as long as they don't include telling me what mine should be.

35. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
Usually off. Glare on TV bothers me.

36. Do you believe in magic?
Yes. If you don't...life is to scientific.

37. Do you have nightmares frequently?
No..but when I do..they are dooseys.

38. Do you like your nose?
Not particularly...it seems really big..but it's me...so ok.

39. Do you like abstract art?
Yes..it's cool.

40. Do you think you can draw well?
No....I have trouble with a circle...when I have a compass.

41. Do you listen to music every day?
yes...more like every minute.

42. Do you like to watch cartoons?
Yes...if you don't...start.

43. At what age did you find out Santa Clause wasn't real?
Not sure...mom and dad weren't so good at that whole...fantasy thing.

44. How many pairs of shoes are in your closet?
Maybe 3.

45. Do you write poetry?
yes..not all the time..just when I am moved.

46. Do you snore?
Not that I know of.

47. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
Rottweiler..poodles are froofy.

48. Do you lick stamps?
Sometimes..if that's all I have.

49. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?
No..but I plan to..on a very romantic date..some day.

50. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?
Emotional...and I have had my fair share of both..so..yeah..emotional.

51. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?
Not if they don't want to.

52. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?
My mother...she's heavily medicated...

53. Do you know someone who has cancer?
Not at the moment.

54. Are you a sex addict?
It's hard for a virgin to be a sex addict...

55. Do you hunt?
No...Part of why I stand out so much in my family.

56. Do you like fast food, or expensive restaurants?
Both...at any point in time.

57. Are you basically a happy person?
That's a toughie...my blog would say no..and so would most of my friends...but I think I am happier than some.

58. Are you tired?
Yes. Always....but that's because I try to keep busy...and I fail at it...

59. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?
Cherry Coke.

60. Have you ever met anyone on the internet?
yep...not anyone dateable.

61. How long is your hair?
Short.

62. Do you get along with your parents?
Not usually...cause I am living with them..but when i am not living with them we get along pretty good. Part of it could be my age...22...

63. Are you an active person?
Do video games, parades, scaring people at HHN, and all that stuff count.

64. What does your bedroom look like?
Ummmm....a lilly pad pond...but more with a bed and stuff? WHAT A STUPID WAY TO END THE SURVEY!!!

Long Day With Luvya, the Helper Monkey

Today I am bored...that was the theme...bored and tired. I didn't sleep at all last night...I finally passed out at around 12:30 this afternoon and got up at 3 shower and go to work. Well I get in the car and it sputtered but didn't start. It appears I got some bad gas from a gas station..and my tank and filter had to be cleaned. So I called work and they told me to take the night off. So I did. Then I sat at home and tried to gain back all the weight I worked to lose..I don't think I did it though. Now it's almost 10 p.m. and I am making brownies and reading my friends blogs...I guess I should look into culinary arts...I mean I cook when I am bored, when I am mad, when I am depressed...There is something soothing in taking things and making them into other things that taste really good. In reading everyone's blogs I noticed that ONE...(Billy's Blog) For the first time in a long time I have no romantic prospects...it's strange...cause even when I didn't have any real prospects..I still had Carrie prospects in the back of my mind..and being that we haven't spoken in months...lol. TWO...(Alyson's Blog)I am going to either bore you to death or pull you deep into my interesting web of finformation that is "ERIC AND THE BLOG SURVEY"

1) What is your favorite cd currently?
I am not really one for favorites of anything..cause it takes to much time and thought to decide on the favorite and then when I make the decision something new comes along and I am all...OOHH!!! THAT'S GOOD! But I think it's either the most recent "Three Doors Down" CD or Stephen Lynch's "A Little Bit Special".

2) Favorite sandwich?
Panera Bread, Ham and Cheese on Honey Wheat hold the Alfalfa crap...lots of Mayo. With Chicken Noodle Soup. Mmmm....

3) Characteristic you despise?
Disloyalty, Two-Faced people...Things like that.

4) Favorite article of clothing?
Don't really have a favorite...but there are these shorts that I have had for years...they are bluish but faded...and sooo comfortable...but I lost a lot of weight and they fall off me now.

5) If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Australia, New Zealand, Ireland, Scotland..World Tour anyone?

6) What did you want to be when you were little?
First was a Clown...then Space man, then doctor for a long time, then vet, then actor..still there...and maybe a chef. So maybe I'll get the Culinary Arts degree and have a cooking show..but like...Tyler Florence Style cooking show. Where I could be a great actor..but just concentrate on the cooking.

There ya go...wipe up the drool from the sleeping on the keyboard..and I'll post later.

And Then I Peed Myself

So today was a day of Billy and Eric hang time that will go down in infamy. It started at 1:3o when he called and told me that I should come over and go and see "The Grudge" with him...I agreed. It took some time for me to get a shower and get over there cause TV and stuff distracted me. After I got there and picked him up we went to Chipotle...Mexican Fast Food Burrito & Taco Bar Heaven....GOOD TIMES! Then we went to see the movie. The best thing is we were both sufficiently freaked out by the time the movie started just from the freaky previews..one of which looks to have some serious promise for scaring me...which takes a lot. The name of that movie is "White Noise". You can check out some stuff about it at http://www.aaevp.com. It looks really cool. We watched the movie..it was really good. Billy was very very freaked out....and we decided that I am immune to fear..it's wierd. We went back to his place and I played some Paper Mario..then we watched Smallville..SOO GOOD...Then we went to Blockbuster where I discovered I bought the wrong video game system. We wanted X-Men Legends for the Gamecube...no has it...everyone has it for the PS2 and the XBox...but not for Gamecube..WHATEVER! Then to the bank and to the Super Walmart...where Billy purchased Futurama Volume 4...Good times. Through the day and night Billy tried very, very hard to get me to leave him with Paper Mario...to no avail unfortunately. I just can't part with it...and I am a bad friend. Oh well..I'll deal..He's got a girlfriend and I've got a....video game..I think we all see who got the losing end of the deal here. Anyway...I have Halloween tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. And for the first time in a very long while...I am looking forward to my next rehearsal at Moonlight. I'll post later.

I'll Try To Do Better...I Really Will

Ok..so I haven't been blogging as much as I should. Sorry. I forget that people actually do read this. It has been a long weekend. I went to Halloween Horror Nights on Saturday as a guest with my cousin, Dawn, and her friend Buffy. Dawn was in a wheelchair because she has 2 hurniated disks in her back and one is pressing against here spinal cord. Long story..not for here. I spent the majority of the night pushing her around through all 7 houses, Bill & Ted, and the Parade. It was good times. We made it through all of that in 6 hours on a sold out Saturday...that is unheard of..and we wouldn't of heard of it either except my boss has a crush on me and I know everyone who does Halloween so there wasn't a lot of line-waiting for us. I went back to work on Sunday and worked Parade as a bead captain. It was fun to go back for a day, see what has changed, how everyone has been. They were all glad to see me and we all caught up. Lots of hugs and near tearful goodbyes from parade management. This is the only part of Halloween I hate..the end. It's not as bad in a house as it is in the streets...we are close..but not as close as we usually are. Man of La Mancha rehearsal was fun..but annoying. Jan didn't do as much directing as she used to..it was a lot of Billy directing. She loves the show and it is great and all..but it is very much like she is trying to recreate the show they did however many years ago..but with upgrades. Today I am annoyed with my mother...fully reminding me why I have to get out of this house. I didn't sleep last night...a mix of Halloween schedule, excitement about the show, and Paper Mario(damn addictive game that is). So I was up when she and my brother got up to go to school at 5. She comes out and tells me to take him to my Uncles to catch the bus. I don't know about anyone else..but telling your son who hasn't slept at all to get in the car with your other son to take him down the road when you have gotten a full nights sleep..that's just not right. It's not safe...I hadn't slept in over a day..I was exhausted and putting me on the road..not a good plan. She had a headache...and I can't help but remember when I was in school...or lets just go back to this past week when I was hacking up my freaking lungs and passing out..I wanted to stay home, and I did..but I got so much freaking greef for it cause I am an irresponsible little brat. Whereas my mother called in this morning for the 2nd time this week cause she had a headache. She calls in atleast one day every other week. She is going to get fired...that is what she is trying to do..so she can just stay in bed until she dies. I don't get depression...I just don't. But I can tell you...if she says one more word to me today...I am going to say some things that I will probably not regret...but i don't think I should regret the truth...even if she is my mother. There's a blog for you..I'll try to do better..but this dial up crap is killing me.

That Is My Lung There....On The Floor..Where It Should Not Be

So several things have happened in the last couple days. Billy and I discovered that I can do an excellent Carl, from Auqa Teen Hunger Force, impression. I went and saw Man Of La Mancha at West Orange High School. I saw Team America: World Police..which sealed my fate..I am going to hell for laughing at that movie. And I caught the Black Plague. The little cough that I had on Sunday night has progessed into a wall rattling hack that threatens to pull my lung out of my body and display it promenently on the floor. I didn't go to work last night because I thought I better stay home and sleep..try to get better before I exposed myself to the dense fog of death that fills my room in the haunted maze. Man of La Mancha was amazing visualy. I am not sure how much of it was just me and how I was feeling falling into my interpretation of the actors and thier performances. A lot of the music seemed to be sharp or flat...or just wrong. The lead male seemed to play the character a lot more feeble than I liked...and sang the songs...not so good. The male supporting role was almost nonexistant. Their Aldonza, female lead, was great. Her songs were good, her acting was good...she truly shined. Granted..our Man Of La Mancha cast is going to blow the socks, shoes, shirts, pants, underware, and first layer of skin off of thiers. If we had access to that set and those costumes....we would rival any broadway cast. That's about it..I am going to work in a few hours..and tomorrow I am going to have fun at Halloween Horror Nights as a guest. Post later.

THINK PEOPLE...THINK!

This doesn't really have a whole lot to do with me..and I know that writing this in my blog probably won't affect many people due to the relatively small number of readers that I have. But I am writing it none the less. Think about what you are saying and who you are saying it to before you say what you are going to say. Seriously people. Great people are getting hurt because of stupid things that you are saying in a moment of absent-minded stupidity. There have been several instances of this in my life and lives of people I think about lately..and I thought I would address it. People get hurt enough without us hurting eachother. I know how bad this next part is going to sound..but I am going to say it anyway, If you are going to hurt someone...do it intentionally, not because of some comment that wasn't enough thought through enough to do anything other than leave a glancing blow. In a perfect world we wouldn't want to hurt eachother that way..but in this world..it happens.

Hilarious False Accusatons

Ok..so remember the girl that quit a couple nights ago..Megan. Well apparently she told the bosses, Bryan and Angela, that she wasn't the only one that was unhappy and that she couldn't work in the negative atmosphere that ME AND BILLY were creating. This is only funny because we sit in a trailer and joke around all break long while she would complain about life. We told the other two people that we hang out with during the break and they almost fell over they were laughing so hard. I was a Bird Person last night instead of a Checkerboard Person. It was fun...I was over there with Alyson and Brad, the afformentioned "Other Two People", and Billy. It was a pretty good night. At the end of the night I went and talked to Bryan and told him I thought that we had been grossly misrepresented. He pretty much agreed and that was the end of that. At the beginning of the night I had to put on my checkerboard costume so the costume lady could see me in it to decide what alterations to make. I walk in with the costume on and she looked and me and goes,"What do you think we should do?".........I was just like, "Umm..I don't know...you're the costuming lady..I think YOU should tell me what WE should do." They are going to try to make it bigger..cause I am just too tall. I also have to talk to Benefits at work..they took out 60 dollars in taxes and insurance from a check that was only 120 to begin with. I was not happy to say the least. Trying to find something out now. I will blog later.

Lost Treak and Beer Bottle Battles

Well last night was a long night. I got hit in the back of the head with a beer bottle last night...it hurt like hell. Couldn't identify the person cause there was a group of like 15 people around my corner with beer bottles and all of them were laughing. It sucked. I understand how violated Billy felt the other night...I didn't even want to keep scaring that night. It wasn't until the last set...about 5 hours later that I was getting into it again. Megan, on of the Treaks, left last night in the middle of her shift..said it wasn't for her. Whatever..she has been complaining non-stop about everything anyway. I mean shit happens to all of us..we get out it eventually...she could complain about anything..and her's was always worse. I told my ASM Angela last night that I am not doing houses again. I mean..I don't HATE it..it's just..not safe. I will do parade or streets..hopefully streets. Anyway..I will blog more later when I have slept and don't have to go to work in an hour.

Inappropriate Comment That Made Me Laugh

"I want you in the worst way. Which is standing up in a hammock."-Louis Ramsey

I don't know why I laughed so hard that I almost snorted up a piece of Peanut Butter Sandwich..but I did. It was hilarious in a totally wrong magnitude. I work tonight. We won house of the week. Got the cheesiest trophy known to man but atleast we rock. We get a pizza party on Saturday. I can't wait for the temp to drop to a managable degree of uncomfortable in our house. Blog later.

Eric's Thoughts For The Night

People are stupid, I just happen to make friends with the smarter ones.
It sucks that I never know what I want until I choose the wrong thing.
Man Of La Mancha is going to be fun, damnit..no matter what.
I miss my friends.
I miss my life.
I miss being a social person.
People who complain all the time are annoying...aren't we?
I am so freaking tired...making a 6 foot 2 man scream like a little girl is exhausting.

Tired...So Very Tired

Today I went to work at Jaws. It was fun to be back..but all in all it was a dissaster. I got my 79.5 hour work week down to a respectable 50 or so and worked a nice 8 hour overtime shift today. I am so freaking tired. Jaws is crap...as far as the ride goes. It was down for 2 of the scheduled 3 to 5 weeks..and more is broken now than was before. It is ridiculous. Billy and I were talking the other day and mentioned that neither of us had ever seen any of the techs working on anything the whole time the lagoon was drained...we thought it was just us. NOPE..they didn't do anything but stand around and scratch their butts. Even the things they did do..like putting new skins on the sharks...were done hald-assed. They were put on wrong and are already starting to peel off around the lips. So mad about that whole situation. Anyway..that's all really. My voice is totally shot after a day at Jaws and 3 nights of halloween. It should come back tomorrow..so I can lose it again by Sunday. Ahh..the joy of Halloween. I'll blog later.

Eric's First Trip To The Airport, Insomnia, Tingling Nerves, And Blending In

Well..It is 2:49 a.m. as I start writing this blog and I am supposed to be at Jaws ready to work at 10 a.m. I took some sleeping pills at 10 p.m. to no avail. The problem is that my sleep schedule has been reassigned to go to sleep at 4, get up at 12. The other problem is that the nerves that were cut during the surgery having finally started waking up and reconnecting...My leg is tingling like crazy. It feels like someone has a muscle massager set on a really low speed laying on my leg. This weekend was interesting and fun and tiring. I spent all weekend at Billy's house. His parent's went out of town and being that we are both in the same haunted house and his house is closer to universal and he's my best friend...it just made sense to stay there. Working in a house is..dangerous. I am enjoying the scares..but not the constant worry that the next guest could deck me and I could lay there unconscious for up to 45 minutes before someone would even notice. They need to work something out for houses and security. 2 management people watching over a whole house..not happening. In my room the other scareactors can't even see me..so I would be screwed. The scares are good..and fun. I am in ridiculous amounts of pain....but..it's worth it. Any job were you can cause a full grown man turn to his wife and say, "I just peed a little."..is worth my time and scaring expertese. Staying at Billy's made me want to get a house of my own even more. I may have had bad roommates, high rent, and just all around a not great first apartment experience..but I miss it..I miss the hell out of it. I also miss the hell out of Lu Lu. I know she's busy....but I still miss you..when you read this. The read through for Man of La Mancha has come and gone. It went pretty well. I am generally happy with all casting descisions...generally. Just one or two that I am little worried about..and mostly not because of talent or ability..but because of irresponsibilityin practices. I got a few nods tonight when I sang my solos..and a scratch on the knee from Alyson to tell me I did a good job. I am excited about my part..but I think Billy is more excited for me than I am fo myself..he says that I could steal the show with a few of my solos. Maybe that's true..maybe not. I am not going to try to steal the show..just do my best. Me as a priest..how far from me can you get. And the first part of my title..but the last part of my blog, I went inside an airport for the first time ever today. It was a really cool experience...one I don't think I will experience many times. Experiencing something I have seen and heard depicted SOO many times. It was great. People laughing and smiling as they were rejoined with people they hadn't seen for years, weeks, days, hours..people crying as people go away. The looks on kids faces as they get in line to get on the plane..excited to fly. The parent's smiling and crying at the same time..excited for the child that is going to get to fly to wherever they are going..but worried. It's a strange place. A full range of the human emotional experience...thrown into one building. Well I am going to try to sleep now. Got work in 7 hours..that means I have to get up in 4 hours. I hate living in B.F.E.

WIERDED OUT!

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Ok..now this random personality generator thing is wierd...but quiet accurate. Let me explain. I have a genius IQ, I love words...being a poet, I actually can see in the dark quiet well...aiding me in the scaractor category, I have an irregular magnetic field..to many electrons...resulting in damaging watches and randomly getting shocked a lot, I spend a lot of me life just watching people...because I find the way people react to things very interesting, and people do think I am wierd...and being that there are very few animals that can read..and none of the ones who can have my blog address...you probably noticed that I AM wierd.

BIZARRO WORLD!!

Ok so a lot has happened in the last few days that my computer decided not to let me blog. I am no longer a Bead Captain, I am now a Checkerboard Man in Billy's House (DISORIENTORIUM). Billy had an allergic reaction to his latex clown mask at work and had to be put on sterioids. Very elaborate way to get out of being Clownman. He then went to Jen's for a trip to long for me to go...PUNK! I let Alyson talk me into going to Man Of La Mancha auditions and scored the part of Padre...which really doesn't mean much to me..but alyson and kyle assure me it is a great part with several solos...all of which beautiful. I am sure that I thuroughly shocked most everyone in the room when I showed. It was the kinda shock where it's like. "What the hell are you doing here?!?! Glad you're here cause we needed more guys...but..what?!?!?!" I'll post more later...tired..

One More Thing That Annoy's Me

I really hate it when you go to a store looking for a perfectly reasonable item and they don't have it...like..not they are out of it..but that they just don't carry it at all. Today I went to Target to get a pair of BLACK Cargo pants and a couple black T-shirts. They didn't have black Cargo pants...never carry them...ever according to the 3 sales associates I talked to. That annoys me...you carry white, tan, green, camo, yellow, pink, any freaking color but the one you get when you mix them all together in a vat. The T-shirts they had only came in packs of 2 that contained a black and a grey(gray..whatever). So I bought 2 of those doubling the amount of shirts I needed but still only being able to use half of them for work purposes. I found a pair of black pants that are suitable for my purposes but not really what I wanted. Just thought I would rant that out on my blog..That's what it's here for..right?

Another Night, Another Fifty Dollars

Well last night was yet another riveting night of walking at a snails pace next to a giant float. It wasn't all bad...I am kinda working into the groove of the whole thing. I have this great sense of...belonging in the entertainment crew...no matter what I am doing..even though a lot of times I wish I was doing something else. It makes me feel really great that they care about me enough to try to give me great opportunities and still try their best to make me happy with my petty little requests for acting positions and stuff. The original plan fell through for me going to Active Backup..but there is a back-plan..but I don't know what said plan is. I got my costume/poncho thing last night...it looks a lot less like a costume and a lot more like a Mexican Seafood Restaurant threw up on me. I found out that even though I was told not to adopt a character, not to dance, just to walk along beside the float all night last night...that I indeed AM supposed to dance, get into it, adopt a character and things like that. Which is confusing and a little frustrating because we didn't get any choreography and no character name or even a real costume of any character derived source...so I still have no idea what to do. I was supposed to get to see the Executive run of Bill & Ted last night but that fell through because we ended up having to run the parade twice and get extended an hour and a half after our original out time. I crawled into bed at 2:30 and got up at 7 when my 7 year old cousin decided to show me a Ninja sword he just got...good times. I am helping out by driving my cousin to and from school for my other cousin. His daycare is without power still and so they are closed and there is no one else with an open enough schedule to make sure the little snot (Said in the most loving way possible) gets to school. Now I sit here at 9 in the a.m. eating my peanut butter on Honey Wheat and Hot Chocolate with mini marshmellow breakfast basking in the glory that is Cable and High Speed Internet. If anyone wants to give me a call...I am in Orlando and the cell phone works..sometimes. I am going to buy some Black Cargos and some Black shirts tonight to complete my Halloween Horror Nights "A Mexican Seafood Restaurant Threw Up On Me" ensemble...it should be fun. I'll blog later.

Someone To Watch Over Me

Well I went to my first night of rehearsal last night. I have run the gambit of feelings about it. First I was upset, then a little excited, then VERY excited, then crushed, and then just tired and ready to sleep. Basically my job is bead captain is to walk along beside the float and make sure the guests are doing as they are told regarding bead throwing. Then I clean the float after each parade and reload it. It's basically a management position or atleast the stepping stone to one. It was rough, watching all my friends from previous events out dancing and having a great time in the parade while I walked and watched the float. I felt like the only kid who wasn't picked to play softball. By the end of the night I talked to my Stage Manager and told her that I couldn't be sure until I had done it with guests at a full run..but I think this whole bead captain thing isn't for me. I told her that I would stick it out a weekend and give it a REAL try but just telling her that the possiblity of me not wanting to do it was there. She had a plan that I might just do it the first weekend and then go to active back-up because she actually had someone who DESPERATELY wants to be a bead captain and already has the training and they can take it after I am transferred to active back-up. I am not worried about finding hours as active back-up because I have 3 or 4 other ASMs who actually want me on their cast. And that is that. I got to walk through one of the houses last night..it was awesome. Having friends in high places definetly pays off. I think I am going to try for Coordinator or Bead Captain for Macy's or Mardi Gras. I'll blog tomorrow about the last night of rehearsal.

Hilarity Stolen From Anya

Children's Books That Didn't Make It:
1.You Are Different And That's Bad
2.The Boy Who Died From Eating All His Vegetables
3.Dad's New Wife Robert
4.Fun Four-Letter Words To Know And Share
5. Kathy Was So Bad Her Mom Stopped Loving Her
6. Some Kittens Can Fly
7. That's It, I'm Putting You Up For Adoption
8. Grandpa Gets A Casket
9. The Pop-Up Book Of Human Anatomy
10. Strangers Have The Best Candy
11. Pop! Goes The Hamster ... And Other Great Microwave Games
12. Places Where Mommy And Daddy Hide Neat Things
13. Daddy Drinks Because You Cry

Eric Hurricane Survivor AND A Letter To The Big Guy Upstairs

I have decided that Florida is as close to be hurricane prepared as it ever will be...if anything..we are getting laxed because it's like..."Look...we do this all the time..Don't worry." My parent's house is fine. It is without power...and will be for several days due to the complete lack of power lines in my hometown. Jeanne sucked them up like spagetti and then spewed them all over the ground like they had too much pepper and made her sneeze. Jeremy's, my best friend from high school, parents lost their house. It was condemned this morning. A tree branch as big as an enormous oak tree crashed through their living room ceiling. I stopped and helped them for about 2 hours..until my knee started to give out and I had to stop. To tell you the truth..it made me feel good...kinda..like a total self revelation thing. Ultimately I think I am a good person. Because today when I saw that they were working in the yard..I litterally dropped what I was doing at my grandmother's house and went to help..without a moment's thought. I think it shows that my first impulse is to help...and I think that is an excellent quality that my parents taught or gave to me or whatever. I went and saw Shaun of the Dead today with Billy. It is the greatest Horror-Comedy-Romance Zombie movie EVER. Well...it's the only horror-comedy-romance zombie movie ever...but still...it's GREAT! Now..I close with a letter to God...I decided to cover all my bases after watching Bruce Almighty...Maybe God does have email.

Dear God,
I thought I would write this letter to inform you of something you might want to keep your eye on. I believe that perhaps someone in the Department of Natural Disasters may have a grudge against Florida. Maybe they were born in the arctic and always wanted to bask in the glory of a warm Florida day at one of our wonderful theme parks but instead were condemned to a life of cold and the local idea of fun was sawing through 14 foot of ice and dangling a frozen sting in the sub-zero water until some starving unsuspecting fish grabbed it out of sheer desperation. Or if this is not the case..perhaps it is a technical error..my space bar sticks sometimes...perhaps the Hurricane button on your master controls is just stuck. I bet it's the first one though..perhaps a penguin who wasn't picked to come and live at Sea World. I mean you can't trust a penguin to begin with...always wearing a tux..who does that?!?!? I mean you can't blame them...I can barely stand a couple hours in formal wear...a lifetime of it..that would push even the most mellow of fowl over the deep end. If I am completely off base with all of this I am very sorry. I know you have a lot to look after and Florida can get away from even the most observant of dieties. I mean why keep an eye on tropical paradise...that's probably what the penguin was thinking...penguins.. I think Shamu is in charge you know. I mean who else would be? They wear a tux...he wears a tux. I think it's a whole gang thing they have going on..Secret base in florida. They can go underwater...hide from the hurricane..while we all get blown to Atlantis. I think I have said enough. Thank you for all of the good fortune that has fallen on the majority of us. Lots of damage..but few lives lost. A clean slate for many.
Sincerely,
Eric

Things Are....

The last couple of days has been kinda negative. Sorry about that to whoever is still reading this. Things have been compounding as the week went on. News I got on Friday through me into an emotional whirlpool, getting more and more violent with every corrospondence. Then the Halloween casting issue hit me because basically I auditioned for Halloween and got Mardi Gras. Which normally would have stung a little, but with everything else...stung a lot more. This with my parents and there problems right now that are affecting me a lot. The relentless calls of the credit card companies and the genuine yearning to get back out on my own into the world of the free. I am going to try to post more positive things here at the end of this post. I did get a job...one that it looks like will be paying more and is in some way shape or form kind of managment level..if not atleast higher than the normal scaractor. I have pretty good health and flexability for a guy who has major knee surgery 3 months ago. I have great friends who care about me and try their best to make me happy. I have a family who loves me even while in complete and utter turmoil emotionally with everyone and everything else in their lives. I was able to control myself when confronted with a situation that I normally would have exploded into an emotional rant through IM or email and left it with a respectable goodbye. I am growing up. And to top it off it looks like there is atleast a 75% chance that I may be able to get a nice house within my price range. Those are the things that I am happy for right now.

Freaking Bead Captain

Well I got a call today from Universal...I got a role...but not really. I am a bead captain for the parade. Now..no one except an actor who has seen what bead captains do understands why this is a not good thing. Here is what I enjoy about Halloween Horror Nights.....Scaring people, cool costumes, working as a team to scare people, and hanging out with the awesome casts of young cool people that are always cast. Here is what I am going to be doing as a bead captain..and why I am not looking forward to it at all....I'm not scaring people, in fact that is frowned upon, I have NO costume as far as I know, I won't be working as a team because it's me and about 40 drunk guests who are throwing beads from the float, usually all of the people cast as bead captains are over 35 and won't have a lot of contact with them because there is only 1 bead captain per float, and to top it all off..I have to clean the float at the end of the night. Now..the one event that I look forward to every year, without fail, is pretty much a complete bust for me as far as I know right now. I called the casting director and he said there are no other roles for me...that's it. he said that the only roles he has left are for 6 foot tall (check), male (check), 300 lb guys (nearly check a year ago). So basically...this sucks giant rancid monkey balls. And this is for Billy (Don't ask) Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain, Freaking bead captain?!?!?!?!?!? Don't get me wrong..I am trying to find a bright side...just having a hard time..and I am hoping that something will open up somewhere and Chad will take pity on me and I will be relocated to something with some kind of acting aspect somewhere..or maybe bead captain for Halloween will turn out to be fun..I don't know...I doubt it. All I can say is that every single person I have talked to who is an actor, or works for universal had the same response when I told them I was a bead captain. "That sucks, I'm sorry." Post later

Validated

It feels good to have your feelings validated. Several friends today have told me that what I am feeling in regards to the news that I recieved Friday night is valid. I would post said news...but I don't want to display someone else's private life on the internet..even though I have done that before...but all of those times were in direct relation to me..and this one is only indirectly related to me. I am trying very hard to watch what I put on here..trying. I talked to Chad today (Casting Director for Work) and he has called my boss in hopes to get me released to Halloween. That should all be worked out by Wednesday...if not earlier. I don't offically have a role but I am in line for one that I am sure will be freed up VERY soon..and if not..then I will be a swing on active backup..no big deal. I'll have work..and that will be nice. I am going to track down Alesha..and get her number. Don't know when, don't know how..but I am going to. I like her..and I am tired of missing opportunities at being a dork..because I am a dork. AND that is that. I'll blog tomorrow with whatever information I have to blog.

My Not Return To Work

Well I went to work yesterday for a little over an hour. Got there and they didn't have me on the flash...they fixed that and sent me out to Greeter 2. Got to Greeter 2 and after about 5 minutes they sent me to Dueling Dragons to rescue. Went and changed costumes and went over to Dueling Dragons...pretty much on the other side of the park. When I got there they didn't need me after all because their person that I would be covering for had shown up. Then they sent me to Spiderman. I went and changed clothes again and then went to spiderman...they didn't need me when I got there. They asked me if I wanted to go to another attraction and I said no. No one needed me and it was obvious. One flaw in my plan...I had plans with Erika at 7. So I hung out until then and then Erika and I went and saw Cellular at 9:45. We were gonna see an earlier movie but there weren't any we were interested in. We ate at Nascar and then we went to the movie. It was excellent. Then I came home. It was a long day..laiden with emotional undertones in the back of my mind. Some information that I got Friday night hass been weighing down on me pretty heavy...heavier than it probably should. But oh well...that's me. I'll blog later. If anyone is still actually reading this...comment so I know. I might just stop blogging if no one is reading it anymore. Lu Lu and Jen stopped blogging themselves...so I wonder if they are still reading. Hope to see some comments.

Of Doctors, Needless Waiting And Other Such Things

Well I went to the doctor today and he gave me a somewhat clean bill of health. He wasn't entirely happy with my muscle strength...but he released me back to full duty. I am returning to work on Saturday. A relatively easy 5 hour shift..kinda worried cause I am afraid I might have forgotten something important. I'm sure I will be fine..they are supposedly going to take it easy on me my first day back. I am excited and nervous. So many new people have started...and so many people I knew have left...so it will be like starting over...but as someone who basically knows how everything works. That happened at MIB when I came back from my seasonal events..it was wierd and scary. Didn't want to sound like a know it all to the new kids who didn't know that I had worked there quite a while. But things will be fine...I have made it a point to stop by Jaws some to try to meet everyone. Billy and Jen are out in Gainesville...deliriously happy I'm sure. Lu Lu has decided to stop blogging..which makes me sad..but I understand that...as Charlie Brown says, "All Good Things Must End." I talked o the supervisor today and as far as he is concerned I am fine to do Halloween..just waiting on them to call him and then call me. So things are falling into place...slowly..but more than they have been. Blog later.

Auditions Are A Great Thing

Today I went to Halloween Horror Nights auditions. It is such a great feeling. I went in, saw a LOT of people that I know. People were asking me about how things work, thinking I had been there for Halloween many many years...when in fact I have only been there for...this will be 3 years. There were people there who are on their 6th or 7th. I auditioned...which was complicated as hell. Rick set up the audition process like this. He described maybe four different character areas that they are using this year briefly...and by briefly I mean..."We are going to have beast like creatures..kinda like monkeys." and that was the most descriptive he got...and then pointed to the first girl in the group. She was very confused...as well as the rest of us...even me..and I have been there for a while. So I was a monkey thing...I charged the table and made a screaming, monkey, raptor yelling noise. It went very well. There were 2 highlights in the audition. 1. At the beginning when they asked if anyone had done Halloween before and I pointed at the 3 or 4 pictures of me on the wall behind them from the year before. 1 of which was me alone in my Camo beast costume. 2. After the audition when the casting director called me by name without looking at my sheet and all three men at the table told me that I am a great actor...specifically for Halloween. All I have to say is...they think my acting is good..wait till they see my creative side when it comes to Halloween. I don't know if we are striving to litterally scare the bodily fluids out of people...but it would happen if they used one of my concepts. So the jyst of the situation is..I have a part..but not officially until they talk to my supervisor and he O.K.'s it. If he doesn't, we are going to have words. THE ATTRACTION IS CLOSING FOR THE DURATION OF HALLOWEEN! Anyway...We'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Cross it while yelling and screaming and throwing torches. GOOD MOOD!! REALLY GOOD MOOD!! Wierd how you never forget what those feel like. I'll blog tomorrow with information regarding casting.

I Think It's Time For Efficiency Counseling In Heaven

So today I got out of therapy and called Billy. He informed me that Jaws is closing for 5 weeks starting Sunday...I can go back to work on Friday. THAT SUCKS! Anyway...through this ordeal I was thinking...I think that life in general would be easier and much more efficient if we all recieved monthly statements directly from heaven detailing all sins and itemized Karma in general. So then you can take out your statement monthly and look at it. "So...work is closing for 5 weeks just when I can finally go back and my mother has decided to tell me that she is tired of supporting me as bills continue to pile up...That is payment for...Running over an old lady on a sunday afternoon who was holding a box full of puppies and not stopping...Good To Know." That would be so much easier. Rather than things like this happening and you wondering if this is payment for something you did previously or if this is just good Karma building up for the future. Just a thought. I really am going to lose it if I don't get out of here soon. My mom is trying...I know she is. My dad..well...he's doing what he thinks he needs to do where my grandmother is concerned...but it is hurting the family. It's hurting me...I know that part. I don't come from a broken home...wellI do..but not an emotionally broken home..just a physically broken home. So now basically living in one years after I have moved out and now had to come home..not only come home..but come home in a weakened state...it is driving me to the edge. The dreams have stopped...but atleast then there was somewhat of an artisitic outlet going on...even if it was making me not sleep at all. I'll be fine. I know all of you care. And I miss the hell outta you guys. Tomorrow are Halloween Auditions...maybe scaring the living spit outta people for a month will help...I HOPE IT DOES. Don't know what else is going to.

Adventures In Dogsitting

First of all...everything and everyone I know survived the hurricane pretty much unscathed. My parent's are still without power and it knocked a tree branch out of a tree in our back yard which promptly crushed a piece of our fence...but mostly...everyone and everything is ok. I babysat Tuesday and Wednesday and then I started dogsitting Wednesday night. A couple friends of mine, Buffy and Carol, had to go out of town because Carol's grandfather died. I am watching one of thier dogs while they are gone. His name is Buster and he is a scared little old dog. He is adjusting. This house is great...really needed to get away and feel like a free man again. It's very nice. Cable tv, High Speed Internet, no one bothering me...SO NICE. Blot may have to come and stay with me starting tomorrow..but that's cool..miss my crazy freaking dog anyway. Therapy is going very well. Should be back to work in a week or two. Had a couple run in's with Universal this week..nothing major..well I lied...kinda major. My stupid freaking supercisor scheduled me to work for a week while I am still in medical leave and then went on vacation and didn't fix it even though I TOLD HIM THAT I COULD NOT WORK THE SHIFT LEGALLY. But it's all taken care of thanks to a very polite call I placed to his boss. She informed me that I am not the first to call her with a scheduling problem with this man..and she is sure I won't be the last but she is working on ending the barrage of calls on this problem.I will be house sitting until sometime Saturday. Give me a call..I HAVE FREEDOM!!! And a little money cause they paid me.

380 Mile Wide Swirling Cloud of Stress

Well here we are...getting ready for yet another hurricane, this one named Frances. It's roughly the size of Texas. I am feeling a little better in regards to sleep and dreams. I got some Tylenol Simply Sleep...it's helping some. The dreams aren't coming as often, and when they do they aren't as intense. I may be developing Night Terrors...that's what my dad has. His are pretty bad though...he once put his fist through the ceiling in his sleep. Good times. Sorry if I worried anyone...Just a lot going on. I hope everyone makes it through the storm ok. Please call me periodically if possible just to say you made it through...if you don't..you damn well better expect a call from me. As mentioned in an earlier Blog...friends are just as important as family to me....some even more so. I will be riding out the storm at my Grandmother's house. It withstood Donna...that was a bad storm...worse than this one according to my father. Kinda wierd to face the prospect of not having a home after this. My mom had me take pictures of everything we have that is worth anything. Cars, laptop, Computer, video games, video game systems, air conditioners, entertainment centers. Just a wierd sensation. Everyone stay safe. Please. My dad has a generator and I have 4 hours of battery on my laptop. I will be getting on the net periodically, as long as the phone stay online, to check peoples blogs...and just to see what's up in general. STAY SAFE..BEYOND ALL ESLE...STAY SAFE.

Welcome to Melodrama 101, Please Take A Seat And I'll Begin

I am stuck in a constant battle of wills, my eyes forever blinking to avoiding looking at either world. The outside world filled with fears of parental seperation, hurricanes, stress in general or the inside world that leaves me writhing in pain every time I wake. I have had nightmares everynight for 2 weeks....nightmares so intense that I wake up looking for wounds that aren't there and screaming or crying over people who aren't dead. I don't want to sleep because of the horrible visions that come to me during that time...but I don't want to stay awake because of the negative path reality has taken. I have therapy now. I'll be back later.

Are My Insecurities Showing?

OK...so we will start by going over a dream that I recently had. It was bizzare and disturbing. All of my friends (Lu Lu, Billy, Jen, Cindi, and Erika) along with a couple of people who aren't really my friends (Nathan and Amber) and even a guy I don't even know go to a club. I don't really like clubs but I was still really excited to go. On the way there Lu Lu explains that the only way you can get in is if the bouncer deems you worthy. There are two doors. One door the bouncer looks at you and determines whether or not to award you entrance based on your looks. The other door based on your talent. We go to the first door which happens to be the looks door and I am a the end of my group of friends. Everyone gets in but me. But being that I didn't get in we all go to the other door. Then we get to the other door and everyone gets in except for me again. But this time, everyone goes in and has a good time and leaves me standing outside. I wait and wait and wait...but no one ever comes out of the door so I walk around to the other door and assk if the people I came with had come out there. The bouncer said he didn't remember me. So I walked around to the front of the building and just kinda fell on my back in the middle of the side walk. The last thing I saw was a huge sign on the front of the club. The name of the club was Life. Then I woke up. Wierd dream. Definetly some of my insecurities creeping out. Then yesterday Lu Lu and I went to Moonlight to see "A Midsummer Nights Dream". It was good. Alex did an amazing job for his age playing Puck. Billy was a great Peter Quince..true Club worthy talent. Cindi was beautiful and performed BOTH of her roles like a pro in a place where direction is determined by a compus. Jen...well...Jen was her normal amazing actress self. Kyle did a really good job with his part too. The uncomfortable part of the evening was the people who run the theater. Now I admit this may be all in my mind...but I felt almost...unwelcome. I walked in and everyone kinda mumbled there hellos and stayed in their seats. Lu Lu walked in and everyone jumped up and gave her a huge hug and asked her how she had been. It just hurt. But that's over. I hae physical therapy. I'll blog more later tonight.

Another Encore!, Another Moving Experience

These people never cease to amaze me. The show last night was amazing. I did enjoy the last show more than this one, but that is due only to the style of music. This was definetly the best patriotic/gospel pop concert I have ever been to. I went with Billy and Cindi...ended up meeting Kyle and his girlfriend Katie there so we all stayed together, me brandishing my scar occasionally for cringes and once...even a scream. Lu Lu did an amazing job on the piano..and keyboard. If I could play even a millionth as good as her I'd be happy. And then on top of playing amazingly..she still managed to get a laugh from the crowd atleast once during the night. Truly an amazing performer. My friend Debbbie Sussman wsa a precussionist...I didn't even know she knew how to play precussion. She did an amazing job. I saw Matt-Linus sing, and Josh E/C stole the show...proving Lu Lu's point that whereas I have heard him sing...I've never actually HEARD him sing. And then on top that all of that...Clay directing it all. I really can't wait to be part of that whole experience. Anyone who reads this who hasn't already seen the show that can see the show...should. Amazing, moving, patriotic good time...and for a good cause. I spoke to Clay after the show and told him that I ended up having my knee surgery the day of auditions and that is why I didn't audition...and he told me not to worry about it...and that if anythign like that happens again..just call him and it will all be taken care of. I keep meeting and getting a decent feedback from all of these talented people that I meeting through Lu Lu....kinda makes me think I might be talented too. We will see. Off to breakfast with my mother's neuroses(sp?) and my 7 year old cousin's Power Rangers, and my Aunt's...wonderful Auntliness...and then...TO THERAPY!

Eric In Orlando AND Quest For Ice

So I am staying in Orlando for the rest of the week to help watch after my cousin Tristan. He is 7 and being that school is cancelled but the rest of the world is still going on he needs someone to watch him. So here I am, being here, but not really doing much because he is a pretty self-sufficient kinda kid. I cook him meals and stay out of his way mostly. Little stuff like making sure he takes a bath and stuff is pretty much the extent of the babysitting that I have to do. My cousin Dawn and I spent ALL day yesterday looking for ice. We drove all the wy from UCF area to Clermont/Ferndale, ending in us stealing ice from my mother and my grandmother's freezers. Well...less stealing and more borrowing with no intent to return. I wasn't a bad day all in all...lots of driving around looking at damaged places. It is really strange that I sat and played Super Mario Sunshine, not really even worrying about the storm, while other people lost everything they ever worked for in the blink of an eye. The wierdest thing is seeing trees that withstood the force of the winds but have been bent into a shape that makes them look like the wind is still blowing just as hard. Anyway...I am just grateful that everyone I know is allright....with minimal damage. My family and I just keep countering complaints with well atleast you still have...whatever. (i.e. "My freezer is a mess." "Well atleast you still have a freezer to clean up.") Lu Lu called me today...it always seems to put a smile on my face when I get to talk to her for a few minutes. She has really great news...which I am sure she will blog about soon...so keep checking her blog. I woudl tell you guys...but I don't want to give away her great news. REALLY PROUD OF HER! Jen has gone back to Gainsville. That just feels strange cause I didn't see her at all since the surgery...so I feel like I missed out on a major portion of the summer. No word from the Jaws gang on when we are getting together for another...get together. Billy and I are planning on going to see Alien vs Predator Wednesday night and I am hoping and get to go and see the Encore show Thursday. And it looks like I will get to see the much talked about Midsummer preformance at Moonlight this sunday. I'll blog later.

Bonnie and...Charley? Anti-T.V. meterologist morons...

So last night was relatively uneventful. I went to my grandmother's house after running around like a chicken with my head cut off all day long. My brother and I hooked up PS2 and Gamecube on seperate T.V's and I made a big pot of chili. Then we all settled in. Just as we were getting into the video games we rented the power went off. My dad went out and cranked up the generator. So how did I spend hurricane Charley? Playing Super Mario Sunshine..That's right...Super Mario Sunshine. The storm was all over with at around....1..or so...and my brother and I packed up and drove home. Then I woke up this morning to find my knee swollen to about twice it's normal size..and VERY stiff. I couldn't go to Melissa's reception..I hope everything went well. All the damage that has been reported through my friends and family is at my Aunt's house. A tree branch went through the back glass of her car, her fence was uprooted and distributed around the neighborhood, and atleast one tree is no longer in the upright position. Other than that..everything seems good. My knee has loosened up and deminished in size..so things are going ok. Blog later

Filled with Humor and....general....Ericness

So the last couple of days have been...days. I went to physical therapy for the first time since the surgery yesterday. Caught up with Erin...my beautiful physical therapist (If your out there. Thanks Dawn, even if she isn't interested, having her as my therapist numbs the therapy part a little bit.) , got a bunch of exercises I have to do daily. Then I came home and Billy called. We went and hung out with a bunch of Jaws people at Mike's house. It was a blast. Met this really cute girl for the second time. She has been introduced once before, at that stupid safety meeting I had to go to a while back...she is really cute. We kinda...caught eyes a couple of times from across the room...talked a little but not much. Next time..I talk more. Then Billy and I left, only seeing half of Kill Bill Vol. 2. I took him home and talked to the family a few minutes..then back to Casa Diablo. The AC was broken...so...fun times. Then today I just pretty much sat around..trying to turn off my body heater. IT WAS LIKE 4000 in here. My dad fixed the AC and it worked for all of...2 hours after he left. He is living with my grandmother now..coming home once every 2 or 3 days. NOT FUN. I go back to physical therapy tomorrow. I have made progress in the last day though...My knee bends at almost a 90 with minimal pain. It's nice. On a side note...I gave my number to like everyone at Jaws so they can call when they are going out...I hope she's there next time.

On Bended Knee

So the last couple of days have been fun and interesting. I can bend my knee...but not as much as I want to..and when I bend it as much as I physically can..my body gets mad at me and tells me so the next day. So I got the brace off on Thursday...Friday I kinda took it easy..but then Saturday...I went to Universal and parked far far away and walked to to JAWS and said hey to everyone..then walked back. Then I went to the McCoy's house and delivered my thank you card for sitting there with me for hours on end and just basically being all around good people. Then I went to lunch with my parent's and walked around an Office Max for like an hour looking for school supplies for my little brother. Then I almost couldn't stand...so my dad dropped me off at my car and I drove home. Then on Sunday I, Like the idiot I am, over worked my knee...but I did have a lot of fun. Erika and I saw "The Bourne Supremecy". There was pretty much NO plot, the camera work was awful, but all in all...not UNenjoyable. Then we walked around the mall until about 4:30 because the Atlantic Ocean had decided to relocate itself to directly over the West Oaks Mall. Being that I can't run at all, much less in the rain...we stuck around. We went to Ruby Tuesdays and talked and ate, it was good times. I called Billy and he met us at the mall at about 5:45 and then he and I went back to Ruby Tuesdays and I had dessert while he ate dinner. It was fun. Then we went and saw "The Village". Great Movie. Very...thinkie. Then we went our seperate ways...Billy to his home, me to mine. Tiredness was setting in for both of us. I came home..and passed out..but apparently didn't rest well because I fell asleep several times today, in the middle of normal everyday activities...like internet surfing, game playing, and TV watching. OK, so not EVERYONE's normal everyday activities...but definetly the normal everday activities of a 22 year old who has recently found himself temporarily crippled. Physical Therapy starts tomorrow with my evaluation. Good, Good fun times. I hope to get a haircut and maybe hang with Billy for a while..but we will see if tomorrow holds those events for me. Blog later

Eric's Birthday

Not the worst birthday..not the best birthday ever. I spent the majority of the day running around with my Aunt. It was fun. We got my car washed, filled it up with gas, picked her car up from the mechanic, and ate at Sonny's. With yet another trainee waitress. Then I drove home. Didn't get my physical therapy scheduled. But that's ok...I'll get it soon. Then I came home and played some Mega Man. Then I went to my grandmothers and we all ate some pizza. It was a good time. There is supposedly a present that my parents are talking about getting me but they aren't sure. My mom put my dad on the spot about it and he said that he hadn't had time to look into it and that was the end of it. No idea what it is...well there is an idea...might be a CD burner..but I am not sure. Now I sit at my parent's house, knee unbraced, watching Celebrity Poker. It is a good night. Blog later THE BRACE COMES OFF IN NEGATIVE ONE DAY! COUNT IT NEGATIVE ONE DAY!

Leg Mobility Is Closer To Being Mine

Well I went to the doctor today and he removed the brace on a kinda temporary/permanent basis. I don't have to wear it unless I go out in public and feel wobbly. Basically I just have to be REALLY careful because if I fall now, that's it...new surgery...no questions asked. My knee feels really wierd. No pain really...just REALLY tight...really really tight...and weak. But good all in all. I can't bend it at a 90 yet...that will take a few trips to physical therapy. Which turns out, I can't take at my doctor's office. For some reason my insurance pays for my doctor's services but will not pay for physical therapy at his office. WIERD. So I am going to try to go to my old physical therapist. Why try to build a whole new relationship with a therapist over a 6 week period when I already went through 3 months with another one. The doc told me I can start living my life again. He said, "No running in the rain. That's bad." that was pretty much his only piece of advice. I asked if I could do Halloween, he said, "no problem." I asked if I could ride roller coasters, he said, "You can start doing what you want to do again." I just have to careful. My Aunt and I went out and gourged ourselves at Olive Garden. Good times. Then we went and ran a few errands and I listened to LOTS OF MUSIC..missed it. Then we came home for a few and then my cousin Dawn picked us up. We went and rented some movies. Dickie Roberts Child Star, Gothika, HellBoy, and Tristan got Small Soldiers. So far everything I have seen was good. Haven't watched Gothika yet. Then we went to dinner but my Aunt and I just had dessert while Dawn and Tristan had appetizers. Both places we went today we had REALLY terrible service. Olive Garden I ordered Chicken Parmesan and got Soup/Salad/Breadsticks. Red Lobster we were there 45 minutes and all we did was eat appetizers and desserts. Then we came home and started watching movies. I slept through Hellboy...seen it once and I guess not having that brace on is what my body has been waiting for to sleep...for 2 hours...now I am wide awake...whatever. That's pretty much it. I am trying to start my physical therapy today..my birhday...good times. I will blog about the Eric Birthday Unbash tomorrow. later

It's Back

My laptop is finally back home. It took 2 weeks, 400 million calls, and Billy and I driving over to my old apartment and getting it..but it's finally back. Now I am goingg to use it a lot. So Billy came over today and took me over to my old apartment for the computer getting. Then we went to Chili's for lunch. It was fun. Listened to music, talked to the Jen on the phone, went to Target to get a Thank You card for the McCoys, and then we came home. Fun times. Billy got in a couple games of Mega Man collection before he left. (that was the gift my little brother gave me) Then he went off to rehearsal. Good times. My Aunt called and I am going to spend the night over there tomorrow night to help her out..and to help me out a little..we don't know what my leg is going to feel like tomtorrow. If everything goes as planned I am going to drive home Friday and everything will be just fine. I had to postpone mine and Carrie's tradition for a few nights. Dad came home for the night. That's pretty much it. BRACE COMES OFF TOMORROW!!!

And yet again the universe has given me a sharp kick in the groin and laughed as it walked away.....

It has been a long couple of days. My grandmother came home from the nursing home because they are incompitent morons and didn't give her nitro glycerin as directed when she was having severe chest pains. My father has moved out and is living with her to help take care of her. He is only coming home to shower and to eat....sometimes. My mother is on the verge of nervous break down (being bi-polar...it doesn't take much). My brother starts school Thursday and is generally just being annoying(could be the walls closing in and talking to me as they get ever closer). AND my laptop is missing in action. I wrote Dell an email after waiting TWICE the expected wait time on recieving my laptop. They wrote me back and told me that it had already been delivered to me and gave me a tracking number I already had. You know why I already had it? BECAUSE IT WAS THE TRACKING NUMBER OF THE EMPTY BOX THEY SENT ME TO PUT MY LAPTOP IN IN THE FIRST PLACE! Anyway...I called the shipping company, which had forged my signature on the delievry and tossed it over the fence, and they actually were very helpful...except there was no way they could help. So I wrote Dell back and am waiting on a response. I WANT MY LAPTOP NOW! They better hurry it up. BRACE COMES OFF IN 2 DAYS! COUNT THEM WEDNESDAY-1, THURSDAY-2. Billy is supposed to come over tomorrow and help me get through the day, my Aunt is coming over Thursday to take me out to lunch for my birthday and then go to the doctor, and Carrie has requested to take me out to dinner on Thursday for my birthday. (Her's was yesterday and we started a tradition like...last year where she takes me out to dinner and I graciously accept and say, "Next time's on me.") So my next couple of days are atleast full. THEN LEG FREEDOM IS MINE! IT'S ALL MINE! I hope.

Sleepless Night Ramblings

PLEASE DEAR GOD LET THIS ALMOST BE OVER! I hate this brace. I hate this life of sitting here in my parent's house and doing nothing but being a burden and a vocal punching bag for their plans and expectations for me. I hate laying awake all night because I can't get comfortable and my body has gone in a revolt against sleep. I hate not seeing my friends. I hate not talking to my friends weekly, let alone daily. I hate not working. I hate feeling relatively fine but being confined by Doctor's Orders. I hate hating all of these things even though I know that they are what is best for me in most cases. 5 days left.