So This Is Irresponsibility

I haven't been to work all week. My back was all blistery and even started bleeding at one point. Not pleasant. It's much better now...used up what was left of my vacation time. I hate that place sooo much...really hope that law firm thing comes through. Billy dropped out of Cabaret. That sucks. I was really excited that he was going to experience the Icehouse...but I guess that won't be happening. He will be in Taming of the Shrew. Not going to get into that whole situation. There is a kitten at the icehouse that they want me to take home...looks just like Figaro used to. Probably will soon. My mom is saying with my Aunt Jackie and my cousin dawn for a while to get away from everything. That's kinda been what this week has been for me...but all it's really done is made me not want to go back even more. I have decided that the worst thing I have experienced to date is knowing when a relationship between you and another person is breaking down right in front of you and not being able to do anything about it. It sucks..but I guess that's life. Joel and I are gonna hang out tomorrow. That will be fun. He even informed me that he called me first when he had a day off. That's made me feel good...even though I had to make a joke out of it.
Eric: "Oh Great...I get to be Joel's bitch."
Joel: "nope...if you were my bitch I would tell you to bring food."

Everyone wish Alyson and Lu Lu birthday wishes. I'll blog later.

Busy, Busy, Busy

So the past week or so has been really busy. I got cast in Cabaret...probobly the highlight of my week. I will be playing Cliff. It's going to be awesome. My mother had another breakdown...which is bad. She probably won't be working any more...not sure though. I have a terribly sunburn at Wet N' Wild on Friday. I wore sunblock and everything...wierd. Got to hang out with Rebecca Cullars which was fun. Bonding experience even if everyone else bailed on us. And I spent the week building set with Terance and Joel...which I think was one of my new favorite things to do. Well...I think that's it. The computer is lagging really bad...so bad in fact that I have to wait several seconds for whatever I type to appear on the screen. ANNOYING. Blog more later.

Another Day..Another...Something...witty

So here I am..in class...blogging. Good times. I think I broke my hand a little at work. Not a big deal. Work is going...well..crappy. I am going to change jobs..somehow..soon. Hopefully it's an acting job...well not that I don't have an acting job now..just the next one I would like to be actually called an actor...not a speiler. My boss is an idiot. He gave me a week off when I asked for a day off then yelled at me cause I wasn't meeting my weekly 32 hour minimum. Foreigner is...well...sucking a little. I am sure it will get much better. The actors have the talent..they just need to push the diva out of the way. I had Donato's with Billy today. Good times. Still no word from the person that the thing happened with. My conscience is still bothering me....(Thanks...billy...) Today is the first day of 10 minute play thingies. It's gonna be fun. Lots of theater in a short period of time. My scene is Thursday. Fun. This is being projected on the big screen. I think I am probably done now..I'll blog more later.

Wait...Is This Stupid Thing Actually Gonna Work?!?!

So if you are reading this it means that my computer decided to push it's problems with me to the background and actually allow me to update. So Three Days of Rain is over. It's sad..but I think it was time. Running sound was a great experience. Went out after the final show on Friday...it was...interesting. Lots of fun. Drank a lot, made some decisions, or didn't...and we will see how all that turns out. Guilt set in pretty quick..thanks to...well..my conscience (thanks..Billy and Jen). Who apparently, by the way, think that I am a guiltless bastard apparently. The exact comment was, "I know this is a new feeling for you Eric, It's called Guilt." That makes you feel great when your best friend says that to you. Class is coming to a close, work is coming to a close, the show already came to a close. Things are beginning anew. I am hopefully going to get this new job at the law firm where Allison and Andrea work, downtown. AWESOME opportunity. 10.50 an hour as a file clerk. I can handle that. Flexible schedule...great. Hope that works out. I'll just add that to the list of phone calls I am waiting on. Foreigner has started...for me anyway...the rest of the cast has been very busy for weeks. I am finally there...getting to know everyone. I think that's pretty much it right now. Except for the things that happened during 3 Days of Rain. Alyson came to the show, we hugged, said we would get back in touch. Several people came up and expressed confusion about me being at Icehouse, one actually said "You're at the wrong theater." Apparently evenwith my minimal roles at Moonlight I made an impression. A couple of older people from Royal Highlands told me how good I was in the old people show. That was nice. Anyway..I will blog later.

Blogging From Class Part Duex

So...yeah...here I am again. In class...blogging. Glad I'm not paying for this. I just hang out. It's cool though. Cool people...good times. Over The River And Through The Woods is going...that's about it. It's...challenging. The old people act like 2 year olds. But..whatever. 3 days left and then no more. Work is..work. Everyone seems to be leaving. Myself included. I am trying to find another job...easier said than done. I even applied for construction...that's right...ERIC THE CONSTRUCTION WORKER...it sounds like something from the Village People. On the up side...I would get buff..and tan. They are talking about hippie parents or something now...not really sure only half listening. Billy wants to be an asshole...or something. There are 2 other people reading this right now..atleast..it's kinda being projected throughout the classroom..oh well..not really a private journal anyway. What else is going on in my life...not much. Not dating..have my prospects...sigh.... Too bad they are dating someone else. (Think that was vague enough?? I do.) Tyson and I talk a lot. It's good to have a friend that knows...pretty much everything about me. Kinda harrowing at first but interesting. People are systematically becoming part of my..in the know group. Eventually it will probably come back to bite me in the ass...and not in the good way...but until then..I'll just revel in it. I think that's about it. I'll blog later. Something about cake. (It...apparently needed that. Don't ask. I didn't.)

Blogging From Class

So I am in Acting II, blogging. We are supposed to be working on our scenes but my scene partner is going through costumes for the upcoming show at Valencia. She keeps complaining that she looks like Jesus...Then she chose a plum dress. Whatever. So Work is ridiculously busy. So...freaking...busy. I am getting my prominant Jaws tan lines. Need to go lay out or something..even out the humiliation. Tonight is the first night in a while that I have nothing do to...YAY! Going to go home, wat, clean a little, sleep early. Good times. Too bad I have to ruin it by getting up and going to work tomorrow. Anyway...things have gotten busy. I am in that show with the old folks, "Over The River And Through The Woods" it is going...awful..but not horrible. So...just a little less than tollerable. I am co-stage managing "Three Days Of Rain" with Tracy. Good times. Now my partner is putting on my pillow case from forum. HA HA HA HA HA..cough..cough...sputter...HA HA! So..now...I guess I should go and rehearse. So..yeah...I'll blog later. Unless I keep blogging now. My cousin had back surgery this morning. She is doing very well...already got up and walked a little. So...good on her. I have made a promise to hang out with Tyson from work being that the has gone back down to seasonal and we are just kinda talking about hanging out. "Look Homeward Angel" is going very well. Not sold out..but wonderful comments. I am going ot be in the musical coming up in July/August Icehouse. Not sure as what..but I got my eye on a romantic lead as usual. I'll blog later.

Feel How Big It Is

Ok..now I know how bad that sounds...and yes...it is supposed to. That was the line of the weekend. We had a potluck between shows on Saturday and Christian ate his normal 6 plates of food plus dessert...then Madeline was hugging him and rubbing his stomach and he said "Feel how big it is." and she responded with "WHAT??!?" as anyone would. We had 4 shows this weekend...it is going WONDERFULLY. I love that theater so much. Nunsense is going very well too. That's aobut it for now. I'll blog later.

I Hate Technology, But I Love Technology

I wish I could post more often..but what with my computer not working well and everything it takes me like an hour to post..and I rarely find myself with an hour of spare time just layin around. So here I am when I should be sleeping...posting. Working my butt of at work, rehearsing and performing my butt off at the theater, and rehearsing with the older folks for "Over The River And Through The Woods" Love that part. I will try to post more in the very near future..I gotta sleep now..it's 10 o'clock and I have to be up at 5. I'll blog later.

I'll Take Solla Sollew Over Eden Any Day

So this weekend has been GREAT. GREAT Weekend. The show went very well. Not packed houses every night but the responses from the crowds were very positive. The reviewer came and even though he didn't take my picture he did make a point to come up to me and shake my hand and say it was great to see me again. He can be a jerk when it comes to reviews, pictures, and just all around human kindness..but whatever. I love Icehouse. Everyone is there because they want to be there. Everyone is professional about it because they know that if they aren't...they won't be there anymore. Terrance is an amazing director..which I am sure I have gushed on enough about over the past weeks. The title of this blog is kinda cryptic for most probably. I will explain. The past week or so I have found myself constantly singing "Solla Sollew" from Seussical. Now if you don't know the song then I will explain a little. It is a beautiful song where Horton the elephant and various other cast members talk about Solla Sollew. An place that "Some say is something like heaven" so as to quote the song. That is how I feel at Icehouse. It's just a great place to be. The cast has bonded nicely with future bonds continuing to mature. I am already booked on a trip with Joel and some others to Tennessee for some festival. No only am I booked..but I am driving. Great times. I auditioned for "The Foriegner" yesterday. I think it went well..but I won't know till later this week. So yeah..I think that's about it. The blogs have gotten few and far between cause my computer is a mess..I am going to have to wipe the harddrive and start from scratch but I don't want to lose all of my files..mostly music files and poetry and stuff...so I have to get a jump drive and then wipe the harddrive. So...yeah..it could take a while what with my current wallet moths and all. I'll blog later..when I get a chance.

Zebras Are Hard To Juggle

Sorry again for the not posting more often..just so busy. Today I had rehearsal..as usual...loving it...as usual. I have had a reaccuring thought that if I could find a way to support myself doing this..I would...no doubt. Then I went out to eat with my family..another buffet. My family has apparently decided that the only restaurants worth going to are buffets. I am not happy about this..because you usually sacrifice quanitity for quality. Such was the case the last two nights that I have gone. Then I went over to Jen's house to pick up Billy and ended up kicking everyone's butt during a videotaped game of "Shoot The Paper Target With A BB Gun"..or as we like to call them.."The Redneck Olympics". Andrew, Kyle, Jen, Billy, and I had a great time with that. Then Billy and I went to see Constantine. Good movie..not a great actor. Dead Chickens have a more convincing cough...frozen dead chickens...lungs removed. But the movie itself was excellent..and I was seriously ready for some Eric and Billy time. I miss my best friend. The night was salt and peppered with "the last time I was here I was with..." statements..in the beginning..then that ended and conversation was a lot better. Now I am home..and going to bed. I'll blog later.

I'm Not Always On Time, Please Don't Expect That From Me

So I ended up not going to work today cause I didn't set my alarm. I woke up with just enough time to call them before I got seriously pointed. So I called. Then my plan was to make lemonade out of those lemons and sleep as late as I could and then clean the house REALLY REALLY WELL...then my mother showed up here at 9 a.m. woke me up and told me that she was going to be occupying the house today. She is planning on working in the kitchen paying bills and such..the center of the house. God times. So cleaning the kitchen, mopping, vaccuming...all out..until like 5 o'clock this afternoon when I have no desire at all to do them and she tells me that I need to do them...and I don't want to then cause she just told me to. Ah..the joys of parental closeness..physically. How she annoyed me the most this morning was walking in and saying,

Mom- "Eric this place is a mess."
Me- "My plan today was to clean all day and get the place looking as respectable as possible."
Mom- "Well it needs to be done."
Me- "I just haven't had time. Today I do"
Mom- "Well you need to start finding time."
Devil on Eric's Shoulder- "You know how easy it would be to slip something to knock her out for the rest of the day."
Angel on Eric's Shoulder- "Yeah..for God's Sake...do it."
Me- "Mom do you want a Pepsi?"

Ok...so the whole end of that conversation didn't happen....but everything up to "start finding time" was there. Grrr. Rehearsal shall set me free. Several people last night told me that Terrance likes me..That bodes well for me. YAY. I'll blog later.

The Glitter Of Professionalism

Sorry I haven't been posting much...sleep has just been taking priority. My days are crowded with rehearsals, work, and school...AND IT'S FREAKIN' FANTASTIC! Rehearsals at Icehouse are so different. Everyone is there, when they aren't there rehearsals don't stop. Like tonight for instance. The male lead wasn't there. Christian was sick..so he couldn't come..director's orders. Not like he was sick and just didn't come..but he was going to and Terrance told him not to cause he didn't want to run the risk of infecting the cast...SECONDLY...we got a LOT done tonight..without the lead of the show..the guy who is in pretty much EVERY SCENE. Then we spent half an hour working on the smallest details of my scene. He is teaching me so much. Rehearsals are where I want to be..I am a happier person at Icehouse...Thanks Tracy, Thanks Terrance, Thank You World.

Purpose

This morning started with an Avenue Q reference. I was walking through waredrobe...to get my costume..and I kicked a penny on the floor that I wouldn't have seen otherwise. Then I went on my way...when I walked back by where the penny was it was still there. It was heads-up so I picked it up, then I looked at the date. It's from the year I was born. It's a sign! So the rest of the day went swimmingly...cause I wouldn't allow it to go any other way. Then I went to rehearsal.

I am constantly amazed by Terrance. Seriously. The man is a genius. I watched him go through 5 of the actors in the show in about 10 minutes. He was giving a speech about how our characters are two dimensional right now..and he wants us to be three dimensional. A speech that hurt..but needed to be said and is a great inspiration. Something that would never be said at previous theaters I have worked at...or atleast not articulated so well. This role is going to be a serious challenge for me..he has compared my character to Gene Kelly. I have some movies to watch. I have to develop Luke Gant. I have to make this the finest I have ever been on stage. I have to find out if this is something I can do well enough to actually make it...and Terrance is going to push me to whatever my heights as an actor can be...or make me realize the depths that I truly reside in. We will see..either way it's going to be one hell of a ride. I'll blog later.

I Killed Him

So the show ended yesterday. The title of this blog is the line that went through my head everynight during the death scene in Man of La Mancha. My internal monologue during that scene was basically that by wiping Don Quixote out of Alonso's mind I had also destroyed the man that I knew. That along with thoughts of Alonso had no true friends, only Don Quixote..as I watched Aldonza and Sancho plead for the life of their friend. Then when he died I would also find myself with the same thought, "I did this. I killed him." Last night it hit the hardest it has ever hit. I almost totally lost it. As I leant over Alonso to cross his hands and close his lifeless eyes a single tear fell from my face and onto his. I touched Aldonza's hand and looked her in the eyes before she pulled away from me and dropped Don Quixote's hand. The Psalm still sounded good, but I was obviously struggling to hold it together. Then when we got to the Finale and I stood to sing my intro lines to the song, "To bear with unbearable sorrow." I realized what I was saying..and lost it again..I couldn't hold it together that time though...and I struggled to sing the song. Honestly one of the few times I was fully immersed in a character. EDIT: Another great character moment that I need to add. When I am first chosen as the Padre in the show I would wipe my nose with my sleeve. Last night during the scene just before the finale but after the death scene I had a runny nose and I went to wipe it with the sleeve of my priest's robe..then I stopped...without thinking, looked at the sleeve and rolled it back just enough to wipe my nose with my arm instead of the robe. It doesn't mean much to anyone else either..but I there were thoughts in that that I cannot even recreate..I was a better person for being in that story, I would not sulley the robe.

Then after the show Dan, the musical director, came up to me and said probably the nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me in my entire life. He said, "Don't listen to all those people who tell you that you can't act. It is easy to be way out there and flambouyant. Subtly is hard. It's very hard to pull back and be natural...and you have that. You have the gift of subtlety. It is rare and precious..and if you keep trying..you will make it." Then he hugged me. I think that if I hadn't exhausted my tear supply for the day I would have started up again. Then I left and went to Icehouse theatre..for yet another great rehearsal.

I officially got the part of Luke Gant in "Look Homeward Angel" on Saturday..after a very brief reading. Then a few hours later got blocked into my scene. The people in the show are amazing..I constantly find myself challenged. Terrance, the director, is amazing. Every moment I am on his stage I find myself wanting to impress him, no...not really impress him..make him proud. I just don't want to screw it up. His vision and direction are spotless, flawless, jewels of inspiration. I learned my lines overnight..something I NEVER do. Then went back for another rehearsal sunday. Great, great, wonderful times. Spending a lot of time with Tracy, which is fun. She and I have a lot in common. Good talking during our car pools. Rehearsal all the time will not be as bad as I thought.

Working back into the swing of 5 day weeks at Jaws. It will be great...I can already tell. I kinda blew of the Oliver! rehearsals cause if you have no spoken lines a readthrough is kinda pointless. I do miss my La Mancha crew that are all part of the show. I'll blog later..I am off to bed cause I gotta get up at 5:30 a.m., work at 7:30, out at 2:30, class at 3:30, out at 4:40, pick up Tracy in clermont when I get there, rehearsal at 7:30 p.m. out by 10:30. Fun times. I'll blog more when I get time.

A Little Scared And Dissapointed In Myself

So I guess my body kinda shut down last night. I went to bed at 11 o'clock and then I didn't wake up until 10:30 today. I decided to call in cause there wasn't any point in going in for 2 hours. I pick up the phone and dial the number. The girl on the other end says "Calling in sick?" and I opened my mouth to say yes and NOTHING COMES OUT. I don't mean that I squeaked an answer..Nothing came out..and I tried like 3 times. NOTHING. So I ended up hanging up without explaination. Then I tried again a couple of times. Nothing. I finally text messaged Billy and asked him to make the call for me...about an hour late. I knew I pushed myself to far yesterday in the double boat rotation. I'm sure it will come back..It's already a little better...I can make noise now but have decided to not speak until warm-ups tonight. I'm sure I will be fine.

I got my DVD of Man of La Mancha. I gotta say...vocally I am awesome...physically I look awkward, fidgity, over-rehearsed, and a little hunchbacked. But vocally I sound great. The rest of the cast is really amazing. Kyle does an amazing job all around, same with Billy, and Alyson(don't care what she says). Sarah looks and sounds amazing. Gerard does a great job..everyone is really great.

I didn't make it to Lu Lu's show last night...stupid..everything. Maybe next time. Anyway...I am going to go...hopefully Billy made that call for me. I'll blog later with vocal updates.

Sorry...Forgot My Tip-toeing Shoes

So yeah...last night and today have been long...long...long...hours. I got up this morning did the whole work thing..I really love those people out at Jaws..REALLY DO. Then I came over to Billy's..that is where I am now. I am here at Billy's..blogging..after reading something that I have to say...kinda irritated me. But I think I handled it fairly cooly...fairly. Tonight is Nunsense dance rehearsal number 1...I am making Billy come along cause if he doesn't I think I will throw myself under their tap shoes about 20 minutes in and let them trample me to death. Tomorrow I work and then have school....and I have to do my monologue tomorrow for performance. We haven't done that yet..kinda nervous..cause I haven't studied at all these past few weeks...should probably do that. ANYWAY..I am off..cause I am totally taking over Billy's computer. Should be home later..and then veg out in front of TV for Smallville..and then sleep..before the working...and the schooling...and the Josephing. I am going to find a way to go to Lu Lu's show tomorrow night. Joseph played by Encore "Dear God What A Voice" man. Gotta see that. I'll blog later.

Change

One must incite change for change to occur. A pile of gun powder without a match is worthless. Letting things be the way they are just for the simple sake that that is the way things have been is no way to go through life. Life is stagnant and uninteresting without change of any sort. It may be comfortable, but where is the growth? Without growth we will never rise above and become better than we were. We will forever sit in the past being a secondary element in the world we live in. Change is necessary for life to stay in motion. One must incite change for change to occur....and a storm is brewing.

We'd Like You To Be Our Apple....No...Wait...Rose Seller

So I went to Oliver! auditions last night. Some funny stuff happened...but Alyson blogged about that...so go read it if you want to. So we sat around after the auditions to find out what parts we got. Billy and I had been joking around about how we were going to end up as Apple Sellers Number 36 and 37. Then Tim comes out and tells lane her part, then turns to me and says "I want you to be my rose seller soloist. It's a great song." Then there is an awkward pause..Lane looks at me and tries to mask a laugh. Then to billy and they offer him the part of Fagin. I am really happy for Billy and Sarah. Fagin and Nancy. And for Alyson and Nick...Widow Corney and Mr. Bumble. And Alex...he's the shit...our little Dodger. So I have accepted the part..even though it hurts me to do so. I am tired of getting parts with no substance. I am going to come out at the beginning of Act two and sing a song. Great. Why am I there? Is it intrical to the plot? Does it matter at all? Who cares really? Anyway...I am auditioning for lots of stuff and if I get something better...I'm taking it. I'll blog later.

Oh, What A Weekend

So this weekend we did show some more. It's going very well still. Luerne came on Saturday night with her parents. I cooked ribs on Saturday and sold them. It was pretty much good times. Last night was the joke that is Oliver! auditions. Lots of people showed up and Moonlight, in proper unprofessionally theater form, didn't have enough audition forms. I got up and sang "If I Didn't Believe In You" from Last 5 Years..well a piece of it. It was total out of key..but it is like the hadest song to play in the show. Kyle said I sold the song so the singing didn't matter as much. I was consistantly off key. Billy say that it sounded like Dan was playing one song and I was singing another. Either way..I am not unhappy with my choice. They let me read for Sikes and Fagin..the reason I say "let me read" instead of "had me read" is becausee it was obvious they were doing it simply to do it...so I couldn't say "HEY You didn't even let me read." They paired me...22..looks younger..with a 50 year old nancy and a 40 year old Fagin. Ridiculous. Then they let me read as Fagin one time with Billy, and then as Noah..the undertakers son..which is usually cast a teenager. Anyway...I don't think I am going to get anything which is fine. Ass one person said..it's a director who doesn't direct and a director who can't direct. I won't accept anything less than a lead..ensemble in this show would amount to babysitting. Anyway..they sort of asked me to come to callbacks...sort of. I walked up to the table to take care of some business I had with the director regarding chicken..and the A.D. asked me if I was coming back the next day..and I said "Only if you guys want me to." and she replyed with "Yeah..we want EVERYONE to come back." Whatever. I'll blog later.

Monkey Noises Make Everything Better

Alyson...said nice things about nice things that I said. I am profoundly tired right now. Today I went to Jaws and it was a lot of fun. We decided it was Monkey day. So several of my felllow skippers and I ran around the attraction making convincing monkey noises. I won..the best monkey noises..ask me and I will demonstrate. Today on the ER board I was Eric (V boy). I did an entire show..minus the guests...making loud monkey screams and pointing..while jumping up and down. It was great times. So I have a show tonight. YAY FOR SHOWS! Boo for lack of sleep. Monkey noises..will resurface and power me through the show.

How Do You Ruin A Good Mood?

well for starters....you wake up at 5 a.m. to a house with no hot water, then you go change the tank thinking it's not a big deal, then you spend the next 20 minutes trying to light an arcaic hot water heater, then call your father who has these helpful and time-honored words of wisdom "Yeah, sometimes it'll do that." I have been in a remarkably good mood for the past 2 or 3 days...and today I woke up in a good mood..but right now I just want to loosen a gas line and watch the place burn. I hate this place so much. It's 6:09, I should have left at 6..and I haven't even had a shower yet. I just want to punch something..I am thinking that a punching bag would be a good investment..cause I have recently found these testosterone filled jets of anger kinda of annoying cause I just want to punch something..anything. And if I had a bag made just for the punching..I would feel more comfortable about the venting of that anger. I have Jaws today, which I am still excited about, cause lets face it...it's not here. Then I have a W.E.T. meeting at Valencia West...which stands for West End Theatrics...not some underwater sex club. Then I am going to block the first act of Nunsense with Chris, then off to Acting II for the learning and stuff, then to Nunsense rehearsal where we will actually block the cast into the blocking we devised earlier in the day, and then home..where the sleep happens. I open again on Friday and then show Friday night and then Saturday off...for the sleeping. The hot water should be reasonably hot by now..maybe I can take that shower and start my day outside of this place. I'll blog later

Oh What A Glorious Day

So today I went to class. It was a good time. I love this class. I feel...at place. I read a scene today and Doc pretty much tore everything I thought about the character to pieces and introduced me to the deeper meanings. And I loved every minute of it. Then I went over to Billy's and ran some errands with him..and then on to Nunsense rehearsals. Things are kinda...not great. There was a mix-up with the books and so they aren't here. Now we have no books and 5 actresses very ready to go. They should be here by Thursday. Then we can get some work done. Chris is getting my opinion on a lot of things directing wise..which I love.

To close...here is a little exchange between Alyson and I that nearly made me run off the road laughing.
ME- "Eww...there's this creepy latin guy staring at me out of his car window."
ALYSON- "What? You mean like an ancient roman guy?"

Here's another one actually...this one in text messages.
ME-"The sky's so clear and the sun's so bright. How could anything go wrong on a day like this?"
ALYSON-"There's a story coming isn't there?"
::Phone Rings::
ALYSON-"What's wrong?"

Same conversation with Billy
ME-"The sky's so clear and the sun's so bright. How could anything go wrong on a day like this?"
BILLY-"I'm late!"
BILLY-"I got out early...chipotle?"

I find it feverishly interesting how the same comment of positive origin brought about two completely different outlooks on my mood. I'll blog later.

Who Says That?!?!?

So it's been an interesting weekend...most of which I am not going to put in this blog just cause..well I am lazy and I don't want to type it. We did 3 shows, all good to pretty decent crowds. I got a mention in the review. That's good times. Friday night and went and saw Boogeyman with the Jaws crew and Sarah. Great times. Bill came and saw the show Saturday night and told me that he didn't know I could sing like that. I am still really not doing a great job at taking that compliment..even from people who have never seen me in anything before and can legitimately say that. I fear I may be coming off as rude..and I am going to apologize to Bill next time I see him..cause I think I may have come off that way. Then today Jan pulls me aside to tell me something in private. This is what she had to say...or atleast the high lights. "Before this show I would see you onstage and say, "oh there's Eric."..I really didn't think you could act at all. I always knew you have a beautiful singing voice but you really couldn't act. But in this show I see that you can. I am really proud of you. You are doing an excellent job. Like when you lear at Aldonza and Sancho. Those are great moments. You really are coming into your own. You should go for character parts..cause that is where you shine." My response..."Thank you.?.?.?" How do you respond to someone telling you that you sucked for the past 6 years of your life...but now..you are doing a great job in this show. I have decided to take it as a compliment...but I gotta tell you..it hurt at first...a lot..still does a little. Tracy says I need to go to Icehouse..great, fairly professional theater in the area. I am trying for a Fringe Show that Lu Lu is musical directing. That should be fun..not really sure about the subject matter..but I love playing dark characters...so it should be fun. Yay for Super Ball Sunday. I'll blog later.

Stupid Freaking Groundhog Was Right

So yesterday...nice weather. Perfect even, for most of the day. Then I wake up and it's cold as Aldonza's gaze and as nasty as that freaking token. I refuse to not be a good mood today. Even though things seem to be working against me on that one. I wake up and call in to work because I would only be able to work for 3 hours and I wouldn't even make enough to cover the gas it takes me to get there. A girl I used to work with at MIB answered and was talking to me. She informed me that she doesn't like my supervisor at all, asked me if he scheduled me against my availability and that she can't wait for the supervisor swip/swap. That made me smile. It's bad when the call-in line people ask if your supervisor is scheduling you against your availability just by how often people call in to your attraction. Then I come out to check blogs/mail/general internet stuff and my mother shows up. Gives me a hard time about not working..and leaves..gotta love mom for those impromtu visits. Especially when she comes to give you shit for not going to work...and she didn't go to work cause, and I qoute, "She just didn't feel right.". I think I had a ligitimate reason. Anyway. Apparently our show got a "must see" in the review. Not sure whatelse was said. I can't wait to read it...if someone doesn't bring it to the show tonight I am going to explode with anticipation. I am goin to go now. I'll blog later!

Quiz...

Mario sent me this quiz...so I am answering it.

1. Full name:
Eric Nicholas Bridges

2. Astrological sign:
Leo

3. Religion?
Grew up Baptist. Have varied beliefs now...still don't think anyone has it 100% correct.

4.Where were your decendents from?
Britain, Scotland, Ireland, France, Germany.

5.Craziest thing you think you've ever done:
Proposed to a girl I wasn't even dating..and really meant it.

6.Your worst nightmare:
Being forced to watch horrible things happen to the people I love and not be able to do anything about it.

7.Do you believe in ghosts?:
Yep.

8.If you were just given a million dollars, what would you do with it?:
Pay off all of my debt, then my parent's debt, then I would buy a house over by Universal. Then I would invest part of it and travel with the rest.

9.Do you like your name? If not, what would you have wished for your name to be?:
Yeah. After nearly 23 years it tends to grow on you. I can't think of any name I wish I had..I have always liked Leo for some reason.

10.Which is your favorite choice for a day of play: Amusement park, the beach, picnic in the park?
That's a tough one...How about a theme park on the beach.

11.Which is your favorite choice for a night out: Dinner and a movie, clubbing/dancing, broadway show?
Dinner and a movie is fun..and if the cast is good...broadway show is fun too.

12.If were a wild animal, what would you be?
A Liger. Of course...cause you get all the best qualities of both the Lion and the Tiger...and you have the skills and magic to go with it..so..score.

13.You're an insect, what are you?
Insect...hmm...not sure. How about a drone bee. Lots of sex..no responsibility.

14.Dog person or cat person or both?
Both

15.If you believe in re-incarnation, who would you say you probably were in a past life?
I am not sure how I feel about re-incarnation. But if it does exsist...then I believe I was probably an evil person. Because I am not that now..but I truly enjoy being that..and some say it's scary how easily I assume that role...something primal takes over...so..I guess..yeah..evil.

16.If you were to choose a different job or purpose in life, what would it be?
Anything in the entertainment field that I could support myself on.

17.If we had to go back and live in one of these past era's, which would you choose? the 50's, 60's, 70's
Umm..I am ok with the current era..but I guess...50's. Cause of..stuff.

18.Pop Music, Soft Rock, Hard Rock, Rap, Country or Disco?
I listen to everything...including Disney soundtracks and broadway musicals. I am kind of a wierd guy.

19. What are you most likely found watching on TV: the news, reality shows, sitcoms, educational stuff?
Little bit of everything. Lots of Food Network..discovery channel, Sci-fi, mtv, FX, Cartoon Network.

20.Your spending a weekend away, which of these would it be: Camping trip, Disney World or a shopping spree in the Big Apple?
Big Apple..but not for shopping. I would keep the money that any other person who chose this answer would have spent..and I would go buy tickets to some shows.

21. List a few things you want to do in life before you die:
Be part of something big. Play Princeton/Rod, atleast 3 out of the 4 male characters in Charlie Brown, Seymour Krelborn, Fiyero, Jamie, along with a million other roles. Support myself through acting...comfortably. Fall in love, have a family, own a house, Be totally self sufficient. Not have to live pay-check to pay-check. Fly. Go a day when atleast one other person can agree that I was positive.

He's Gonna Go In A Different Direction

So is it a bad sign if you are talking to a director that you know for a fact precasts all of his shows, even goes to the extent of telling people to go ahead and learn stuff specifically for a certain part, and when you tell him you don't know much about the show he responds with..."Lots of kids." Then goes on to say that there are "only maybe two roles in my age range". Not really expecting much to come of this audition but I promised Alex I would go..so I am going to go..just probably not going to be in the show. I want a decent sized roll in the show..but I think that the only part that the directors thinks I fit the age range for, he also thinks I don't have that I don't have the ability to play. He told me the only major role in my age range was "Bill Sikes, bad guy/villian, thief, killer, etc." Not really complaining..just making an observation. I'll blog later!

Clarification: I was talking about Oliver! in the above post. Just to clear things up for those who didn't understand.

We Are All Just The Playthings Of The Feline Puppet Master

So today was a long ass freaking day. I got up entirely to early and went to work..where I had to wait for a few hours before I could even clock in. They were really over budget so I couldn't clock in early. So at 11 I clocked in and at 2 I left. 3 hours there, 3 hours at the Middle school getting to know the children. Some of those kids seriously make me fear for our future. But the majority of them are pretty good. Then I went to Cingular cause my phone broke. I don't know why..they said it has bad software..which is what they said on the last 2 phones that messed up. I am thinking that if one client goes through 3 phones in 2 months..you might want to check the software out a little more thuroughly. Then I went and saw Hide N' Seek. I liked it..I don't care what anyone else says. Alyson and Travis didn't like it. Billy and I did. Good times. Now I am at home..trying to work on my homework..but I am falling asleep..so I am going to bed. I'll blog later.

What's Wrong With This Picture

It's 5 a.m., I'm awake, the world is not coming to an end...today. My body refuses to change sleep patterns for some reason. I got up early yesterday and I still couldn't sleep last night. I got about 2 hours sleep...My head is killing me. I was going to go to work at 7:30 but that just didn't happen today. I am going to go in 9 or 10 and tell them I am coming in at 7:30 tomorrow. I am thinking that 2 days of sleep deprevation might allow me to go to sleep at a decent hour tonight. If not..then I will just take a sleeping pill or something right after Smallville tonight. I'll blog later.

Wait...You Mean Growing Up Means Responsibilities?!?!? Why Didn't I Get THAT Memo?

So today I went to class..Good times. I truly love hanging out and talking about theater with other people who are generally interested in theater. It's strange..but the only time you can get a group of theater people together and talk about the same subject long enough to get any real depth into it..is when you are in a theater class. I truly enjoy it. I love all my theater friends outside of class...but subjects change so rapidly most times that I find myself just listening in fear I might break the flow. I came home from class feeling very good about life in general. Got home and hung out for a few. Then on to grandma's for dinner and the doing of my parent's taxes. I got the strange opportunity to read the blog of the person that I had to tell that we had "gone in a different direction". It was strange. She was angry..and understandably so. I have been there..all of us actors have been. I do however agree with what she had to say. Euphamisms don't make it easier to know you weren't the one cast. As an actor I agree that it is kind of a waste of energy to devise ways to make that blow less painful...but as an Assistant Director I did what I was told. It was my first time telling someone they weren't going to be in the show..and it wasn't as horrible as I thought it would be. We all have our roles to play..and unfortunately they all have their downsides..but they all have their rewards. Emotional outlets, watching something bud and bloom under your care and direction, watching crowds of people applaude the mutual works of you and the actors. I may be totally wrong on the directing side..but that's how I see it now. It will be interesting to see how my views chance over the next few months. I'll blog later.

Oh The Joys And The Tears Of The White Trash Actor

So the last couple of days I have been really busy and happy. I have had Nunsense auditions the last couple of days. They went pretty well..I agree with the cast..mostly. I am probably going to join Chris as his assistant at the YMCA After School program rather than taking over completely. It should be fun..and the pay is great. 16 dollars an hour and a Y membership. I need to use that Y membership..Alyson doesn't think I will. I am not sure I will either..best laid plans and all. She and I sang "As Long As You're Mine" last night after the auditions and that went pretty well..concidering we had sang it together 3 times prior to that...with some practice it could be awesome. I went to Kyle's birthday dinner last night..which was a lot of fun. Talked to Gerard on the phone for like 45 minutes in what I think is probably a friendship strengthing talk. Then I got up this morning and didn't feel good. But I am feeling better now. I had some serious stomach cramps..like...doubled over in pain. It was wierd. Then I go to make some phone calls when I woke up..including the "I'm sorry, but we decided to go a different direction" call that I had to make from auditions. I hate making those calls. Anyway..the point of the story is..my phone was turned off. I called my mom and she said I had to choose whether I wanted to have TV or telephone. Hard decision for me..but I went with the phone..so it's back on..and they haven't turned off the TV yet..so..maybe it will hold out. I just can't handle havinng to walk down the dirt road outside my house to use my cell phone when I want to make a call. Now I have class...so I will blog later.

Ah Sleep..How I Missed Thee

So the last couple of days have been incredibly hectic..but also a lot of fun. I got up at 6 and cooked ribs on Saturday then delivered them the rest of the day until the show. The show Saturday was mnuch better than Friday. Nathan and Amber came to the show and both told me I did very well. I appreciate the compliments coming from people that I have had a falling out with. Then on to Bill and Tracy's. That is the highlight of every weekend now. We went there and watched Distraction. Great show, lots of fun to watch with a group. Then we huddled up on the couch and played Fatal Frame 2. Oh dear God that was fun. We played that until 3 in the morning when I starte to fall asleep. Then we all went to bed. Sarah, Gerard and I shared the sofa bed, Travis and Alyson were on the floor behind us. The arangment on the sofa was Me, Sarah, Gerard. Sarah in the middle. At one point in the night I woke up on my stomach, there was an arm across my back in front of my face and a leg across my butt, knee bent. I was like, "Ahh, that's cute, Sarah wants to cuddle.". Then I looked at the hand, "Gee, Sarah has big hands." Then I looked to my left...it was Gerard. Sarah had moved to the floor. I pushed Gerard off of me and went back to sleep. Good times.

The next day we all got up blurry eyed and happy and went to the show. I thought the show went very well. There were a few minor flaws..but flaws are what makes something perfect. The audience wasn't very receptive. Alicia and Rebecca May came and I heard them laugh like 3 or 4 times. They don't really have distinctive laughs...but when the room is silent ANY NOISE IS DISTINCTIVE. After the show they told us it was very good. Slight awkwardness between Alicia..but not that bad. After the show I found out that one of Alyson's friends Larry came to the show and thought I had a great voice. I think the word beautiful even came into play. I was kinda taken aback. That's the first person that I don't know directly that has said anything that nice about my voice. To make it hit even harder he is a director, writer, actor himself who has been doing theater around here for YEARS. So he knows his shit. Still kinda floating in that comment now.

I rushed home after that, grabbed something to eat, and took a shower. Then back to the theater for Nunsense auditions. We had a really good turn out. And I was very happy that Chris made sure to involve me in the casting process. He asked me what I thought of every person. We were totally 50/50 on casting. We kept several that Chris didn't like a whole lot..that I loved. Call backs are tonight. There will be a lot of new people tonight too. Alyson and I are going to sing when we get there..just for the heck of it. After auditions last night Alyson and I sat in her car for a while and sang some songs..mostly me singing. We listened to Wicked and You're A Good Man Charlie Brown and we have decided that our voices blend really well. She has made it very clear that she would like to play opposite me soon. That makes me very happy. I am very excited to jump headfirst into our next adventure.

Now I gotta go. Lots of stuff to do today. I'll blog later! This blog is way to long as it is to put in the rest of todays events along with the rest of events from this weekend. I'll try to get the rest in there soon.

Cellophane Wrapped Candies, BAD. Tin Foil Wrapped Cookies, WORSE. Our Town, WORST.

So I went to Our Town last night. Not my favorite play, not my least favorite either..but definetly not my favorite. I brought Alyson the requested Oatmeal cookies, wrapped in tin foil in a ziplock bag. Yep..bad idea. Then I get home from the show..after eating only some Cheeze-its and a couple Oatmeal cookies ALL DAY LONG..and I ate some meatballs in spagettie sauce. Now..either bad theater gives me a stomach ache..or bad food..probably the bad food cause I have been sick all morning. Then I get up and convince myself to go to work..but decide to check my balance because there should have been a deposit last night at around midnight. Yeah..there wasn't. Universal apparently decided not to pay me for last week. Great...WHY DO I ALWAYS GET SCREWED WHEN IT COMES TO MONEY. The love part I can understand. If love is involved I will screw it up...but money things just seem to happen. I payed for Our Town in quarters...that I had taken from Billy. I put gas in my car yesterday counting on that money to be deposited last night..and it wasn't. Now my account is overdrawn by 8 dollars, my stomach hurts, I have to go to work where I can't actually do my job cause I can't lose my voice for the show tonight. GRRR! Really frustrtated. Try not to let it ruin my day..use it tonight. I have a feeling the tears are going to flow like wine...well..whine. Anyway..I'll blog later..after work..if I have time before the show. Tomorrow is Rib Cooking Day. I got a lot of orders so there is a chance I may make a little more money than my car payment and not be entirely broke for the next week or so. But if I know my life and how it works..I will get mugged, or lose the money, or get profoundly sick again and not be able to work for 2 weeks or something. Grrr...I hate money. Why can't the government just pay us for not breaking laws. Like a set salary is awarded to everyone..and then if you break a law they dock your pay. Whatever. I'll blog later. Bye.

Fantasy Mirrors Reality

Ok..so I was going to go into full detail on this but due to the fact that Alyson get to see Smallville last night and doesn't want me to spoil anything I am just going gto say that last nights Smallville was eerily familiar to me in regards to my life. So Clark falls for this beautiful girl named Alicia. They have several conversations that are fairly remanescent of some that Alicia and I had. I will elaborate more later..after Alyson has seen the episode. It was my life..but without Super Powers..and I am not as attractive as Clark...as was clearly pointed out by Alyson. I said something last night while talking to Alicia that she dubbed qoute worthy..I'll place it here. "Everyone's has their krytonite, mine's just not a glowing rock." I didn't think it was that good...but good, much like beauty is in the eye of the beholder I guess. Anyway..I am off to West End Theatrics Meeting Number 1. Good times. I'll blog later.

The Septumberant..(Not Quite As Catchy)

So we ended up going to Ale House for dinner and to hang out. It was good times. Ebola Bullets..what a way to go. Then today Billy and I went to the Sea World Improv auditions..or as I have aptly named them..the Swimprov auditions. Neither of us got call backs...only skinny, muscley, pretty boy types. That's ok. They laughed through my entire audition. Whether that be because I was so bad or because they thought it was genuinely funny I will leave up to fate...No..I won't..I am going to say it was cause I was genuinely funny. Then Billy and I went and road some rides at Sea World..cause lets face it..even though we get in free..admission isn't worth the price of parking..so..While we were there...why not? We went through the shark encounter and then on to Kraken and Journey Through Atlantis. All was fun..until we get to the final attraction..JTA. Our boat was out of sync with the rest of the attraction and so when we went down the drops the demo spray that makes it look like everyone is going to get soaked through but doesn't actually hit anyone cause it happens a little before the boat get there...well..it hit us right in the face. Then there was the fact that for some reason the boat was heavier on the left side and it was tilting throughout the ride letting water in occasionally. Yeah..so we were soaked...through. The couple behind us in the boat enjoyed our screams. I guess there probably is something funny about me yelling "This was not a good idea..this was not a good idea." and "How did we get here?" Along with Billy's various "Oh My Gods". It was good times. Then I came home and started to crash hard. But not completely cause well..I want to sleep tonight. I'll blog later.

What To Do, What To Do

I think we are going to try to get the fun group from the cast together for some fun tonight. We are trying to decide what to do. It should be fun..I miss the hell outta those guys already. I'll blog later!

Did I Die Or Am I Just Really Bored?

So yesterday I spent most of the day watching TV and cleaning around the house..got some stuff done..but not a whole lot. I am incredibly bored. Without something to rehearse for I don't know what to do with my time. I am going to go to some audition tomorrow at SeaWorld for an improv street group thing. It pays 15 an hour...much better than the current suckitude that I call pay. I have class at 3:30..until then I am not sure what I am going to do..didn't even scratch the surface of things that need to be done to make this house livable...but it's hard to do when pretty much everything here is someone elses. Can't really just start packing up mom and dad's stuff. Well I'll blog later.

Ok..So Funny Story

So the story I reffered to before but didn't actually put in my blog... I get over to Burnout night. As I am walking up Billy is outside on the phone with Jen..as usual. I go up and knock on the door, hear a little scurrying inside and think nothing of it..just that everyone was watching the movie and wanted to make sure my knocking didn't disturb anyone. Travis answers the door and I notice that he is holding something in front of his crotch but think nothing of it really. The three girls are in the fold out bed and Kyle is sitting over by the TV. I walk in put down my Barcardi O's and Pineapple Juice. As I was walking over I realized that the covers were pulled all the way up over the girls' chests..and I thought nothing of it really.. Then I turn and realize that Travis is naked..then I look over at Kyle..he's naked too. EVERYONE WAS NAKED and I didn't notice. Well actually just the guys were naked..the girls were just semi naked and under the covers so I didn't actually see anything...just Travis' butt..and Kyle..which I believe everyone has seen on atleast a million occasions. One of the funniest things I remember from hanging out with Kyle was when he was making laps around Lu Lu's parent's kitchen at about 3 in the morning. Good times. Today I am cleaning up the house as best I can..started last night..continuing today. I'll blog later.

EDIT: There are two comments from Alyson becausee for some reason the fist one didn't take at first and then after she posted the second time 4 hours later the first one showed up. She asked me to erase one of them..but I like both of them for different reasons..so they are both staying..if you don't like them...don't read them..Comments are included for my pleasure.

And Then....

Well the last two days have been amazingly fun and interesting with a bitter aftertaste. The show is going amazingly well..even though for some reason each day I cry a little less at the end..the Thursday I had some tears, the Friday I was nearly sobbing through the end, then Saturday and Sunday hardly any tears at all. But the show is still going very very very well. I am getting almost continuous praise...eventually interrupted by Alyson's "STOP TELLING HIM THAT, HE'S BARELY BAREABLE NOW!" It's a wierd sensation..I just don't feel that I am doing anything different..but everyone is loving me in this part..guess it shows off my voice...or maybe it's the contrast of Padre and Paco the Muleteer that Alyson pointed out. I think she gave me the best compliment for this run though..she said that she thinks people are noticing that I can be a strong male character and not just a wimpy background guy. That's nice to know. As Alyson mentioned on her blog Laura broke her leg in two places backstage Saturday night...but one correction..Laura told me that she quietly F-ed her way through her entire vocabulary while she was sitting there on the ramp waiting for something to tie her foot in place. It's wierd that she and I are smiling and laughing together..never saw that coming.

Saturday night I went to Bill and Tracy's for Burnout 3....Amazing good time. I really want to talk about the thing that I think Alyson wanted to talk about on her blog but I fear that I am not supposed to say the thing that I want to say even if you know what I know I want to say but can't say. It was the best greeting I ever got..even if it did go unnoticed for nearly a full minute...well..second best greeting. ::contented sigh followed by goofy grin::

Now for my happy for the day and the explanation therein.

For the first time in a long time Moonlight is where I want to be. I should be exhausted right now but I am still running on the high from today's show. I have cleaned my living room, my room, my bathroom, and baked 3 dozen peanut butter cookies and I am still wide awake. I am in a remarkably good mood right now...and I think I can contribute it to Moonlight and the people that are there that I love..and they know who they are. I know I may bitch and complain..but that's what I do..I vent a lot. I think that is cause I spent so much of my life not venting to anyone. I would just sit and sulk and I was misserable a lot of the time. Now everyone gets on me for being negative..but I am actually happy the majority of the time...and that's cause I vent. So my happy is..that I am happy...and that my second home is back. It's just like my first home..yeah it pisses me off sometimes...but hey..it's home. Anyway..I think that's it. I'll blog later.

The Who's Who Of Who Came To Opening Night

My parents came last night, along with my mom's best friend Frankie. They really enjoyed the show..even though apparently they only spoke to me. Alex was there with his mom..gotta love that kid. I attacked him a couple of times, picked him up, swung him around like a rag doll. He begged me to audition for Oliver! again..and I probably will..but now the begging has been upped to not just me..but also Cindi. Sarah's parents were there but I didn't meet them. Sarah's friend Lindsey was there..she's great. Said she didn't realize it was me until halfway through the show. "OH, it's Eric Foreman." Yeah..that's Lindsey. Anyway..I am going to go..I gotta go take a wet load of clothes and a dry load of clothes to my grandmother's house to use her dryer for the wet ones and the washer for the dry ones so that I have clothes to wear tomorrow. My dryer has been broken for a couple of weeks and it is looking like it may not be fixed for a while..by a while..I mean months..or years. This should be fun. YAY! Show tonight. Later.

YOU STEPPED ON MY TOE!

So tonight's show went very well. Dan said I sang my songs better than I ever have before. Which is good..but kinda funny..cause I spent most of "To Each His Dulcinea" going.."WHAT THE HELL IS THE NEXT LINE?!?!?" The show was fun...energy was a little lower apparently. I cried like a baby right after the psalm..and continued through the end of the show. Then I went to Denny's with my parents followed by a quick catching up with the show people at Chili's. Good times...even though I think I may have pissed one of them off. I'll blog later..I am totally gone.

Happy For Today: Alyson taking the time and money to bring champagne and glasses and make a toast before the show. It was great...and just for us.

Riding A High...Straight To Work

I don't want to go. Dammit. I am going to try to get out of spieling today..actually I am probably going to refuse to spiel today. I can't...My voice can't take it. I want to be able to sing my songs tonight..lol. So today I am going to work, refusing to spiel, AND I need to leave atleast an hour early cause my supervisor screwed up, like usual, and scheduled me past the time I can be there. So I am going to play the role of theater bitch today at work. Oh well..that's life. I'll blog after the show tonight when I am riding my theater high.

They Like Us, They Really Like Us

So reactions from the audience tonight were spectacular. Standing ovation on Final Dress...not too shabby. We had a few pitfalls throughout the show..but..it went very, very well. Several people told me I blew them away..they didn't know I could sing like that. I coudn't help but think..You would have heard it sooner if I had gotten cast in a solo singing role a little more often. Bitterness lays wait in the back of my mouth at all times for some reason..maybe it's the tea leaves I injested tonight..BLEH! I am very happy with our cast as a whole. Moment of the night was definately when Alyson told me that something I did on stage to Aldonza caught her off gaurd. She was like, "Yeah..I wanted to be mad..but it was kinda sexy..and it caught me off gaurd." Not a direct qoute mind you, just how I remember it. I am sure Alyson will correct it in comments if it is wrong. A close second for moment of the night would have to be stepping up onto the box for Golden Helmet of Mambrino after knocking it over and falling off of it..only to find that I had stepped in a large pool of sticky spirit gum. I am just beaming right now..cause so many people said I caught them off guard...too bad I have to go to work tomorrow morning..so I need to go to bed. I'll blog later.

Awkward

So before I get into this post let me just say..that I am a guy and therefore really have no say on anything I am about to say...but I still think it is hilarious. I will also say that is could be a rather vulgar post..not sure where it will go. The new stay-free maxipad commercial. I will explain the commercial and then I will elaborate on why it is funny to me. It starts with this woman in the maxipad aisle and another woman walking up to her..both in normal everyday clothes..both playing customers. The one who walks up says, "This is wierd me just walking up to you in the maxipad aisle huh?" Then she continues to ask very personal questions..things like.."is odor an issue for you?" and various other things while it pans through several woman..I am usually laughing so hard by this point in the commercial that I can't tell you very much else about it..cause I can't remember. Anyway..this would be like the equivalent, in my mind atleast, of a stange guy walking up to another guy in the condom ailse and giving him advice on condoms or personal lubricants. "Excuse me sir...is lubrication during masturbation an issue for you?", "Do you have a problem with the liquidness of most lubricants or do you prefer a gel?", "Are you jealous that some condoms are made for HER pleasure..but nothing ever put out to enhance yours?" DEAR GOD THAT WOULD BE UNCOMFORTABLE! I just can't imagine these conversations going on in a serious setting at a store...unless my friends are involved somehow..I could see us doing that..just to see how many people stop to listen. Just thought I would share that with you cause..well I love you guys and it brings me moments of laughter and joy for some reason. Hopefully some of you have actually seen the commercial in question and can back me up or disagree rather than just calling me a perve or something and running away. Not that you would do that..unless we were in public and wanted to see how many people would stop to watch. Have any of you guys seen the commercial? Use the comment button..it's seriously out of use on my blog. I'll blog later.

Yes Doctor, I Did Break My Nose On A Spanish Whore's Breast Bone And I'll Do It Again

Sorry I didn't post yesterday..I crashed HARD after the day with Avenue Q auditions, class, and rehearsal. The Avenue Q auditions went wonderfully...I didn't get a call back..but I did get the nod that said that I had impressed them...AND I got to meet the producer of Avenue Q. Then I went and wasted a bunch of time. I'm good at that. Then I went to my first acting 2 class. I actually had a LOT of fun..even though the first assignment that I received SUCKS RANCID MONKEY BUTT! We have to draw a picture of our body...proportionately correct...NUDE. She knows we are all very self concious..and she knows that this project is killing us...expecially those of us in not great shape. The point of the excercise in some cases is to make people who are in decent shape realize they aren't the fat cows they think they are...one flaw..what if you are a fat cow..and you know it? Then you are just screwed. So it is a huge project..the part I mentioned is just the first part and I have to do it tomorrow before class. Good times. Rehearsal is going wonderfully...except Jaws is stealing my voice again..even though I don't yell in my show anymore. It's just from the sheer quantity of talking that I do in a given day. Whatever. I will work something out..I always do. The show is really coming together. One of the parents that was there tonight said that I even LOOKED Catholic without the costume. I wasn't aware Catholics had a look..but..uh.. thanks..I think..maybe...I don't know. The show opens Friday..and we will be ready..and I WILL have a voice..I don't know how..but I will. Now I am off to eat and sleep a sleep of fear, uncertainty, and probably a little bit of self loathing for good measure...but believe it or not..I am pretty happy right now. I'll blog later!

Never To Be Sent

I just wrote an email that I will probably never send. I didn't know what else to do. I wanted to talk to the person..but everytime I get the opportunity I just end up sputtering and talking about nothing in general. I ate dinner with my parents, watched Charmed with my brother, then I got in the car and a song came on. I have heard this song about a million times..but tonight it made a lot more sense. I am stupid and dramatic..but that's me...get used to it. So here are the lyrics to the song. I took this internet what kind of animal are you in terms of your love life..I came out a Bison. Sounds about right. Big, dumb, and stubborn. I am going to go watch me some adult swim and then go to bed. I'll blog later

True- Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cuz I'm afraid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go i'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

EDIT: So I read through this post and whereas I am not deleting it..it will be the last post in direct relation to this subject. Reasons are as follows...whereas this is my blog...you guys are my friends and I want you to continue reading..and this is not good reading. It's me dumping on decisions I have made. I will try to stop that. Later

Guh...

So today I laid in bed most of the day. I watched some movies that I hadn't seen before. Bulletproof Monk, The Core, and Along Came Polly. They were pretty good. The antibiotic rejection that I was experiencing last night appears to be over. I am now at the point where all of the nasty tries to come out of your body at once. I am blowing my nose constantly, coughing stuff up every 10 minutes, and just not feeling good. I am going to my grandmother's for dinner..in fact I need to be leaving. I will blog later.

Well That Was Fun

ok..so that was a lie. But I am an excellent liar..so..whatever. I got up and I was fine. Kinda iffy still cause of the bronchitis...but otherwise fine. I watched some T.V...did some dishes...started to get ready to go to a show with Alyson..and then..it hit me. The antibiotics that I have been taking started to rip my stomach apart like a weed wakerin a rice pattie. It was terrible. I won't go into detail..but I wasn't able to talk to anyone for very long without a run to the bathroom. So I called Alyson and told her that I wasn't feeling well, told her that I was going to try to get better and call her at about the time I was going to have to leave to make it to the show. 6:30. Then I went to take some medicine..No Can Do. Antibiotics and anti-diareal medicines don't mix. So I started in on the home remedies. Then at 6:30 I called Alyson and told her I couldn't go..she was none to happy. We spoke again later and she told me some remedies she knew of. I spent the remainder of the night sitting between the living room and the bathroom nibbling on toast and drinking tea..oh so great times. Now I am going to my room. I'll blog later.

THE FIRST QUIZ OF THE REST OF YOUR YEAR

1) Tell me about your mother.

She loves us...but she can be profoundly annoying..a lot of the time. She goes out of the way to make sure my brother and I have what we need..and most of the time what we want.

2) Describe 2005 in one word.

Forward

3)If you were hosting Saturday Night Live, who would you want the musical guest to be?

John Mayer. I think he's great. Would love to talk to him for a while about his lyrics.

4) Tell us about something that's popular right now that you 'just don't get'...

Fashion before comfort.

5)When was the last argument you were in?

Not sure...I think the one I had with my mom the other day about me being sick.

6)What is you Mantra?

Don't really have one. I think it's just...May Today Be Better Then Yesterday.

7) A good nap or a good shit...?

ok...this is...interesting..I think I am going to go with a good nap.

8)Who is your Mentor?

Not sure..My friends..I respect the hell out of all of them.

9) Who, of all your friends, would you want to get into a physical fight with?

Physical fight...hmm..not sure. Probably Billy..cause I can't even imagine him throwing a punch.

10) Elphaba or Glinda?

hmm...I would have to go with Elphaba..but there are a few surgeries that would have to come first aren't there?

11) Make a sandwich.

I don't see what good it's going to do you..but...ok. ... ... ... ... ... ... Ok..done..it's peanut butter and potato chip on white.

12)Do you believe in psychics?

Yes...and empaths..and..mind readers.

13) Favorite Ancient Empire.

Egyptians.

14) What's a Question you want to see on one of these Quizzes?

I don't know..I don't DO questions..I do answers.

15) These are a few of my favorite things...

Friends, being on stage, Figaro, Ink Blot, family, gameboy advance sp, Susie Q.

16) Quick! Staring contest: you and me.

K...go... ... ... ... ... ... Ha..I win..you blinked..

17) What is the most romantic thing you would want someone to say to you?

Anything at all romantic would do now.

18) Who is your Arch Enemy?

The Insulter.

19) Miss Scarlet, in The Study, with...

a blender. That had to hurt.

20) Now there's a fetish I could really get into...

I don't know...how bout some vanilla before I venture into the fetishes.

21) If it happens within our lifetime, would you want to help colonize Mars?

Colonize...that sounds like a lot of work...how about you guys go..and I'll meet you there in 10 years or so..after all that's done.

22) Do you kiss hello?

Nope...hugs..

23) So, what makes you so special...?

I have asked that same question...I think I have a fairly trustworthy appearance...people have told me that they instantly thought I was someone they could trust and depend on.

24) Would you rather be eaten by a crocodile or a shark?

A shark. Because it's faster and probably less painful. Crocodiles do that whole death roll thing. Sharks..chomp..and swallow.

25) Who are you really proud of right now?

The Cast of Man of La Mancha...it's coming together nicely. Alyson..for being awesome. Myself for not falling apart every afternoon like I have wanted to.

Weather...

Well I didn't go to work today because it was raining and nasty. The doc told me the other day that if it is raining and I go work in it..I might as well flush the antibiotics and come back to the doc to get a whole new set of lungs. You don't screw with the Bronchitis. I spent most of my day doing nothing..I played some Metroid Prime 2. Good times. Then I went to the movies with Dawn. I saw White Noise again. So good. Just as good the second time around..noticed a lot of stuff that I missed the time before. Then I was going to go to Alyson's for t.v., ice cream, and just hang out time..but I decided against it. If it's resonably decent weather tomorrow then I am going to work...if it's not..then I am going to go to work on Sunday instead. Try to just show up and work. Anyway..I am broke..oh so broke. And being that Alyson let the cat out of the bag on my positive plans for the week I will elaborate. I am going to attempt to not be negative for a week..on hell week for my show no less. I think that anything negative I put on my blog doesn't count..due to the fact that it is forced on no one. I will not say anything negative..or atleast I will try my best. If I start to be negative..inform me and I will do my best to stop. It's a simple experiement for my own purposes. Anyway..that's about it..There are a lot of things swimming around in my head..but I don't want to post them here because..well..they are personal things that I don't want some people to read...and..they would if I posted them here. So I will just keep them in my head. If you want to know what they are..ask..and if they are not about you..I will probably tell you. If they are about you..expect a quick subject change. I'll blog later.

I Hear A Light At The End Of A Long Tunnel

My head is all stuffed up. Tonight I apprently sang "To Each His Dulcinea" beautifully..I couldn't hear it..but I sang it beautifully. "Little Bird" is not going to work..no matter what. Basically as far as I can tell they have decided that it is going to be a group piece rather than the beautiful duet that it is written as. Why you ask? Not so much because it couldn't be done that way..not so much that we don't have the talent to do it..mostly because the musical director doesn't want to run it until it's right. It sounds..fine...as it is..why should we work on it. He said that most of the guys don't read music. He would be right...I don't read music either. The song is scored one way..it should be sang that way if at all possible. I would understand if we didn't have the guys to do it..but we do. I think it's just stupid. And that is the last I am going to say on it. The rest of the show is shaping up beautifully. Lines are coming together nicely...the set is AMAZING..costumes are...well mostly there. My robe is the coolest thing in the whole world...even though annoying at times. I look like a cross between a dementor, a jedi, and the scream killer. It's great times. I am sure that the robe will lead to many laughs in the future. The cast seems to be getting along fairly well...even Laura and I have smiled and laughed a few times...Bizarro world much? The Bronchial death that has fallen over me the last week or so is clearing up..I just feel really run down a lot of the time..and I have these horrible coughing fits that usually culminate in a huge wad of nasty. I am supposed to work at Jaws tomorrow. I am hoping I will make it. Not feeling so hot at the moment but maybe I will feel better when I wake up. Tomorrow night I am going to see White Noise with Dawn. Should be good times. Saturday I will be at Jaws..then I have double booked myself and will have to fix that. Melissa is having a Big Sandwich party..I thought that meant a Big party with lots of sandwiches..I was wrong..that means a party with a BIG sandwich. I have also promised Alyson I will go see Our Town..those plans were made weeks in advance but in my codine induced drowsiness that I was in when Melissa called I forgot those plans..Gotta call her and apologize profusely. I believe that is all for the moment. I'll blog later.

Medicine Haze

Ok..so you know how sometimes you take a medicine for the first time and your body is like "Hey..Medicine..GREAT!"...and then the next time you take it your body is like "HEY! Medicine..YOU BASTARD!" Well that is what is happening right now with me and my cough syrup with codine. I took some this morning at aboutt 10 and I keep falling asleep..like..sitting up. I was in my dad's chair watching T.V. and I fell alseep...the phone rang and woke me up. So I decided to go play some Metroid Prime cause it would keep me occupied..I fell alseep in the middle of a Boss battle. Then I got on the phone with my friend Melissa..and nearly fell asleep talking to her. I don't think I am going to make it to class today either..but only because I keep falling asleep and I don't think I should drive in this condition. I am definetly going to make it next week if they will still have me. Anyway..I'll blog later. Everyone send Alyson some good vibes so she gets this promotion. She deserves it.

Why?

So the doc said I have bronchitis. Big suprise. He gave me some antibiotics and some liquid narcotic cough syrup. Good stuff. I went to rehearsal and it was great times. The people there make me truly happy..even when I am running a fever and feel like shit. So I found something out today that I wish I hadn't found out. You know when you do something you know is right with every fiber of your being but it still stings more than ripping a band-aid off your heart? Well..I did that...and now I am paying. I miss you. But I feel that I must keep missing you or things will be worse later. Such is life. Man of La Mancha is shaping up nicely. The show should be a true theatrical achievement. I'll blog more later.

The Doctor Will See Me Now

Well it turns out one doctor will see me..and my insurance will change my PCP for me. So now I am going to the doc at 4 this afternoon. Yay for modern technology. I'll blog later.

Sad moment of the day: Checking Alyson's blog every 5 minutes for 45 minutes waiting for her to post.

Doctors...AHHHcough...sputter...cough

Well I come to the conclusion that no doctor in central florida can see me until sometime next week. My insurance is a pain in the butt. They have a whole list of doctors that I could possibly go to...but only if they are my Primary Care Provider. Now that wouldn't be a problem if it was an easy process to change that. I have to change it by phone...and have them fax something over. Well that wouldn't be that big of a deal if their system wasn't down. The system, the system, the system is down. Sorry..strong bad moment. Anyway..I am actually feeling a lot better than I was yesterday. Still not over it though. My mother has suggested that I go to my grandmother's and use her nebulizer. The breathing treatment would loosen up all the congestion in my lungs. I still think I need to go to a doc for this one though. Still have the occasional fever..not good. Anyway..I will be at rehearsal tonight, one way or another. Blog later.

This Is Serious

Well I am going to the doc tomorrow morning. If you know anything about me you know how awful I am feeling if I am going to the doc. I avoid doctors at all costs...but I am just not getting better. Coughing almost continuously, fever refuses to stay down. So going to the doc..then home for more rest..then to Man of La Mancha..cause I can't miss another night of rehearsal. I will just try not to get anyone else sick. I'll keep my germs in check. I'll blog later.

Nothing To Say

So I came here with every intention of saying something...but I have forgotten what it was. I am still sick...though less sick than yesterday, still not ready to rejoin the land of the living. I am not going to go into nasty details. I missed rehearsal last night..probably going to miss tonight. I miss everyone..and running the show. The set is apparently AWESOME...I can't wait to see it. Tomorrow I work at Jaws...and then rehearse. I hope I am feeling well enough to go to Jaws. I should be. Ok that's all. Going to drink more juice and sleep. I'll blog later.

The Hills Are Alive With The Sound Of Mucus

I wish to be cryogenically frozen until their is a cure for whatever the medical name is for "The Death". I put this in writing here in my blog. I have hacked and coughed all day. I have sneezed my way through two DOUBLE rolls of toilet paper..only because I didn't have any tissues..and my nose is red and raw and painful. That is all. End Transmission.

Am I Dead Yet?

The Death has settled in. I am coughing almost continuously, my throat hurts, my head hurts, running a fever, and having to blow my nose about every 3.5 seconds. I took some Nyquil at about 9:30 last night and fell asleep at about 10:00. Then I woke up at 4:30 and took some more Nyquil and slept until 11:30 or so. I feel like crap. Trying to decide whether I want to go to Moonlight...I'm afraid I might infect the rest of the cast. Anyway...I am going to go...sick...so sick. I'll blog later.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN!?!?!?

Well I went to auditions today..sick as a dog...pouring every ounce of energy I had into a monologue that I was shakey on. I got a call back to read the Taylor side. I went in and started reading it. Lyle gave me some information on how it should be done. I did what I thought was what he wanted..got about half way through the monologue and he stopped me. Then he said, "Thanks, I think that's all I need to see." WHAT DOES THAT MEAN!?!?! Am I being concidered...did I blow my chance? I am so confused. Luerne was in the room as the accompaniast. I am going to talk to her later and get her take on my audition. Anyway..off to a Nyquil induced coma I go.

Lyle-Casting director at Universal. We have a very limited relationship. It mostly consists of him sitting across a table from me in a room that is lined with mirrors. I do a monologue. He asks me to read for Taylor..and then I come back to auditions in 3 to 6 months to repeat the process.

Luerne- A.K.A. Lu Lu. She and I met during Halloween Horror Nights XIII. She was my cooridinator in Jurassic Park. We started hanging out after H.H.N was over. Then she got cast as Psuedolus in A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum She is an AMAZING actress and singer. Incredibly funny and instantly lovable. She networks like no one else. I swear pretty much everyone in central florida knows her. She can play the piano like nobodies business. Her mother is the creater and only known holder of the recipe for the famed (Insert Lu Lu's Last Name Here) Punch. I love hanging out with her family. I can hostly say that many of the best times that I can remember in the past year were spent with her or in her presence.

I will blog later.

Monologue

I am leaning towards Antz. I think that one would just compliment me and the part of Taylor more. I don't know. I still want your opinions..but I am going to start memorizing the Antz one. Bed...so time for bed. I will try to post about the parade later. It was a good last day. I was a fireman..which was actually kind of fun. I made many children smile. That's what makes the 30 days of not having a life worth it. I'll blog later.

When Will The Hurting Stop?!?!?

Well as the day progressed..so did the severity of my cough. Tomorrow I will probably be coughing uncontrollably. I found some monologues...they are..pretty good. I think I have decided on one from Idle Hands...but I really like the one from Antz as well. It's so hard to choose. I am going to read them a few more times tonight before I go to bed and then make a decision tomorrow morning when I get up...memorize it on the way after that..and then probably end up telling my sad story of how the monologue didn't get written instead. It's good times. Here are the two monologues if anyone wants to post a suggestion before 11:00 tomorrow morning. I will gladly take it into concideration.

Antz
Idle Hands

It only has to be a minute long monologe and all of your input would be GREATLY appreciated. I'll check it periodically tomorrow morning.

Are There Men In The Room?

So last night at about 2:30 there were the flashing lights of an ambulance poiuring through my house. Something was going on at my neighbors house..not sure exactly what. Then at EXACTLY 2:30 half the power went out at my house. Now normally I would wonder why this was and go around looking for breakers and such. But this time I huddled in my room for a while..like a little girl. At a bout 2:45 I got a flashlight and went and starting flipping breakers...nothing worked..then this morning I called my mom and she told me to try the breakers on the back porch..which I had forgotten about. I started flipping them and the lights came back on. I was like..OK..fine. Then I called my father and he informed me that those breakers have nothing to do with the power where it was off. So...Even though it came back on...we don't know why it was off or how it came back on. Freaky.

I found out today that Avenue Q auditions are coming to town. I am so there. I don't think I will get anything..but I am all for the experience. The show would be in Las Vegas..which would be hard..but worth it.

I am apparently coming down with the death again. I have this horrible cough that is fairly productive...not to be to graphic. I am going to try to get rid of it before rehearsals start again on Monday...good luck to me. I have auditions tomorrow for Universal contracts. I am not sure about my monologue...but what can I say..I don't have anything else. They have seen me in action..they know what I can do. If they like me, they like me. If they don't, they don't. Today it was offically decided that I am assistant directing Nunsense with Chris. It should be fun.

Acting II class starts Tuesday at 3L25. It should be an interesting adventure. Today is the last day of the Macy's parade. I'm sure it will be a lot of fun..I am also sure that I will be a Fireman Clown..which isn't sucking as much lately. I decided recently it would be funny if I was the ghetto fireman clown. I mean how often am I going to be able to be the ghetto one in the group. My name is still Nozzle but now I have a crooked mustache and my hat is tilted and turned to the right. It's good times. I think I have officially run out of things to say on for today. I'll blog later.

AHHH!!! I May Have...Yep...I Just Wet Myself A Little

I went to the movies tonight with Alyson, Billy, Travis, and Stephanie. That was the scariest movie I have seen in a long time. White Noise is an excellent movie. It made me jump...and come up with my own obscenity. I combined all the greats..F*ck, Sh*t, D*mn, B*st*rd, and B*tch...Not sure exactly what came out...cause it all came out at once...so...it was great. I highly recommend it...in fact I will go see it again with whoever doesn't have anyone to go with. It's not one you should see alone..or see and then go home to an empty house as I am finding out now. I was in the car trying to find a good radio station, continually glancing into the rear-view mirror, and when not convinced that there was nothing lying in wait to kill me, actually turning to survey the backseat on my own ALL THE WAY HOME. Fear is great! I experience it so rarely that when I actually find it...I love it. Anyway..I am going to go try to get some sleep in my empty house...avoiding all things that in all way resemble white noise...silence being one of them..sleep should be interesting. Nightmares...here I come. I'll blog later.

Friend Encyclopedia Update:
Alyson-I met Alyson in person a few months back..I knew her for a while before that due to her blog. We were mutual friends of Lu Lu and I have grown to think of her as a great friend of mine. She is very, very talented and witty. She is playing Aldonza in Man of La Mancha with me.
Billy- Billy is my best friend. I met him during Forum..can't remember how long ago that was but that's when I met him. He is ridiculously talented, a lady killer...in the good way..not in the "I'm gonna kill some ladies" way, A perpetual source of joy, and his family has adopted me as their other son. We are currently in the process of brainstorming a comic book. He is playing Sancho in Man Of La Mancha.
Travis- I don't really know much about Travis. We started talking recently when he took the part of Pedro in Man of La Mancha. He seems to be a pretty good guy. He's funny and laid back. Your typical cool guy...that's all I got on him..I've known him for all of a month.
Stephanie- She is one of Alyson's friends. Not sure exactly about the background there..but I know they were in Noises Off and Picaso At The Lapan Agile(sp?) together. She seems like she would be a lot of fun to hang around with. Very funny and right in there with the rest of our humour.

Freaking Theme Park Hours

So I didn't get to go to Mythos today as planned. For some reason they closed at 3...the park was open until 7..but they closed at 3. I guess they didn't want to make dinner crowd money. Whatever. We are going tomorrow for lunch instead. Parade today was really slow. One of the glitz clowns and I stood in one place so long during our set that the charicature guy stationed near us drew a picture of us..it was great! I wish I had had the money to buy it. Speaking of the glitz clown..I am a horrible person..cause I can't remember her name. She changes her clown name daily..I think it is Cristine...but I am not sure. She is a hoot! Today she was Aveeno...cause she used some before she went out. She has been so many things...Yesterday she was Bob, One day she was Yahmaha(ride it hard), I can't even remember the rest...but i have laughed at every one. White Noise is tomorrow night with the theater crew. I have decided to do a monologue about the monologue that Billy never got around to writing..and the surrounding circumstances that have lead me to auditions without a real monologue. It will end with. "So here I am, standing before you, recounting the events of my stupidity in hopes that you will take pity on me and give me a part. Thank you." I think it will get a laugh. I realized today that I have am a jealous person. For stupid reasons..but I am jealous. I am not going to get into it..but I do hate being jeslous. I feel really...dirty, when I am haveing a jealous thought. Anyway..I'll blog later.

Switching to Auxilary Christmas Joy Reserves

So I have this theory about the Macy's Parade and why the Universal version is starting to not be so good. Each person is alotted a certain amount of Christmas Joy per year. Once you have used up your amount of joy..it's gone until the following year. It builds up in tiny increments and then your tank is full again just in time for December. Now most people don't use it ALL up..they just get it down till the light comes on and then they run off of fumes for a few months..around march or so they start thinking about presents they can get people and such. Unfortunately this is not the case for the Macy's Parade performer. We put all of our joy into 30 parades in the month of decemeber...we barely have enough left over to enjoy the holiday. Now even people with very little joy can get periodic refills from TV specials such as Rudoplh, Charlie Brown, and such. The Macy's Holiday performer however has to continue long after they are gone...draining their reserves down to nothing. Thus the parade comes up lacking. It's January 6th and we are still dressing up like firemen, bumble bees, pineapples, WHATEVER. Now..we will all recover and come back and do this next year with a full tank of joy and Christmas Cheer...and be very excited about the whole thing. Those last couple of days are just...difficult. So now I am going to my grandmothers so I can take a shower so that I don't stink today during parade. Tonight I get to go to Mythos with Jared, Sandi, Carrie, and maybe some other people. I guess I could start the Friend Encyclopedia...but I am kinda lazy..which sound stupid from a guy who just spent like 15 minutes writing about a tank of Christmas joy. Here Goes...
Jared- Met Jared a couple of years back at Universal. I think our first event together was Macy's Last year...but I can't be sure. He's a great guy..lots of fun to hang out with. Sometimes takes jokes past the acceptable line in conversation with most people..but that's ok..cause I sometimes go there too.
Sandi- I met her 3 years ago at the Macy's Holiday parade. She's a pretty, pretty princess..which I am sure you all noticed in a previous post. Every year we hang out at Macy's and then don't talk very much through the year..then try to decide whose fault it is that we lost touch. It's good times.
Carrie N.-This is another Carrie..not the one that I sorta dated or whatever a while back. I met her at Macy's parade also. She is very pretty..near model level...but also very smart. She has a problem with returning phone calls and that is why we lose touch between events..cause I tend to give up when someone doesn't call me back for 2 months or so.

I will make the rest of the friend entries later...when I have time. Maybe tonight after dinner. I'll Blog Later.

It's Easier To Kick Them When They Are Down At Foot Level

So I went to Disney face auditions..nothing came of it. Except a lot of people told me that I look like Prince Phillip...someone should have told Casting. So I went to parade..I was a fireman..it wasn't a bad day..but it wasn't really a great day either. Then I went to rehearsal. The show is actually coming together quite nicely...for the most part. Little Bird is still a disaster...but it will work out..one way or another. Then I got home..and there is no propane...so no hot shower, no cooking, no anything that requires hot water. Anyway...i am going to go to sleep..and go to parade stinky tomorrow...unless I break down and go to my grandma's for a shower. I'll blog later.

Get Outr!

I wish I could get rid of the depressed fat kid that lives in the back of my mind. I am constatly finding myself thinking I am not attractive enough, or not cheery enough, or not good enough. It's sad that I am so negative that people actually think I am incapable of being a positive person. Maybe that's why I stopped trying. I don't know. Just a few thoughts that I came across over the course of the night. I am nervous about the Disney auditions tomorrow...which is stupid..cause it has nothing to do with my talent...or anything really. I either fit the part..or I don't. But...still nervous. Rehearsal was fairly productive tonight. We ran all the music and worked though the fight scene. 9 rehearsals left. Anyway...that's me. I am a fairly skinny guy I guess...atleast that's what people have started telling me lately. I don't truly believe it..but...whatever. Anyway..I'll blog later.

Parade, Rehearse, Sleep, Parade, Rehearse, Sleep.....

Well yesterday i didn't go to parade cause I almost blew out the tire in my car and I had to buy a new one. I went and did that and hung out with Billy. Then I consolidated my credit cards so that MAYBE I can get out from under this freaking rock that I am under. I will know in a couple weeks if that is going to work out or not. Then I went to rehearsal. The sets not done it's not even near done for the audience...it's done for us...framed...but nothing else really. The show is not ready...at all. But that will come together...I hope. The musical director is never there. I was kind of an ass about the whole thing cause I told Jan we needed to have a music rehearsal...cause we haven't done that...at all. We have had rehearsals with music..but never have we had a sit down, lets run all the songs until they are great, music rehearsal. I mean these aren't train wrecks..they are hydrogen blimp wrecks...into...preschools....filled with children, puppies, AND kittens. Anyway..I am off to get my hair cut..and then to work. I'll blog later.