So today was ok. The show went off without a hitch really. Good show. Jen and Mike from Jaws came, along with Mike's girlfriend. They said they really enjoyed the show. Layne wasn't there cause she was sick, leaving Jen to play her part. Now this wouldn't be a big deal except Layne is a big intimidating girl and Jen is...well...a girl. It was hilarious. So my comedic mind came up with rather than being scared cause Jen was running at me like I normally do with Layne, to laugh instead. Then when she got to me she kicked me in the shin and pushed me over. IT WAS HILARIOUS! One of the biggest laughs in the show. More people walked out today, this time their main complaint was the heat in the theater. If Moonlight doesn't start putting some money into the upkeep of the theater and making it habiatable for audiences...we are going to lose them. Then I got home, talked to Lorri some, talked to Billy and went to Blockbuster with my brother, he's been here for a few days. We rented Shanobi and Whiplash for PS2. GREAT GAMES! So I played them for the last 5 hours I think...and just got done making and eating dinner a few minutes ago. I read everyone's blog and decided to put the name thing that billy had on his journal on mine. What do you think? Accurate?

T	Tame
H	Hilarious
E	Enchanting
P	Perverse
O	Overwhelming
E	Enjoyable
T	Twisted
R	Radical
E	Edgy
M	Masculine
A	Astonishing
G	Gloomy
E	Emotional

Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator
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Of Shows, Reviewers, And Garbled Communications

Today was a pretty good day. I went to work, they got me out by 10 cause I was having some serious problems with my knee. It just gave out while I was standing there and I fell. Doctor this coming week will tell all as far as what I am going to do about it. Probably some kind of knee scope surgery thing. No big deal. I am going to work through it hopefully still at Jaws. I came home, rested, went grocery shopping, came home, made lunch and went to the show. On the way to the show I talked to my mother and she said that my grandmother had fallen and broken her arm. I really wish she would keep her walker with her and stop falling. But she will be fine. Then I got to the show and set what was left to set up up. I thought call time was 7:00...so I got there at about 6:55 and found out that it was actually at 6:30. So the show went pretty well. The energy was wierd. There were a few screw ups..but all in all everything was fine. The reviewer was there...which was...we'll go with...stressful. We all did the show...everything was fine. We had a meeting at the end because Brittany had voiced the opinion that we should drop the crew parts. I was not at all happy about this..but in the end decided that I would just keep my mouth shut and take whatever was given...because I would rather just not go on stage that one time than listen to other people complain because they have to and don't want to. I understand if you don't want to..but if that's the case..just say that...don't say it's because you are to busy to do it. ANYWAY...I am no longer appearring as a ghetto rap god in the show..that has been dropped. So never again will anyone see Ghetto Eric. My mother and Aunt came and saw the show and enjoyed it very much..well the parts that I was in and the parts that Billy and Andrew were in. They didn't care for Nathan to much from what they told me. Then Billy and I went outside and talked a little and decided not to go to Denny's..but then when I got on the road..I changed my mind. So I tried to call his cell..which he had left off. So I decided that the best course of action to get his attention was to drive like a complete ass. It worked. He promptly followed me to Denny's and we talked out a few things. Everything appears to be looking up. I will continue to do the show, void of Ghetto Eric, and I will like it, because it is theater, and that's what I love. Billy thanked me for all that I do in regards to the show tonight...that meant a lot...even though I don't do a lot for the show as far as I am concerned. I am pretty sure I am one of the worst stage managers there is. I have never done it by myself before..I have always had someone else there to help out...and this time I just gave the title away a few weeks ago..because I didn't feel I was filling the title out enough. So then I get home and everything is fine. I talk to Layne (The third of the Crew members from the show) about the whole dropping the rap thing and Britt calls me and tells me that she wants to talk this out cause I was obviously pissed when I left the theater and she wanted to talk to me before she heard about it from everyone else. SO I TALK TO MY FRIENDS DEAL WITH IT! I tend to just keep my mouth shut when I think it won't help anything. If my opinion won't sway a decision and will end in people getting mad..I just keep my mouth shut. I offer my opinion to my friends...but that's pretty much it. I guess I should remedy that. Anyway..I told Britt that I wasn't that pissed off..I was majorly dissapointed because I had told people to come to the show to see me all decked out Ghetto..but that was it. So maybe "majorly dissapointed" comes out as "pissed off" with me sometimes. Sorry. So tomorrow the show will go on. And good times will be had by all.

Good Show, Good Show, And A New Blog Concept

It has been brought to my attention that I do not look on the bright side of things enough...so what I will try to do from now on is only leave in the bad things that I feel need to be said and leave all the others out...and for every bad thing that makes it into my blog..I will balance it with atleast one good thing, possibly two to tip the balance. Tonights show went very well. Most of the audience liked it. Minus the 4 people that walked out during intermission and the poor girl that got called on stage to be Ophelia...she's shy. All in all GREAT SHOW. Tonight was Tim's mom's birthday so we has champagne and cake and wished her a happy birthday. Then we all went to Denny's to hang. Lorri came with us. Which was really nice...she brightens every day. It was a good night even with my bum knees. I'll blog later.

Opening Night

Well opening night went pretty well. There were a few little technical problems..but everything will work out in the end. The audience seemed accepting of it..they seemed to really enjoy it. My puppet show curtain fell apart..but I saw that coming...it was broken before it even went on stage. After the show Nathan left before notes. Something that in a 3 man show, on FINAL DRESS SHOULD NOT be allowed but whatever...it's Nathan I guess. Just gotta used to special treatment for him at Moonlight. No big. Today at work I was loading guests all day. But that's good...my knee was bothering me and they were just looking out for me. I will post about the other events of the day later tonight.

I Hate Feeling Like This

I am so tired of working at Moonlight. Tonight was terrible. I came in and built the puppet show theater and got everything ready for the night. Nathan didn't come in early like he was supposed to and set up the projector so he was busy with that and we didn't get to rehearse with him in the box before the run through tonight...so we didn't even get to use it. I am the worst Stage Manager ever. No one listens to me and everything I try to do turns out wrong. I am so glad I dropped Midsummer..because I couldn't take another show. Jan came in and gave the note, "I have seen the show with just the three and I like it better that way."...translation..I would like the show better if the crew wasn't in it. I shouldn't take that personally...but I do. She gave me that sickingly sweet attitude the one time she talked to me tonight..she is pissed cause I dropped the show. WHATEVER. Then I snapped at Laura because she was giving Jen and me a hard time because Nathan didn't use the puppet show thing tonight. I came close to cussing her out..which would have been bad..but it would have felt good. No one listens to me. Layne does...and she will do what I ask her to. Brittany is bitter because she isn't stage manager I think...I don't know. She just doesn't listen to me. I know I am not the best....I KNOW THAT. I SUCK AS A STAGE MANAGER! It's my first time ever. DEAL WITH IT! We got our notes and I dashed before I started yelling, or punching, or crying..or I don't even know what. That's that. I'll blog later.

Fun Times

Today was a long, fun day. I went to Jaws at 9:15 and started working. My knee was giving me trouble so I worked Preboard all day. It was fun. Lorri came to ride my boat. Everyone at work thought she was cute...even though they all gave me trouble...it was obvious that for the most part..they approved. I got off at 5 and Billy and I went to rehearsal. Everything is coming together nicely with the show. Then we went to Lu Lu's show at the Fringe. How in the hell I managed to not go to the fringe ever in the past 21 years of my life..I will never know. But it saddens me. It was amazing. As soon as I walked in I was overtaken by srtistic surges of sweetened air. The whole place buzzed electric, poetic, artistic mojo. I can't even explain it. I felt at home. Lu Lu's show was...amazing. The writing was beautiful, the set, music, everything just amazingly done. Then on to the real amazement of the night. Jay and Lu Lu. They were both...brilliant. How I am blessed with a friend like Lu Lu I don't know. She is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Everything she puts her hands in is immedietly turned to gold. Jay did an amazing job as well. Me, Billy, and Cindi were crying in the front row. Beautiful. Then we all went to Denny's and sat arouund and ate and laughed. It was a great time. I really miss that. I said my happy was the fringe...but I would like to ammend that. It was the fringe with some of my most favorite people in the whole world.

Yay For Friends And Happy Times

Today was one of those days that starts out rough but ends up really good...even with the rough edges here and there. I got up at 10:30 and went to the theater because I was trying to get away from Nathan. He was in the apartment and we weren't talking...so I left and went and did what I had to do. I called Billy, Jen, and Brittany and tried to get someone to come to the theater with me...just so I wasn't there by myself. No one seemed to realize this call for help was a call for help. But it's all good. I went and bought all the supplies I needed for the things I needed to build (I would just like to say it was awesome to get 5 ten foot long pieces of PVC in my mid sized car. FUN TIMES!). Went back to the theater and got to work. For about 5 minutes...then I gave up and called Jen and Billy and crashed there alone time. Sorry guys. We played some video games, and then learned a valuable lesson about Lawn Mower blades. The lesson is...DON'T TOUCH THEM! EVEN IF YOU ARE TRYING TO GET THEM OFF AND YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING! Jen has a sizable gash in her hand and I have a pretty big gash right in the middle of my middle finger's FINGERNAIL! Pain. Then we went to Spirro's and ate lunch. Where a girl I went to high school with hit on me. She is a drug addict...and I am kinda involved..so....NOPE. Then we went to theater and built some stuff and rehearsed. Nathan and I didn't speak and Cathy Mac gave me dirty looks. Then me and my dad and Jen went and fixed the lawnmower blade. Then back to the theater, notes, and to SHREK 2 with Billy. GREAT MOVIE! GREAT GREAT MOVIE! Then I went to Billy's house and hung out with him and Lorri and their dad for a while. Then I came home. Blog post ended...will post soon. Giddiness Meter standing at 85%

My Happy Post For The Night

Ok. This is to make it so Nathan doesn't make my whole evening of posts sound mad, angry, and just all around not happy. Tonight one of the reasons I was happy is because I fit into a shirt that I bought during Forum. It is a medium...and I fit into it now. I haven't been able to wear a medium T-shirt since I was like 10 or 11. It is nice. Then just for kicks...last night..I tried on my Spiderman Costume...just to see how close to my goal of being able to fit in the costume without looking bad I am. I DON'T LOOK AWFUL! I still need to work on my chest, and my obliques, and my abs in general...but that's pretty much it. Working on my arms will make it look even better..but I would look good in it if I get my obliques and chest a little shaped. Happy, Happy, Happy. Giddiness Meter in repairs.

Reading Outside Under A Tree Can Solve A Few Problems

Well I went outside with Blot and sat under a tree and read for a few minutes. It helped. I came in and decided that I don't want Amber to live here. If I can't have a simple opinion and make a simple suggestion in MY apartment then I don't want her here. So I talked to Matt, he agreed that I was right on that count. I called Nathan and said I that I had thought about it and decided it's not a good idea for Amber to live here. That I had made a simple suggestion and Amber had chewed me out for it for the second time and I was tired of it. He immedietly said that they had discussed it and thought it wasn't a good idea and immedietly got just as defensive about it as Amber had previously. So I am done. Nathan and I are going to call this friendship dead I am pretty sure. And I wouldn't be at all suprised if Nathan and Amber show up again to chew me out..and that's fine. That's why doors have locks. So I am expecting lots of fun tomorrow at rehearsal..being that I am stuck with being Nathan's dresser...That's cool. I guess we will see if Nathan can actually act like he's not pissed at me on stage...My guess is no. NYU can only do so much. Blog soon.

Another Chapter In The Book Of How Eric's Life Got More Complicated

Today was a decent day. I get up and Nathan is here. He asks me in a more telling fashion that Amber is going to move in with us for 2 months. I say that I guess it is fine...not that I REALLY had a choice in the whole thing. I got up and went out to lunch with my parents, brother, and grandmother. We went to Denny's and had the longest lunch ever prepared by anyone ever in the history of lunches ever. It took us 2 hours to get our food and eat. Then I went to rehearsal which went pretty well. Lorri showed up..which made me happy. Having her around made rehearsal a lot less painful. We got to see her awesome new ride. Very nice. Then we went to Dairy Queen. We meaning Jen, Billy, Lorri, and I. We had various dessert like things and talked, mostly about the show. Then I came home and told Nathan that I think that Amber should pay a 4th of the rent and bills if she is going to be living here for 2 months. That only seems fair. She is sharing everything. She may not have her own room, but she is using the living room, the kitchen, the laundry room, and all that communal stuff. It only seemed fair to me. We have to be respectful of one more persons space and we should be compensated as much. I didn't say it like that...but that's the general thought. There I sat playing Mega Man X7 minding my own business when Amber and Nathan come in the door and Amber lets me have it. That me expecting her to pay rent is ridiculous basically. That she wants her own bedroom. She isn't getting a 4th of the space so she shouldn't have to pay a 4th of the rent. She got all teary eyed....gave us her whole woeful story of debt and sucky life. After much srgument and me rolling my eyes and finally just giving up..She agreed to pay 200 dollars...eventually. WHATEVER. I don't care anymore. These are people I will most likely not even socialize with after they move out and set down the road of ruining their life. WHATEVER. I want to see Lorri...I just want to sit and spend time with her and not be here. Giddiness Meter broke. Can't afford a new one. So let us just say that I am happy when Lorri is around...and not so much at the moment in her absence.

Tired, So Very Tired

Well today was a very long day. I worked from 8:45 to 6:02. It was a very long day....a very very long day. If you sit at a desk a 9 hour day is annoying...stressful...tiring. If you get chased by a giant shark, deal with guests who don't understand that a ride that takes place in a boat on water will probably result in GETTING WET, yelling, screaming, cringing, getting knocked back by imaginary grenade launcher kicks, falling, and sudden searchlight moves for 9 hours is stressful, exhausting, annoying, and I'm pretty sure..somewhere close to torture in most states. But I love it. It's great. A true source of happiness in my life right now. Then I called Lorri...the high point of my day right there. The conversation was short...but meaningful. Then I went to rehearsal....where I DID NOTHING! They decided to do ACT 2 after I got there..not only Act 2..but just the Hamlet scene in Act 2. You know what I do during that...I hold up the curtain..one time...for 2 seconds...so that a box can come through. A WASTE OF GAS MONEY AND TIME...if not for Jen and Billy and Andrew and Brittany and Layne. I love hanging out with them...mostly the first 3. After rehearsal Amber and Nathan walked up to where I was talking with Layne and Brittany..and didn't acknowldege my presence....which is fine. I don't care anymore. I don't want anything to do with them after my lease is up. That could just be the exhaustion talking..but right now..that's how I feel. Me and Billy hopped in the car and came home. Now I sleep. Work at 7 a.m. will come ALL TO SOON I'm sure. Giddiness readings are flawed at the moment due to exhaustion. Will report soon.

Of Exploding Cherubs And Ogres

Tonight was a great night. I went to see Shrek 2 with Lorri. Great movie, great great movie. It was a really good night. I got to her house at 6:15 and spent about 45 minutes playing video games with Billy and then at 7 we promptly turned off the game and Billy went to rehearsal and Lorri and I went to City Walk. My head is still spinning from the night. Nothing fantastic happened...we just watched the movie and the walked around citywalk for a while...but that in itself was spectacular for me. We then started walking to the car and talked about life in general. She got into some hardcore relationship conversation pieces, but it was good conversation. Then we got in the car and religion came up...a touchy subject for me which has stopped many a dating relationship in it's tracks. We talked and she was very accepting...which is good. Then I realized that I had switched onto auto-pilot and we found ourselves driving in the oposite direction of her house...and right out in front of my apartment complex. I drove by and took her home. We went by the new apartment cause...I don't think either of us were really ready for the night to end. I dropped her off with a hug and another date is over leaving me happy as all git out...and that is very happy. I came home my head spinning with exploding cherubs and started talking to her on IMs. We talked everything out and we are both on the same page regarding this whole thing..which is good to know...and that page is 2...and in a few months..we might move onto 3..but we are taking this really slow. Which is good...cause there is a lot at stake here. I will blog again soon. Giddiness level: 110%

Of Graduation, Uncomfortable Questions, And Names Impossible To Pronounce

Tonight I went to Lorri's graduation. It was the best graduation ceremony I have ever been to. There were 750 students and it only lasted until like 10. Very nice. Now to the less fun part of the evening...before graduation when Lori's dad came up to me and said, "So I hear you are dating my daughter without asking me." SILENCE...LOTS OF SILENCE. It was not fun..but I think he was joking because nothing else was said. Oh well. It was a good time. Tomorrow is the movie with Lorri. Can't wait. It will be fun. Lots of fun. I would like to say that it is kinda wierd censoring my blog. I have been leaving out certain things because Billy is reading and I don't want to say things that might make him unccomfortable..and because Lorri is reading and I have to leave some things to mystery. I'm going to bed now. Another early morning tomorrow...WORK AT 7:15...that means I have to be in in 7 hours. That means I have time for almost 5 hours sleep. I'll blog later. Most likely about the movie date. Giddiness Level: 90%

Of Naps, Sleep, and Leaving Work Early

Well today I yet again left work early. In fact the entire opening crew left work early, because today was the first day that we had to come in at 7 to clean boats in the middle of the week...and no one was ready for it. Everyone was exhausted. Then we opened the ride at about 8:45...a whole hour and 15 minutes earlier than posted on the map. We sat all of 2 guests in the first half hour, then a total of 73 in the first hour. It was ridiculous. ANYWAY I came home early. I crawled into bed and got a nap. Good nap...naps are great...I love naps. Sleep in general is great...I love sleep, Yes my friend...I missed you. Now I am sitting here all ready for Lorri's graduation. I wonder how her test went. Sent roses over there last night with a note that said, "Good Luck on your test. Eric" I hope she liked them. Well I am off to the McCoy house for graduation. Blog later.

Continued Goodness

So today was a good day all in all. I went to work ridiculously tired. Got sent home by noon. Went over to harrass Billy who was stationed at Men In Black all day...last time he joneses for a Rescue shift. His face is burnt to a Crisp...and not the good british kind. I dropped Midsummer Nights Dream today. I wrote Jan an email explaining why...and I will post it now.

"Hey Jan,

Unfortunately I am going to have to drop Midsummer Nights Dream. All I do lately is go to work, come home for 30 seconds, go to the theater, come home, sleep 4 hours, go to work, come home for 30 seconds, go to the theater, come home, sleep 4 hours. I can't keep living like this. Work has me working at a minimum 40 hours a week and I have been at the theater pretty much every night for a couple months. Today I almost fell asleep on one of the boats while I was waiting to move forward into load. They sent me home early, yet again, I have been REALLY tired for the last couple weeks. So, I am sorry to do this to you, please don't hold it against me...but I am only doing what I think is best for me and the theater. I am no good to anyone if I fall asleep at work or on stage. I will leave my script at the theater tonight in the desk out front.

Sorry,
Eric"

This is what I got back.

"I am sorry you have to drop out but I have been in the same position. Thanks for letting me know early enough. Jan"

So things went pretty well all in all. Then I talked to Lorri on the phone for a few minutes. She read my journal..which is good. Cause now she knows that beyond a doubt I had a good time...now I just gotta get my hands on her online diary address. Even after putting my ultra super sneaky spy powers to work...still no good on the address...but I will get it. Right after she tells me. FYI: Giddiness levels at...85 percent.

GREAT DAY

It has been a GREAT couple of days. On Saturday I saw Lu Lu's show. Great show. Everyone had the show down pretty good, characters were really good. I thought that Charlie Brown himself was lacking in the hope category...he had the depression and the comedic timing and everything...but I thought that he lacked hope to some extent. A couple of the characters had been sick so their singing voices were not doing so hot..but all in all GREAT SHOW. Lu Lu shined light a star that had been coated in a shiney paint....such as...I don't know...a paint that shined. HILARIOUS! Then today I had a REALLY GREAT DAY! I went out with Billy and Eddie H. and looked at a couple of apartments. We FOUND ONE! It's a 4 bedroom 2 bath. If we can find a 4th roommate it will be less than 250 a person a month. THAT IS AWESOME...almost 150 dollars less a month for me. GREAT TIMES! Then to the true greatness of the day. I went and picked up Lorri, after a brief stop at flower central to get some flowers. I came to the door and did the whole flowers, pick up the girl, good times thing. We went to Hard Rock and just had a REALLY GOOD TIME IN GENERAL. I have been trying to contain my giddiness all night..but it has to come out eventually...such is life. We road the Revenge of the Mummy, Jaws, MIB, Back To The Future, and finally E.T. Ok...so that last one wouldn't be a big deal...if not for Lori's irrational fear of E.T. It stems from something that happened when she was little that she aparently blocked out for one reason or another..bottom line is...she is REALLY afraid of E.T. Won't even park in the E.T. Lot. It's crazy. But she got on the ride with me. Billy said that is a BIG thing. So...ok...big thing. Then I took her home, walked her to the back door because the front door was locked and she didnt' have her key, hugged her and went on my way. Then I went to rehearsal, did that whole thing, and then went to Denny's with Billy. Where I talked about the date and Billy winced through most of it..and then asked me to NEVER do commentaries again. Which I understand...but is still gonna be hard all the same. So I had a really great time. I am going to her graduation on Wednesday with the family and then she and I are going to the movies to see Shrek 2 on Thursday. I am really excited. Life is looking up a lot at the moment. So this is the life. Well almost the life...I wish I could talk to my best friend about it a little, but I understand the wierdness and am going to try my best to wait for him to adjust. Tomorrow it's work and rehearsal. I'll blog soon with a giddiness update.

A Long Day...AND....AWW, That's Cute!

Today was a long day. I worked a 10 hour shift at Jaws...which even though I love that place, is a long day. Lots of Giant Killer White Sharks were electricuted today, and Bridewell's isn't looking to good either after all of those explosions. ANYWAY...enough Jaws humor. The other 3/4's of my blog is dedicated to how many times today I have heard, "You are going on a date with Billy's sister? Aww, that's cute!" 37...yes...37. There was a lot of that at work because Billy and I happen to break together a couple of times and I jokingly said something about this weekends plans and someone was sitting nearby and was like, "You're Dating Billy's Sister?" and then the rest of the day's occurances of that statement were mostly tied in with that one occurance because news spreads like wildfire on a gasoline station filled with tanks of Napalm. Then I get to rehearsal where Brittany had a talk with me about the whole situation. It was funny. But I would like to say that generally I am happy right now. Kinda nervous about Monday, just because it's a date, but I am sure everything will go just fine. I have to call Lori tomorrow and check plans with her...see exactly what she wants to do. I was thinking dinner at City Walk followed by Shrek 2 Universal Employee Preview at Midnight with Billy and Jen, but we gots to check with the mom's and the pop's to see how that works with cerfew...if there is one, and Lori's preference for her brother and his girlfriends being there for the second half of our date. So I am off to bed, ever awaiting the call of Wambold, from work, to take my shift for tomorrow so I can hang with my brother and his friends at Universal for his birthday. My little brother is 16...and in August...he hits the road. Everyone should find an alternative form of transportation soon...very soon...think August.

Good Day...Pretty Good Day

I thought that a positive post was in order. Today I worked most of my shift and realized that I truly do love my job. It's a great place to work, with great people. They all truly care about everyone else there. It's just a great feeling. I went into work today and Eddie H asked me if I was looking for roommates. I wasn't REALLY looking but I was looking so I said yes. BEST THING EVER! If this works out it will be me, Billy, and Eddie staying in this apartment and I will be paying about 70 dollars less a month than I am paying right now. Good times, Great, Good times. Then I leave work and call Billy...I have been thinking about this for a couple days and decided to just go for it. I called him and small talked about the apartment and stuff then just as the conversation was wrapping up I told him to brace himself. "I am going to ask your sister out to a movie." His response, "Ok. Want me to get her?" Gotta love Billy. So I get her on the phone and we small talk for a minute or two and then fall into the semi-awkward none existant transition statement "Do you want to go to a movie sometime?" Lori's response, " Are you asking me out on a date?" I fumbled and said, "I am asking you out to a movie." The end result was I have a movie date on Monday with my best friend's little sister. So I come home and talk to Billy on the phone for a few. Then I talk to Nathan about how I am not resigning the lease with him most likely. He was suprised, not really upset but suprised. I told him that living together was putting a serious hurting on our friendship and he said, "I didn't notice anything wrong with our friendship." I just stood there and shrugged that off. So the end result of that is..I am going to look at the new apartment on Monday. It was a good day. Now I just have to decide what movie to take Lori to...now that Billy has put a lot of pressure on us by telling her that the movie we pick will decide how the rest of the relationship plays out. Gotta love Billy...and we all do. Well except for Jen...I think she secretly wants him dead...or maybe just the first two words...not really sure. I'll post soon.

Bad Day....Really Bad Day

Today was one of the worst days I have had in a while. What with everything that happened last night it was already a pretty bad day. I went over to Billy's. We played video games...everything was looking up. Then I talked to my Aunt and found out that my cousin misscarried her baby. She was a month pregnant...and she and her boyfriend were REALLY excited about it. It would have been her second. She just finished with a Cancer scare and the doctor told her that if she wanted to have anymore kids she needed to do it now..because she prolly wouldn't be able to later on. She is really upset and I am sure her boyfriend is too. Then Sue called from downstairs and asked Billy and I if we wanted to go get something to eat. We said sure and went to Marco Anthony's, a great Italian restaurant in Windemere, for dinner. We get inside and Lori does something just short of football tackling Billy to sit next to me. Sue tells me that I am the nicest guy at Moonlight. That she loved having me in the show with her..it was like having Billy there with backstage, that I was already like a son to her kinda thing. Lori brought up that we aren't that far off age wise, I'm 22 and she is 18. Annie just sat there quietly giving me punctuation smiles on every hint and prod. We ate, we talked, it was fun. Then Sue paid for dinner after I argued with her a little. I gave hugs and Billy and I headed to rehearsal. Rehearsal went well. I forgot all about the day that I had gone through. Then I got in the car and I had a message on my phone. It was my mom, she was calling to tell me about the misscarriage. Everything came back all of a sudden but it just kinda sat on the surface. Then I got here and started blogging. And then it all sank in. Damn me and my 24 hour emotional delay.

The Longest Night of My Life.....Thus Far

At 2 a.m. my cell phone rang just as I was laying down to go to sleep. It was a friend of mine from College, Julie, telling me that another friend of mine had attempted suicide yesterday. They had been trying to track down my phone number and had just gotten it. The friend is in New York right now, in a hospital. Julie and I talked until just now, 5:16. I am calling into work because I can't handle it today. This is the second time this guy has attempted suicide...the first since I have known him. Last time he took a bunch of pills, this time he was more serious I guess. He just didn't think his roommate would be home so fast. He slit his wrists in the bathtub and they found an empty bottle of pills nearby. He must have JUST done it when his roommate got there. He is going to be ok they think, but they are putting him in a mental ward for a while so he can't hurt himself. He and I were friends, not really close, but still friends. Julie was really upset, they had dated for a while during College. He aparently left a note saying that he loved everyone but he thought that we would all be better off if he wasn't around. So he was going to help us by getting out of the picture. I just want each and every person who reads this to know that that is never the answer. I am going to try to go to sleep now..but I am not expecting sleep to come easy this morning. I'm fine emotionally...just not sure exactly how I feel right now about all this. Not really sinking in..just staying on the surface. The guy actually mentioned me specifically in the note....he said he wished he was more like me....I used to wish I was more like him. Popular, athletic, great singer and actor, a great girlfriend. How wrong was I?

A Day of Vocal Rest

So today I rested pretty much all day. I didn't say very much in hope that it might bring my voice back and stop the pain in my throat. I drank lots of hot tea with Honey and Lemon. The only things I did say were by accident. Such as when I went into Nathan's room to drop of some laundry that he left in the dryer, thinking he was not home I just went on in, Yeah...mistake on my part. He was in there..Atleast he was alone. I apologized and then realized that I had spoken and smacked myself in the head. I said something to Figaro because he got outside...yet again...smacked myself in the face. Blot was being annoying...said something to him...grr..My face is really starting to hurt. I did some laundry and just relaxed. I built set last night with Nathan, Jen, Layne, and Britt. It was fun. Layne and I built a Ghetto Box for the show...it has many uses but is very ghetto. I am very proud of it none the less. It has a cool lid that comes on and off with very little effort and can support my weight...even when I jump up and down on it. It really was one of the best times I have had in that theater in a long time. Even though Britt was being tired bitchy...but it's cool..she was tired. Sue, Billy's mom, wins the "Making Eric squirm awkwardly like a scared little kid who just wet his pants" award for the day. She comes up while I am sitting backstage off to myself and sits next to me. "So why aren't you dating anyone Eric?" I just shrugged and said, "Just haven't found anyone I want to date who wants to date me. I was talking to this one girl on the internet that I met in college but that didn't pan out. So I am just kinda waiting." Then she said, "Oh...You know my daughter is single." RECORD SCRATCH! My best friend's mom just tried to set me up with my best friend's little sister. Isn't that the plot of a teen movie or two? If not it should be. I squirmed for a minute or two and then Billy walked up and I said, "Billy your Mom's trying to sell your sister to me." and stood up and got next to him. Then Billy says after some discomfort and I think a few other sentences that got the mental blend, "Well if anyone was going to date my sister...." I laughed and walked away. Don't get me wrong. Lori seems to be a great girl, I don't know her that well, but for the most part, great girl. But she is my best friend's little sister. ALL KINDS OF COMPLICATIONS THERE! One, if we started dating and things went well...I couldn't talk to my best friend about my girlfriend. Two, If we started dating and things didn't go well...I might lose my best friend. Three, She is still in High School. ENORMO COMPLICATION! So basically...if I decide to persue this...either it has to work out perfectly resulting in years from now my best friend being my brother-in law..or...I don't even know. I think I am just going to let this go...I am not going to look for anything to happen. If something does..so be it. If not...so be it. I just hope that none of this has an impact on my friendship with Billy, or Sue, or Annie.

And A Friendship Falls

Ok..just a warning. This is one of those "blogging out all my agressions" blogs. OK..so yesterday I had that talk with Nathan about how I thought it was a bad idea for him and Amber to get engaged so quickly. Just that they were moving really quickly and it seemed like they were moving WAY To fast. I spoke my peace and that was the end of it. Nathan told me they wouldn't get engaged until atleast January, better though not much better, and that basically he was going to do what he wanted to do no matter what I said but in general he said he was glad I said what I said. Everything was fine and I was going to never mention again my problem with the speed of their relationship. Then today I walk into the theater for Annie and Amber walks up and says, "So are you going to yell at me too?" No hi, no how ya doing..NOTHING just that. I said, "No. I told Nathan what I thought and I am done." and she got all defensive and laid into me..basically telling me to mind my own damn business. I was REALLY pissed. Nathan just sat there and watched this saying nothing. Then I walk away....I am done...Pissed but done. Trying not to say anything. Then about 5 minutes later she comes up to me backstage and starts in again. I am really pissed at this point. Nathan yet again doesn't say anything. So at this point I am REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED! Then later someone comes up to me and tells me that Amber says the whole reason I have with their relationship is that I am jealous because Nathan spends all of his time with her and none with me. Get that...JEALOUS CAUSE I HAVE TO DEAL WITH NATHAN LESS?!?!? Another thing...if fthat was the case wouldn't I have a huge problem with Jen and Billy's relationship? I mean they are both my friends, Jen longer than Billy, but Billy are I are pretty close knit friends. Wouldn't I have a huge problem with them? Nathan never spoke to me all show...except for some stupid joke that he chimed in on just before I left...at my expense. I am so pissed right now that I am looking at 2 and 1 bedroom apartments. I don't want to ever have to deal with this again. I really don't think I will be resigning the lease in August. Even if it means moving in with my parents again. I can't deal with this bullshit...I can't. I just want to throw a coconut at someone.

And We Bid Adeau To The Voice of Eric

Well yesterday I got stuck on a boat for an hour and a half, running shows every 10 minutes, then I took a 10 minute break and got stuck for another 45 running shows every 7 to 8 minutes...it hurt. Now my voice is back to it's not so good state that it was in a few weeks ago. I will get used to it. But a week of rest followed by a shift like that...KILLED IT. Now I have to go and do this stupid show a few more times and then I AM DONE! Until the next one...damn my wanting to be involved with a theater that pisses me off very frequently. Post later.

WTF?!?!?!?

Ok...so what is going on here. Is God just having a field day with me or something? Tonight I went to Walmart and 3 totally unrelated gay men tried to pick me up. Asked for my number. Was it something about the way I was looking through the cough drops? Or how I was checking out the tomatos to see if they were ripe? I AM VERY CONFUSED. Is it the new haircut? Did I get a GAY HAIR CUT yesterday and wasn't aware of it?!?!? Did I step in a gay puddle? Or accidentally take a dip in the gay side of the pool today and forget to wash the gay off before I went to the store? Why can't I attract a single woman but have no problem rounding up 3 gay men in one night. WHAT THE F***?!?!? There is something seriously wrong with this picture. And at the risk of sounding homosexual...these weren't guys that may have just been really desperate. These were attractive guys, thin, muscular, jocky, preppy types...kind of guys that gay guys and women alike should be all over...and they were hitting on me. I mean...I take it as a compliment...just frustrated that I can't attract a woman.

Keeping My Mouth Shut....On Most Subjects

So...I haven't posted yet cause a lot of things have happened in the last few days that I didn't want to type on here because my best friends are involved and I didn't want to divulge information that I am not supposed to be just blabbing all over the internet. So I avoided blogging alltogether because sometimes I get on here and things just start to flow and I look down and I have told my life story. Then something else happened yesterday, involving my roommate and his girlfriend...that's all I am going to say. If you know what I am talking about..you are one of either an honored few or a cursed few. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS STUFF! I am jut going to talk about it...because they don't read my blog anyway...and if they did..they would have a lot more to find out about than what I am going to say cause I complain about them all the time. My roommate, after a month and a half went and looked at engagment rings yesterday because the girls aunt hugged him and said, "Welcome to the family." THAT IS CRAZY! My aunt once said to my date, "You two would make really beautiful babies."...I didn't pull her into the nearest bedroom and impregnate her. If the girl doesn't want to move in with you...why the hell would she marry you? If he shows her a ring there will be a castration. So last night I made a line graph on my computer of the normal progression of relationships vs. Nathan's progression of relationships. The normal line is pretty even flow up in a steady kind of slope. Nathan's...pretty much straight up. I am just worried that he is trying to latch on to something to make up for his first failed marriage. Like getting married again asap will make up for the last marriage. I just know that one divorce crippled him emotionally, a second one will kill him. He has only been divorced for like a year and a half, he's only been dating this girl for a month and a half, she just got out of a serious relationship. WHATEVER. I am going to have a talk to him...another talk where he will tell me that he has taken actions to slow down...and it is slowing down and this time I AM PREPARED! GRAPHS ARE POWER! He will say, " I have taken actions to slow this down. I've got everything under control." and I will say, "Well if you take a look at figure 1.a. you will see that this is not the case." NOW ON A TOTALLY UNRELATED NOTE! My Papa Dee is in town. That's grandfather in Eric talk. I went to the condo yesterday, which is where he stays, It's out by disney, 2 big pools, all kinds of fun. Last night I was just sitting around with him and my grandmother from the other side of the family, my aunt Ruth, my mom, dad, and brother. I was talking about how I was planning on going to California this summer. I didn't know how I was going to pay for it but I really want to go. MY grandfather then started talking about how my aunt wants to go to Disney. Then he says he is giving me a hundred dollars to help go to California. I was like, "No, you don't have to do that Papa Dee. I will come up with the money." he said, "I know I don't have to do it. What have I given you in your life." I said, "Lots of ham sandwiches, and graduation money and lots of stuff." there was no arguing...before I left I had a hundred dollar check. So that is that. I am going back to the condo today to hang out, swim, and not talk about how I need money at all ever again.