2 A.M. Fever-a-thon

Well..it is 2 a.m. and I have taken 2 doses of Nyquill but I can't get to sleep because I can't get my fever to break. I took a cold bath, I wrapped up in blankets, I sweated and sweated but I still didn't get the fever to break. It is standing at about 101 right now. So I am calling in to work right now...due to the fact that if I fell asleep right now...I would only get 5 hours before I had to get up and go to work...and with this fever I can't go to work tomorrow anyway. I gotta get better so i can do the show tomorrow night...THIS SUCKS. I am going to continue to try to get my fever down...It's not a big deal...if I wasn't missing work. But I am. and it sucks. My mom found out that I didn't go today...cause I told her in due to the feverish stupidity I have been in all day. She gave me a hard time..as usual. Said I should go to work...and I explained to her that at my job they would prefer you to call in rather than come in sick. ONE: It is much harder on them if you come in and have to leave cause you are sick as hell. TWO: We use mouth pieces at work on the mics that we have...well if you talk in one for 15 minutes and then pass it to another person...and you have a fever...GUESS WHAT!?!? You just passed sicky germs to your friend at work...and it gets passed to someone else and then someone else. Leaving the whole attraction sick....NOT GOOD. I am just really annoyed right now...This fever needs to break. I haven't gotten to work in 2, now 3 days, and I REALLY like my job. And I haven't gotten to see my friends in 2 days. Billy, Jen, and Lu Lu all called to check on me. The first 3 friends in my entire life to ever do that. The ones I had in High School would wait till I came back and be like, "Hey, Where ya been?" I would call and check on them when they were sick...but no such concern was taken on my part. Just goes to prove that the friends I had in High School weren't much of friends at all..Don't even speak to them anymore. The ones I have now are true friends....One's that will last more than 4 years. I'll post later with my condition.

Why Won't This Cursed Illness Leave Me?!?!

So I woke up with a temperature of 102.7 this morning...after sleeping the night away on Nyquil and sweating enough that you would think the fever would have broken. So I had to call in today as well. I am going to my parent's house this afternoon anyway...no matter how sick I am...and to rehearsal. My mom will NOT know about me calling in today. I can't take another lecture about how I need to be more respinsible and crap. I have taken another dose of Nyquil and I am going back to bed. If anyone wants to talk to me...you can try calling. If I am not in a comatose state I will answer the phone. If I don't answer....just leave a message and I will call you back when I wake up.

Another Rehearsal Missed

Well at around 4 p.m. I woke up and I was running a temperature just north of 100 degrees...so I opted to avoid going to rehearsal so that I can go to work tomorrow. I have slept most of the day and I am feeling better than I did earlier. Still running a fever. That's pretty much it. I hate being sick, but I guess it is part of life. I'll be fine though. I gotta figure out how to get my immune system built up better than this. It may just be stress, or standing in the rain all day yesterday, or whatever..I don't know. Either way I'll go back to work tomorrow, back to rehearsal tomorrow night, and to my parent's tomorrow afternoon between the two. My Mom gave me a hard time this morning about being sick. "Eric you need to take more vitamins and get yourself built up. You can't keep missing work. You have to grow up and be responsible." Why is it that people try to pick fights when you're sick? Or is it that you are hyper sensitive when you are sick and so helpful suggestions seem like fights? I don't know. But I got in a fight with my mom about it. I was like "I know Mom. This is the same conversation we have had everytime I have gotten sick since I was 15. I take more vitamins, I still get sick. I take more vitamins, I still get sick. I take more vitamins, I still get sick." Yeah..that conversation didn't end well...but none of the ones like that that we have had since I was 15 have turned out well. I think I am pretty damn responsible for a guy my age. And this is probably feverish ranting that you are reading now. I will just go watch Smallville and Angel. Then I will take some Nyquill and pass out for the night. Hopefully helping me wake up feeling much better.

Cruel Illness Leave My Lungs

So remember that gunky feeling I had in my throat last night. Well i drank some tea, took some vitamin C, took some medicine, and went to bed. Well when I woke up this morning I can't speak, I can't breath, and my chest hurts. I my friends have apparently developed a BAD chest cold in one day. FUN TIMES. I blame Stacey...she had the flu last week at work and I drove her home. DARN IT STACEY! So now I can't breath and I can't go into work. If you can't speak it is common knowledge that you call in. It sucks. But I will get better...lots of medication and wads of coughed up gunk will do me good. I hate being sick...but that's part of life. I am still planning on going to rehearsal tonight if anyone who is involved with Shakespeare is reading this and wondering. I'll be there...I have missed to many of them as it is.

All In All A Good Day

Today was a pretty good day. I worked in the rain which was not fun...but not entirely unfun. Mario, Adam, and Bowman came and saw my show at Jaws today. They are 3 of the 6 members of Halloween Horror Nights 13 Jurassic Park Zone 1 Cast A group. The other two are Nathan and Stacy..but we never see Stacy cause I am pretty sure she moved..either that or her crazy husband has her locked in a closet somewhere. ANYWAY. They saw my show..the first one's as of yet and they LOVED IT. They said it was really good. Now whether they said that cause they are my friends or if it was really that good is yet to be seen. It's wierd...they are my ONLY jock friends. Mario and Bowman that is. Adam isn't really a jock..but acts like it when he is with Mario and Bowman..but so do I to some extent. It's wierd. I walked around with them for an hour and I did feel like a jock kinda...but I also knew that as long as I was with them...I was the least attractive guy in the group. Weird feeling. Backdoored us into MIB..always fun to do. And just hung out with friends I haven't seen for a while. Then someone I knew from the theater showed up and rode my boat...Also cool. So after being there for 2 months and no one riding my boat...4 people in one day..Fun. Then we went to Carabbas Italian Grill and met Lu Lu, Erika, Cindi, and Lu Lu's friend Debbie. Lu Lu owed me a meal cause I paid for her food at Ruby Tuesday's the other day. We had a really awful waiter but really good company and good conversation. It was a great time. Then I came home and talked to Jen on the phone, walked my dog, drank some tea cause the rain seems to have left my throat kinda...gunky, and watch my dog pee on my bed. I really hate him sometimes. So now I am waiting for my sheets to dry so I can slip off into sweet, sweet sleep.

Another Day Off, Another Nothing Done

So today I spent the majority of my day trying to take care of the business of living. I got some bills paid, got another temporary tag cause mine was expired and the slackers who were supposed to fill out the paperwork for my permanent tag just did it today...a month after I got the car. OH WELL! So I drove all the way to Sanford...talking to Jen all the way. The only person who stands behind Jan and her decision to do what she did...casting wise. And I understand that's her perogative...I don't understand it..but I understand that she has the right to think that. She has some good points in her argument. Points I couldn't counter. But that is the game of life. I have accepted the part of Thesius. I will do the best I can to make it more than the guy who sits backstage for 3 hours. He will be the guy who was onstage for the best 30 minutes of the play. I am done auditioning for Jan...cause I truly feel that she has lost that special spark that I saw in her years ago. She is directing at Moonlight simply to be directing at Moonlight. The vision she had before is gone...and most of the care that went into it. It's sad...but that chapter has closed. I will continue to audition for Chris...and I plan on auditioning for Sylvia when they do Forever Plaid. I am going to broaden my horizons...move out into the great theatrical world that is Orlando and go to California with Billy this Summer. Meet his other best friends. They seem like cool people...and any friend of Billy's is a friend of mine. And hell...maybe I will like it out there and move in a year or two...try to break into...something. Still would like to look into New York. Life is full of possibilities...I just have to start looking into them and stop wasting my time taking roles that mean nothing in the long run. It is sad that my refuge from harm and arguments, danger and pains has now become almost a constant cause for them. But hopefully it is just a missinterpretation on my part and it is really the great place that I remember and I am just a bitter actor who is no longer good enough to run with the big dogs of Moonlight. I will find out when I audition elsewhere. I went to Shakespeare Rehearsals tonight. I am worried. I really don't think that Nathan truly grasps the idea of the show. Less is more. That is a key element of the show. He is trying so hard to be funny that he isn't funny. The simplicity of the script is what lends itself to the hilarity of it. If you try to be ridiculously funny...you won't be. You'll be the star of the high school production in the community theater that could have been so much more. I hope that he sees the soon. Andrew is along the same lines...but not nearly as bad as Nathan at the moment. Andrew's character is a wild character..therefore not as big a deal when he goes a little wild. It will all work out in the end I am sure. Now I am home, Billy is crashed on the couch and I am soon to go to bed myself. Work is edging ever closer and I fear it will come all to soon. Tomorrow the old Halloween Horror Nights JP Zone 1 Scrumptralescent crew is gonna come and ride my boat. I CANNOT WAIT! I really wish I could have hung out with them. It will happen soon. I miss my jock friends. My only jock friends. Life is really good at it's core. Just covered in a layer of crap at the moment. Just gotta find the water to wash all that away and I will be fine.

Fall From Esteem

Isn't it funny how when someone falls from esteem in your eyes, YOU are the one to feel the pain when they hit bottom. They feel nothing unless you let them in on your silent torment. They hit the bottom of a pit that everyone thought was bottomless and lay broken against the crumbled earthen floor and yet they feel nothing. While you wretch and twist on your own two feet as your soul tries to escape from a body still not ready to let go. Isn't it funny? What cruel joke was God working on when he decided to give actor's, the people who will everyday face rejection, an ego made from blown glass? Glass so fragile and thin that breathing to hard on it can cause it to crumble into shards in your hand. That's how I feel right now. Jan has fallen, she lays at the bottom of the pit at the edge of her pedestal.

Damn Fragile Actor Egos

Ok...so I went to call backs tonight, Against my better judgement, and sat through all of the regular shit. Reading, after reading of the same old stuff while I wait to find out exactly what I was sure was going to happen. Then just before handing out scripts Jan gaves us the same old speech, "If you didn't get a part it isn't because you aren't good, it's because you just didn't fit what we were looking for. My greatest fear is someone not excepting a role that I give them." BULLSHIT. Then she asks me to play Thesius. Ok..so Thesius opens the show...he's on for like 2 pages...then he leaves. Then he comes back for the last 15 or so pages. So that would leave me sitting backstage for 2-3 hours. Through the rest of the casting I sat and stewed...very angry..very very angry...Her son Ben got Demetrius...big suprise there...A gay guy got Flute. Which would be fine if he wasn't the only character who absolutley should not under any circumstances WANT to be a woman. I'll get back to who got what in a few minutes...Most of which I am very very happy about. So I left almost immedietly after the casting and went out to my car and tried to hold it together. Amber and Nathan walk up...Amber was upset cause she didn't get cast. I held it together through all of that. My original plan was to stay there until everyone cleared out and then let Jan have it. That didn't work out...cause I had to go and tell a few people congrats on their parts...cause I truly was happy for them. Well the first person I get to is Cindy..one I am happy for and she says she is sorry I got shafted..again..basically. Then Jessica walks up, a great little girl and gifted dancer and says "Eric please take the part."...that was all I could take...I said "I can't afford to take a part to drive 45 minutes to sit on my ass backstage for 3 hours." and then the tears started. I walked away before they got to bad and got in my car and circled the block a few times..trying to regain control. I did and I came back and parked. Kyle walks up and gets in my car tells me that I did really well with auditions, that he understands if I don't take the roll, and no matter what I do he is behind me. The first true heart to heart Kyle and I have had. One that was very unexpected...we have actually become friends...it's great and wierd all at the same time. I hold it together pretty well while he is in the car..only a few tears...and the quiet strong ones. Then Brittany comes up to the window to tell me she still loves me...and same old stuff. It's cool..I thanked her..told her I would be fine...got out of the car and hugged her. Then I got back in....Billy knocked on the window and I waved bye to him..he left, I lost it. Strong quiet tears still..but a lot of them. Then Jen walked up to the window. Saw me crying. I rolled down the window a little bit and told her I would be fine and drove away. She called me on my cell. I told her I would be fine. I just needed to cool off...so I was driving around downtown Clermont trying to regain control. She convinced me to come back and talk. I pulled in and her and Nathan were sitting there waiting. I opened the door and got about three words out before I lost it...and not in the strong quiet way. I spilled all of the stuff that has been killing me for months. How I am tired of everyone telling me how great an actor I am and me never getting cast. How I always get the last part...the part that's left. The one no one wants. This is what I want to do with my life...and things like this make me reconcider that. I know that Moonlight doesn't matter at all..but it does. If I keep accepting nothing roles I will constantly be tied up at Moonlight...leaving me in Clermont my whole life doing nothing with it. How I spent 5000 dollars on acting classes in college...and that's not a lot of money I know...as far as acting classes go..but it is a lot to me. And how I have nothing to show for it...cause I still get cast as nothing. I cried, I choked, I lost it...all of this with Jen's hand on my shoe and Nathan's near my shoulder...everyone very worried about my fragile mind. Joking at one point saying, "Just us actor's and our fragile ego's." Then Jan walked up. She came up and said to me, "You want to take this home and look over it." I said, "No. I have it at home...I've read it several times. Thanks." She said, "Well I gave you that part cause you said you didn't want a small part...that's why I didn't give you one of the mechanics. I know it's hard when you don't get the part you want. But it's hard not to give peope the part they want too. You can't always get the part you want." I said, "I know Jan. I've been doing it a while now." She said, "Well you need to tell me if you want this part of not by tomorrow...cause I am calling people." Ok...now I don't know if you noticed in the reading...but where I said..."I know Jan. I've been doing it for a while now." that was a really hard point. I almost lost it and told her exactly how mad I was right then and there and why. But I didn't...cause I have control...and no balls...or big balls..i don't know right now. ANYWAY. I held it together. Told Jen and Nathan I would be fine...and drove away...calling everyone to make sure they knew I was fine. Now on a happier note. I am glad Alex got Puck. Great kid, great job. Love him to death. If I have kids and they are anything like him..I'll die happy. I am glad Cindy got Titania and Nathan got Oberon, well cast. I am glad Jen got Hermia, and Andrew got Bottom. Good to see them give Andrew a role that has a little substance to it...and glad to see Jen getting parts that she deserves. Billy...they screwed him just as much as they screwed me. He deserved to be a lover. He read it very very well...he really did. He was cast as Quince. A good role...but not what he deserved..and if politics didn't factor in. HE WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THAT ROLE. But they do...cause we are in a nothing theater in the middle of nowhere that amounts to nothing in the big picture. And that's how I feel right now. I have lost my safe haven of acting, my home away from home. It is dead and gone and I feel it will not be returning ever again.

Fun And Merriment In The Heat Of Hell

Well tonight at the theater was interesting. They forgot to go in yesterday and turn on the air...so today at 6 p.m. when they got there it was about a hundred in there...and they expected two old air conditioners that are way to small for that building to cool it down for the show...OH SO WRONG! When we closed the doors to go home..it was still 90 inside. FUN TIMES! On the upside I have decided that if they ever cast for a Tobey Maquire look alike at Universal ever again...I will be there. EXPLAINATION! ONE: Two years ago when I started working Halloween Horror Nights I had a friend who decided I looked like Tobey Maquire...ie...SPIDERMAN...Then everyone started calling me Spidey during that year of Halloween. TWO: Then I started working at Men In Black: Alien Attack also at Universal where eventually the same nickname picked up with a few coworkers totally unrelated to the previous ones....and several guests who swore I was Tobey Maquire..working at MIB...WHY?!?!? WHO KNOWS! THREE: At Jaws a few weeks ago a young girl got off of my boat and ran to her parent's exclaiming, "SPIDERMAN WAS MY TOUR GUIDE! He said his name was Eric, but I know it was Peter Parker...I saw the movie." FOUR: Tonight as I was standing in line in the sweltering heat waiting to meet our audience a guy walked by me, came back and said, "You should go and audition at Universal." and I was like, " I already work there." "OH where?" "Jaws." "THAT'S WHERE I KNOW YOU FROM! I used to work there. But I was talking about for the Bill and Ted show..or Peter Parker. You look JUST LIKE TOBEY MAQUIRE!" So that is why I have decided that by the time Halloween Rolls around I will audition for Spiderman for Bill and Ted. The show was interesting....Amber was having anemic fainting fits...which Nathan rushed to the rescue everytime for. He is such the boyfriend.... He is apparently annoying a lot of people around the theater...there is talk...it is at a low rumble right now...but it is there. I will not attribute or stop it at this moment. I have no defense...and I have no solution. So I will let it fall on someone else's hands. And that is that. I am losing inches pretty quickly. I think maybe it has something to do with me not eating and working my butt off...but every inch I lose on my body, is an inch closer to Spiderman Fame in the Bill And Ted Show. YAY! I'll post soon.

Pain!...Lots Of Pain!

Just when I think it's safe to not worry about my knees...I find out that I AM OH SO WRONG! Today at Jaws..I was going along...minding my own business..fighting giant sharks..and all of a sudden BAM! I'm on my butt in the bottom of the boat. My right knee gave out and I fell in Scene 4 just before Bridewell's gas station was about to explode. I shot the grenade launcher from the floor of the boat...which was funny for the audience. Then I got up by supporting myself with the steering wheel..then I fell again at the attack shark...and ended up shooting him from the floor of the boat too. It was not pleasant at all. My bump came through and I went to the next position in my rotation...which happened to be unload. I really do have to say that the Leads at Jaws are some of the best in the park...great people. They got me out of rotation right away and Dan, one of the best of the best of the leads, helped me get my knee back in place (he has bad knees too...so he was a lot of help. He knew EXACTLY what to do.) They asked me if I wanted to go home, I told them I should be fine...but if it popped out again I was going to have to go home. They agreed. I went back into rotation and within 30 minutes my knee popped out again and I told them I had to go home...that was at noon. I was supposed to go home at 3 originally, then it was 12:30 when Shawn came in...well Shawn thought he was in at 3 so he was late...Dan called him and he ended up getting there at 1:30 and I came home and got my knee all iced and took 1200 mg of Motrin...good stuff. Laid in bed for a long time....then I got bored and hungry..so I cooked. Now I am watching Smallville and typing in this...I should be at rehearsal..but I need to get this knee fixed so that I can work tomorrow...and rehearse tomorrow night. Well...I am back to Icing my knee again. I will update soon.

And He's Back

Hey everyone.....or anyone who is still checking my blog. Sorry it has been so long since I updated. Just been really busy. Ok...so we are 2 weeks into Annie shows..it is truly an aweful show. There are a few redeeming qualities I have been told. Our Grace has an amazing singing voice and has the part down..she is just very soft spoken and sometimes you can't hear her. The maid in our show are really good..they got a great mention in the review. I didn't get a mention in the review..but I was told by several I was one of few redeeming qualities in the show. The kids have a few cute scenes....And the Oxydent Hour of Smiles isn't too bad. Bert Healy is good..and some of the Boylin sisters. I am not going to talk about the bad stuff in the show...cause I will dwell and I am trying to avoid that. I have been running boats at Jaws for 2 or 3 weeks now..I have lost count...but my voice is feeling it. Really feeling it. I have almost lost my voice several times now. But I am taking the best care of it I can and I think it is finally coming back. I have achieved full time status at Universal and as soon as all the paper work is done, I will be officially a full timer at Jaws. I haven't REALLY talked to Lu Lu in weeks...nearing months. Billy and Jen are happy as ever. Nathan and Amber are pretty happy. I met my soulmate today....but she wouldn't give me the time of day....maybe she was just wearing someone else's shirt. This will need a little explination. I saw a girl at Jaws today wearing a shirt that said "Pineapple" across the front of it. I said hi..she kept walking without even really paying me any attention. So I think she stole the shirt. Jen however thinks that we will meet at a later date and I will be wearing a shirt of some signifcance to her and she will feel the overwhelming need to talk to me and happiness will ensue. If she is right..she gets a bunch of cookies. I am in "Complete Works of William Shakespeare Abridged" as Stage Manager but my part seems to be growing more and more every rehearsal. if Billy has his way I will be a 4th main character. And I think Nathan and Andrew are behind him on this one. Well atleast Andrew...nathan isn't behind much lately..except Amber...AWAY FROM THAT SUBJECT.... Rehearsals are going well...still don't really like Tim that much..but you can't like everyone. I just did auditions for "A Midsummer Night's Dream" they went very well. I am sooo proud of Alex...my son from Yonkers. He is an amazing kid. He did such a great job at auditions that I stood up and yelled "THAT'S MA' BOY!" This is the cast I am hoping for. Me:Demetrius, Billy: Lysander, Jen: Hermia, Amber: Hellena, Alex: Puck, Nathan: Oberon, Cindy: Titania, Andrew: Bottom. And everyone else..i don't really care at the moment. I HAVE SPOKEN. Call backs are Sunday..and then Jan will speak...to bad we don't have the same voice. We'll see how it goes. My regular work schedule is Tuesday's through Saturdays with Sundays and Mondays off. I usually work morning shifts..getting me out by 3. Talk to you all later.

I HATE IT WHEN I SLEEP ALL DAY!

Ok...so I woke up at 3 p.m. today...after going to sleep at 3 a.m. I HATE WHEN I DO THAT! It's because I only slept like 2 hours the night before...so...Understandable....Understandable...STOP MUSIC! So I got up with all the fury of a guy who had just slept 12 hours....and proceded to get NOTHING DONE! I went to work to get my check...which had just been mailed out, so no check, then I went to the bank that I hate (SOUTHTRUST) to close my account...they closed at 4, no closing, Then I was going to get my oil changed on my new car, no money, no oil change. So nothing was done today...NOTHING. But that's fine. Tomorrow will be my 3rd and final rehearsal for Annie at Moonlight Players. That's right...I am going to be in a show after only doing 3 nights of rehearsal. That's either talent...or a deathwish for my upcoming acting career. (SHUT UP! I know...I don't have one...yet. Upcoming isn't specific. I get one before I die...it's not a lie.) That's it. I get signed off tomorrow for Jaws...at 7 a.m...WHY, DEAR GOD, WHY!?!? Would you sign off someone at 7 a.m....when acting skills are dead...cause they don't come out until noon...EVERYONE KNOWS THAT! Anyway...I have to get in 4 hours...so I'm going to bed. Blog at ya later.

Why I Should Live Alone AND Why I Shouldn't

Today I am annoyed....trying not to be...but still am. I spent most of the day playing Pokemon Colosseum...bad bad Eric. It was a fun day...I cleaned up after everyone in the kitchen. That wasn't fun. Nathan came home long enough last night to make some ice cream and eat it..then left the mess there for whoever needed to use the kitchen next. He spends all of his time with Amber...and I do mean all. Don't get me wrong..I'm glad he found someone who he likes that likes him back that is over the age of 18...it's nice. But come on man...there is such thing as going overboard. I won't even really get into that...cause most of it probably spurs from jealousy. The bottom-line is...I think I should be a hermit. I should go and live in the middle of nowhere away from everyone with my animals...and just take care of me and not worry about anyone else. That's how life is sometimes. That's how I feel right now. But I know that if that is how I lived...I would be bored..and spend days at a time wasting my liffe on things like...POKEMON COLOSSEUM. That is life...

The Day Eric Stopped Driving A Ticking Time Bomb And Bought A Car

Today my father and I went to a carlot and actually left with a new car. Well not totally new...but pretty darn new. It is a 2002 Hunday...i don't know how to spell that....Elantra. Only 10011 miles on it and I got an excellent deal. It's black, fully loaded with nice interior and keyless entry. It's really nice. So I REALLY won't have any spare money for a while...but not having to worry about my car exploding on my way to work will be worth it. Then on my way home Blot got car sick and illustrated why you should feed a dog chicken skins before you let them ride in a BRAND NEW CAR! Then I get home, clean out my car and Nathan decides to tango with demon squirrel as some macho power display for Amber...don't ask..I don't get it either. Nathan ended up with cuts on his fingers and one pissed off squirrel. Then we went to Steak N' Shake with Nathan and Amber and drank a half Vanilla, half chocolate shake with hot fudge. AWESOME! SO...I have a new car, a roommate who feels he should duel with demon squirrels, and a stomach full of happiness...It's a good time...a real good time.

Good Music, Great Friends, And Deadish Cannibal People

Today I went to work at 11...but I didn't want to go and Billy came and took my place about half-way through my shift cause had he not..I would have hurt someone. I came home, bathed the Blot, hung out with the brother, ate some food stuff, went to the bank, ate some more food stuff, had a conversation with Amber, Nathan's girlfriend/not girlfriend/date/more than friends Friend, went and saw Dawn of the Dead (GREAT MOVIE! SEE IT NOW), and found a great song. It is kinda depressing but a wonderful song. It's called "Away From The Sun" and it's by 3 Doors Down. Great song...I have listened to it about a billion times tonight alone..and still love it. I can really relate to it at the moment...financially and emotionally at times this week. I found out that I may be working to much to do Annie, gotta talk to the director people and see if they have anyone in mind to take my parts. If not then I am going to try my best to make some rehearsals but I was talking to my boss today and she said that I will be going full time on April 9th...the day Annie opens...and that I will be getting 20 hours plus of overtime a week. That's a lotta dough..and even more candy bars. Eric's finances are looking up...but I won't count my chickens before they hatch..just keep tabs on the eggs. I'll post soon.

And The Work Goes On

NO MORE GREETER!!!! I have been stuck outside at greeter for days...it pains me. It's not a hard job at all...It is just annoying because of the people. If one more person walks by the giant shark hanging by it's tail, survey's the attraction sign that says the name of my attraction, looks at their map, and then asks me with an absent-minded face, "Is this Jaws?" I swear I will lose it. I mean it's really not that difficult. Then there are just the really annoying impatient people who just can't wait 2 seconds while I help someone else with their problem that was equally as important as everyone elses...or then there are the people who readjust the queue cause they decide that they can do it better than the people who were trained to do it. Or the ones who use the EMERGENCY EXITS as extentions of the queue...LOVE THOSE. It's been a long and trying day....and it is over. Came home, cooked dinner, found out Billy is going Vegetarian for a little while, ate some pig, hung out with my brother, watched some TV, talked to Jen, typed in my blog..that's about it. And that is my day. I did however find out that I will be getting Signed off to run tours by myself soon. But I won't actually be able to run boats until April 9th at the earliest cause they still haven't given me my water-safety class. Time will pass slowly...but it will supply me with money..so whatever. I work all week..most likely ay greeter...unless I lose it and they are forced to send me to preboard or something like that. Post soon.

And Now An Update

My show went quite well...The best show ever at Moonlight in many people's opinions. On the final day I put the kid who played Jay in a trashcan full of used Coffee Grounds cause the litte guy told me I wouldn't...and after annoying me for 2 months...without fail everyday...He had it coming. Then I put some chocolate cake in his face..and now my brother is staying with me for his Spring Break. I work 40 hours again this week...YAY MONEY. I am not making any Annie Rehearsals...I am a bad actor...BAD ACTOR. And that's all. That's life. Try to post again soon..but with work I forget.

Meltdown Day

Well...today was the day of Eric's meltdown. Sorry I haven't posted for a while all you devoted readers...Namely..Jen and Lu Lu...and maybe Billy. Here is the brunt of it...all posted to Billy in an IM...poor guy..he's a great friend.

ThePoetremage: I will get over it...either that...or I will work more and talk less. Either way...life goes on.

BluesBrother42: don't say that

The PoetreMage: Don't say what? That I will work more and talk less? Or that life goes on?

BluesBrother42: the work more talk less part

The PoetreMage: Oh ok.

The PoetreMage: I don't think I will live with Nathan after our next lease period. Like me, you, and Nathan will live together this time next lease period...and then I will prolly get my own place...or maybe a place with just you...or a place with someone else...But I think living with Nathan is hurting our friendship.

BluesBrother42: that can happen

The PoetreMage: We just come from completely different worlds. I come from having to watch my money, and having to grow up early, and knowing that I will work all my life....Nathan comes from money...and bragging...and...Nathan... I am the most mature of the three of us living here right now...I wanna be the kid dammit. I wanna be irresponsible and spend lots of money on things I want...and all that crap..but I can't...I watch Nathan do it and then listen to him complain cause he spent 4 thousand dollars in 2 weeks... And Matts no better..he is making ridiculous amounts of money and he is constantly complaining about how he has none. And then him constantly getting huge roles...That is just annoying....And people comparing me to him onstage...

BluesBrother42: I'm sorry buddy

The PoetreMage: Sorry...I can take a lot...but eventually I melt down.

BluesBrother42: with good reason

BluesBrother42: any other person would melt down under the circumstances

The PoetreMage: Sometimes more articulately than others....this time being one of them....

The PoetreMage: And the worst part is..I don't know how to make it better...

BluesBrother42: I wish I knew how to make it better

The PoetreMage: It's ok.

The PoetreMage: Matt moving out will help some.

The PoetreMage: You moving in will help some.

The PoetreMage: Me making money will help some.

The PoetreMage: Eventually getting a role onstage will help some.

BluesBrother42: all very true

BluesBrother42: when I move in you won't be alone, we can be broke together

The PoetreMage: Getting put on equal playing ground with Nathan would help some...whenever that happens.

BluesBrother42: you don't have to be on equal playing grounds with Nathan

BluesBrother42: what the hell is equal playing grounds with nathan anyway

The PoetreMage: Getting cast in a role of similar size in the same show.

The PoetreMage: A singing role.

The PoetreMage: Sorry...I'm done..This is my occasional melt down...wondering what I am doing with my life...if it's worth it...why I try so hard....everything...

That's that...That is my meltdown. It's here for all to see. Good thing Nathan and Matt don't read my journal...might open a few eyes...when you put it in writing it brings it into reality.

Anger Relayed Through Calmness

Well I did auditions again last night. Then I came home and ate a huge bowl of ice cream. It wasn't that it went poorly...it was just that I got a real strong feeling about halfway through that I wasn't going to get cast in this show. I was awarded a rapper name though. Jodie, great woman who played the narrator in Moonlight Players' Christmas Carol when I was Bob Cratchit, said that I was so white that my rapper name is Freska..with a Capital K. I am pretty white..... Oh well. Then after the rehearsals everyone kept telling me that that was the best audition any of them has ever seen me do. Then Jen came up to me and said, "You were REALLY good the last couple of nights at auditions." only further pushing me into the thoughts that I won't get cast...cause of how it was said...in that way that easily translates into "If you don't get cast it's not cause you aren't a good actor..and if I were casting the show by myself I would cast you in the show." Then I came home and waited for Billy to sign on cause I really needed to vent. He didn't sign on and Jen got worried so I promised to call her when I heard from him...then I passed out at about 11:30...woke up at around 2:30 and went to change out my laundry...only to find out I forgot to turn on the dryer...so I turned it on went back to bed and woke up at 8ish. I continued my laundry, then just as I was getting in the shower work called and told me not to bother coming in cause it was raining and I would be stuck at greeter all day...I have been feeling like I might be coming down with something....so I called in rather than stand in the rain all day. I did laundry all day and cleaned my room. Met up with a friend from work but had to call it short cause he had to go unexpectedly.....causing me to pick him up and drop him off in all of 45 minutes...and he lives 10 minutes away. Cooked my lunch, ate it, cleaned up a little, watched some T.V. talked to Billy...found out he knows the cast...asked Jen if he could tell me...she said no...continued to worry about casting....talked to Billy...got addicted to a game but forgot to save a link to it so I lost it...Got stood up by Billy for a movie about a Giant Shark....cooked dinner...ate it...cleaned up while trying to watch Dracula 2:The Ressurection...talked to Lu Lu...and now...on with the sleep. OH! And here's a brief description why I need more money.

Eric: What's up?
Lu Lu: nothing much... just planned a random trip to NYC
Eric: Fun...still need to go there.
Lu Lu: you HAVE to.. maybe you can tax deduct it
Eric: How? For what?
Lu Lu: um... if you go see shows, if you're an actor? maybe? maybe you could call your universal job an actor job?
Eric: Not gonna happen...First...you gotta have the money to put up front...and I don't...second...no.


Anybody wanna donate to the "Eric Needs To Be A More Well-Rounded Actor" fund?

CURSE THE DRAW OF THE HERRERA PUNCH!!!

Today I have a stomach ache. But it was worth it. I went to Lu Lu's party last night...great party....even if it did make me feel severly inadequate as a singer. All those talented encore people...and then the other ones who are currently on their way or have been or currently are on Broadway. It was a fun time though. Did my show all weekend. It was good times. Sunday Lu Lu, Erika, and Cindy came to see it and they seemed to like it. I got the water works going pretty convincingly during my big scene...so that's good. Then I went to auditions for "The Complete Works of William Shakespeare Abridged", I think they went very well..but I really don't think Tim will cast me...he tends to decide his casts before auditions..and I don't think he likes me as an actor..which is fine. Not to fond of him as a director..just really wanna do THAT show. Billy, Andrew, and myself showed up in suits to draw attention to ourselves...well...more attention to ourselves. I was in a 70's leisure suit that belonged to my father but somehow ended up in my closet after the move, Andrew was in a very Mr Howell suit (Rich guy from Gilligan's Island), and Billy wins with his BRIGHT ORANGE SUIT...it was great. We left auditions and went to Herrera House..walked in and clawed our way up the piano after a brief stint of laughter cause a girl that I was mortal enemies with in High School was there...and she doesn't even know Lu Lu. We got hugs from Lu Lu and then Billy and I went to McDonald's cause all the real food had already been picked over several times. Came back, talked with Erika, Nathan, Cindy, and Amber. Billy left, argued with Cindy and Erika cause they were worried I wouldn't be ok to drive and that I should leave my car there and let Erika drive me home. I won...Erika left, I stayed. I sang "Feed Me, Git It" with Nathan...felt inadequate...then I sang "Close Every Door"....felt inadequate....then I sang a bunch of stuff from "Into The Woods" as the Baker...felt inadaquate....seeing a trend here. Nathan and Amber left...after a whole night of oogling her..Nathan was pretty tired. I stuck around for a little longer and then I drove home and crashed HARD. Woke up today and regretted not drinking water when I got home. Good times at Herrera House.