Do you get recess in Culinary School?

So in just 15 hours I am reentering the world of college. I start Culinary school at 7:30 tomorrow morning. I am excited but terrified. I haven't been in school for several years and for some reason culinary school is scarier than theater. I know it's just my own hang-ups getting in the way. So I am trying to forget about the terrified and focus on the excited. I'll blog later.

2 more weeks....

So...I discovered yesterday that my computer will not be fixed by monday as I had previously hoped. The good news is that the harddrive is fine. The bad news however is pretty bad. My motherboard is bad. That costs about as much as my laptop....so I will be going to the Black Friday sale at Best Buy two weeks from now and getting a new desktop computer to replace the hunk of plastic that used to mean so much to me. Anyway...school starts Monday and I am stoked...I'll blog later.

So I feel...uh...I feel...ah screw it

School starts in 5 days...5 days from now I will be re-entering the school setting on my way to being a certified culinarian. In one year and 3 months I will be a certified chef. That's kinda scary. Money is..still an issue. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel. To bad that light isn't actually the sun reflecting off a big pile of gold bars or something along those lines..but I guess I can't be picky about this. I talked to Olive Garden about being a server and they love me...unfortunately their only training time is from 9 to 5...and I got to school Monday through Friday 7:30 to 12:30. So they are going to try to come up with some solution for my training issues and try to hire me..that's all I know. Things in my not so personal life are getting better. I'll leave it at that. Want to know more...ask...it's not so personal after all. OH! And my computer is on it's way to being fixed. I made a friend during HHN this year who is a computer genius and he's gonna fix it for me for next to nothing....HOORAY! I'm sure that is seconded by my roommate who has graciously let me use his computer all this time...well I guess we could probably go with tolerated me using it after a long period of arguement...but hey...It was a still a nice thing to do. Thanks Billy! Anyway..I'll blog later.

Update

So my life...right now...in a nutshell....kinda...blows. I never know what is going on. If you look back...I said I wasn't depressed...well I WASN'T...now I am. No money, work sucks, relationships...could fill a whole blog...and if you read back my persuit of one almost has...and school is starting. The apartment is a refuge until I realize that I must pay for said refuge and then it washes over me. I date and I find mysel often confused by dating cause even though Iw ant it it sucks. That's right people dating sucks. Money sucks...and not having any hurts the dating too. School should make me feel better about 5 hours a day..but then make things worse the other 19 hours cause I will have 5 less hours to find money. Anyway...I am only depressed when I stop to think about my impending 25th birthday...and what I have yet to do with my life. One of the things in the forefront is the fact that I have had exactly ONE seriuos relationship..or relationship that I thought was serious only to find out that I was never even dating that person according to him. Yeah...that blows chunks. I will find money, I will find love, I will find happiness. Health, Wealth, and Happiness. Anyway...I'll blog later....hopefully not quite as later as this time.

About Frikkin Time

So it looks like everything is finally working out...kinda. All that is left for my financial aid worries with school is for my dad and I to actually sign the loan paperwork. He has already been approved..so that is done. My record card is finally fixed so I can get my transfer to Disney Characters...nice. Now I just have to get casting on the phone....not so easy...or nice. I will, barring any unforseen disaster, yeah...I'm talking to you God, be starting school on the 13th of November. I am also taking the stilt walking class in 2 weeks...and then I will be joining the ranks of the stilt walking world. HOORAH! Anyway...I'm gonna go. Blog atcha later.

Eric's Perpetual "huh?"

So I am finding myself more and more frequently confused with life in general. No matter what I try things just don't turn out as planned. I get a good job, it falls short. I meet a fantastic person, they turn out to be not so fantastic. I start a great day, it turns into a week I wish I could forget. I am not depressed...I just think I may expect to much of the people and the world around me. I take to many things at face value. I have to stop doing that. People aren't two dimensional...you'd think as an actor I would know that. lol...apparently not. My life in a nutshell right now is confusing.

I'm just trying to find the place where I fit in the world...and every time I think I've found a niche for myself it slips away and I fall face first into nothing. Culinary Arts school is looking fantastic but everyday it is something new. First my financial aid was a problem...well not just first, but still. Now Valencia is refusing to release my transcripts cause they say I owe them money..which I don't. Maybe I should just wait and not do school until after the land sells and I can be financially stable. I don't know.

Not to mention my love life...gah. I don't know...I think I just want to be with someone so bad that I fall faster than anyone ever should. I find someone..they show interest and so I reciprocate and continue on the "TV/Movie" romance track and before the end of a season they move on. And this could all just be me being paranoid. I found one person that I like right now, but I am noticing patterns already and I don't know how to stop it.

My financial life is...bad. I frequently find myself wanting to crawl into bed and just not get up...ever. Maybe that's why I throw myself head first into relationships, cause if I am there...I'm not here..and I'm not thinking about any of this.

I did do something today that I rarely ever do...cause I know I am a little self-absorbed. The person that I like was having a bad day and I listened and didn't say a word about what was going on with me. That is rare...I frequently get branded as the one-upper..cause when someone says they had a bad day I chime in with what happened to me. I hate that about me...and I try not to..but before I realize I am doing it..I'm done. I think my thought process is that "misery loves company"...so if I tell them that I had a bad day too..maybe they won't feel so bad about theirs. I don't know. It's stupid. I just want to know what to do with my life. Part of me wants to move far away and start over..but that takes money...and initiative...and at the moment I don't think I have either. Anyway...that was my random blog for the evening. Blog later.

A Very Quick Plug

Once Upon A Mattress opens this Wendesday and runs Thursday, Saturday, Sunday, Wednesday, and Thursday...starting at 8:30. I will talk to all of you later. You come to the Epcot Cast Parking lot to get your tickets and go to the show. If you need more details call me and I'll give you what I have. Tickets are 10 dollars. Later everyone.

Funny....Really Funny

So my internet is back up...as I stated in the previous post...however my computer is dead. I got the blue screen of death people. You know the one...the "I'm not even gonna open in safe mode" blue screen...FATAL ERROR! Strongbad would totally know what I was talking about. All else is as it was. I'm single...confused...less broken that before...and getting closer to fuming. So..yeah. I'll blog when I can.

I'm Back...On The Net

Not really a lot to say. Work is going fine, life is fine, the shows going to be amazing. I freaking dance my butt off in this show...it's wierd. K...call me. I'll blog later.

A Little Stronger

The days are almost back to normal. Training for Mission Spacerace. It's a blast. Love this venue...enough that I wouldn't mind being there 5 days a week. School is...coming...kinda. Financial Aid...sucks. Once Upon A Mattress has become my saving grace. Keeps me sane. I haven't talked to Swank since it all went down. I want to...but it's a hard subject to approach. It will be approached eventually...hopefully soon. That paired with the fact that my cell phone has been turned off until Friday...make it very hard to find answers...closure...peace. Whatever. Anyway...off to today's Sollow Saloo. I'll blog when I can.

Empty

The last couple days has been taxing. Work is coming along and rehearsals for "Once Upon A Mattress" at S.T.A.G.E. are going swimmingly. Last night both the musical director and the director at one point, seperately, said that the part of Prince Dauntless was tailored for me. A perfect fit. I think I probably would have blushed if not for the events of the night before. I have been kind of numb since I woke up Tuesday morning. I know things will grow back together and feelings will return to working order eventually. Anger is so easy...and not being able to feel it through this thick cloud of confusion is frustrating...but that too has fallen deep within the folds of the harsh cloud. But I do see a future just beyond the mist. I have a job, I have school, and I have people who love me. Even if at times they do things that I don't understand. I will blog later with more info about Mattress. I know it opens on September 20th and runs some wierd days. That's about it. Please come see it...It's going to be awesome. I mean as they said....the part was tailored for me. :) Later everyone.

Outage

Hello out there. Just a heads up. My internet got turned off last ngiht due to a complete lack of money. It will be back on eventually...Probably a couple of weeks. On a related note I am not going to be around very much cause I am scheduled 60 hours this week and 56 next week. That's gonna stop real soon...cause I am not going to let it continue...and that may lead to me letting my school place me in a job somewhere in the Culinary Arts field. Yeah...that's right...my school. I got accepted yesterday. I will be attending The Orlando Culinary Academy Le Cordon Bleu Culinary Arts Program starting November 13th. Yay for me. Sorry in advance to anyone I may see while I am in the foul mood that I have been in for the last couple days...work is not making me happy. I'm sure it will pass. I'll blog when I can. Goodbye world.

A Great Day

So today was my 24th birthday and it was fantastic. It all started at midnight as I was still awake and striking set for Encore! Spark of Creation which was wonderful. I went to Ale house and had some drinks with my new friends and Swank. Then he came over and spent the night. This morning I got up and left him to sleep while I went to breakfast with my mom, dad, brother and the rest of my mom's side of the family that lives around here...along with Bob and Donna (Close family friends). Then I came home and Swank and I went to Cocoa Beach He gave me a swimsuit, a day at the beach, a Target Gift Card, a book about Pop Psychology for Superheros, and (my favorite of the gifts) a day with him. We played at the beach for a few hours getting some sun and not enough sunscreen in a few places, then headed back home for a shower and dinner at Cheesecake factory with about 20 of my closest friends. It was fantastic. The best birthday I have had to date. Luerne gave me a book of poetry from Billy Collins with the sweetest thing written inside, Billy and Tracy gave me a Target gift card, Alyson gave me a button that says "Hooray 4 Underpants" and I got some really great cards from everyone..not to mention their company which is what I really wanted for my birthday anyway. Truly wonderful. I love you guys. All of you. I'll blog later.

Marching Into Battle

So I am going to work in about an hour to find out if we can resolve this whole thing peacefully...and then tonight..ENCORE! begins. I'm excited. The show looks like it is going to be truly amazing. I hope most of you can make it. Anyway...my blogs are going to get even fewer and farther in between very soon. I will be losing both cable and internet for a while. It was supposed to get turned off yesterday but the guy never showed...so..yeah...whoohoo! Anyway..I'll blog when I can. The forecast is a 2 week blogging dryspell...but then we should be up and running again...unless it happens sooner.

Bullshit

So I'm home. I went into work today at the place that I work that shall remain nameless. If you know me you know where that is. They changed my schedule and no one informed me. I check the internet posting Friday morning and they must have changed it Friday night. I was supposed to be in the last two days aparently. No one called me..they just asked around to see if anyone knew where I was. BULLSHIT! Then I went in today and found out that I am not in today or tomorrow. They had traded Sunday and Monday for Tuesday and Wednesday. So yeah. I talked to my manager and they said that basically they can do whatever they want and there's nothing I can do about it. BULLSHIT! So I will continue to work there and play it safe for a while..but I will be letting Le Cordon Bleu place me if this Entertainment Coordinator thing doesn't work out. Fun times. Sunday marks my 24th year on this planet..and still...I don't know where I belong. I just know where I feel happiest. Maybe this year I'll find that those two things will for once overlap. I'l blog later.

No Place I'd Rather Be

So the last month has been fantastic. As Swank said...I have a lot to be happy about. I find myself smiling almost constantly. I try to decide what my favorite thing is..but I can't pinpoint it. Going to sleep together, cuddling all night, waking up together, cuddling in the morning, laughing together, Watching TV together, going to Brunch together on Sundays, texting all day, having a second place I feel at home. So now that you are all sick of my blog..I'll move on. Innoventions is...thus far..dissapointing...but it will get better. I am officially applying to Le Cordon Bleu at the end of the week hopefully to start somewhere around Novemeber or December. Very excited about that. I am also going in to take some tests and interview for an Entertainment Coordinator position that I interviewed for like 6 months ago at Universal and they just called me last week about it. That could pay off. Anyway...I'm gonna go. Happily Signing Off.

The Future Tastes Wonderful

So a lot has happened since I last blogged. I started training for my new job at Innoventions. It is going well. Swank and I are seeing a lot of eachother and have very little to complain about..and I think it's probably making those around me just a little sick to their stomach..but hey..I'm happy...deal. Now onto the thing most of you know NOTHING about. I toured Le Cordon Bleu Orlando Culinary Acadamy Monday of this week. Talked with a liason and went over their Culinary Arts program and a course of action for myself. I got a recommendation to attend starting as early as October of this year. It is a one year program in which I would earn an A.S. and become a Certified Culinarian. It's very exciting and terrifying. So that's that. There will be lots of practice for people to eat..and as most all of you know...I love to cook for people I love...and I kinda love everyone lately...lol...so yeah. YAY FOOD! I'll blog later.

Practice Makes...Better

So after weeks and weeks of looking for a job I finally found one..and a good one. Benefits, the whole 9. I will be working at Innoventions starting next week. I went to a costume party on Friday night at Jon's. It was fun. I was Spiderman, Swank wore a Toga, Billy was "the worst roommate ever", and Tracy was a pirate wench. We had fun..I was glad I finally got Swank, Billy, and Traccy in the same room. All is well. So..yeah..dinner now. I'll blog later.

36 Hours Of Random Wonders

Ok...well only like an hour and half was really random..but whatever. I had a great couple of days. A BBQ with swimming and Lilo and Stitch, 13 hours of sleep, Brunch with a group of great people and one little girl who loves to touch other people and thier food, "The Devil Wears Prada", a walk around Lake Eola, my first trip to Wine Bar, dinner at Anthony's, Dessert at Gelatone, Family Guy, The Simpson's, The Venture Brothers, 8 hours of sleep and a kiss goodbye. It really was great. So now I am back in reality...but still happy. So anyway....I have Encore tonight, 4th of July tomorrow, and the rest of the week is kinda up in the air. I will be going in for my 2nd interview at Disney for Innoventions presenter sometime at the end of the week. That's all I know..and Friday night is the costume party...that will be fun. I'll blog later.

Now Before You Call Child Services...

That was just for Swank. Anyway...life is good. Spending a lot of time helping out my family at the moment, and job hunting, and with Swank. I'm finding happies incredibly easy to come up with lately. I am going to interview for a job at Florida Hospital as a Bill collector. Not my ideal job..but it will pay the bills and provide me with time to do theater and hang out with whoever I so choose. :) Mom's here to go with me to buy ribs and stuff for the BBQ tomorrow. I'll blog later.